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I’m broken now…
But somehow,, I’m still hoping
Fistly, I try to put the pain behind me
So you don’t have to see all the pain
I’ll keep it silent in my heart
I’ll hold it in my quiet arms
But all of that can’t hide the way I feel

An unsaid truth is like a wall
It always keeps us apart
I regret that I never say it
Now, when chances are not there
I’m seeking for it
I whisper to myself, as if I were stupid

So now, as a friend I need to tell you
What is inside my heart
What is the secret that I always hide it from you
Think this poem as a caress
That says my affection gracefully
The more I am away from you
The more I want you here right by my side
The more I think about you
The more I want you near

waLah,,waLah…
Ini RanCu terSerang virus opo toH yoo ????
Lagi sTudy weeK tuh hrsNa bLajar Nak,, iki kok maLah asiK2an buAt bLog terus2an segh ???? ckckckckck………
Yupz,, yupz,, harap makLum degh…
bgiNiLah anaK yg sedaNg boSen,, biNun,, buTuh hiBuran !!!!

--RanCu--

a Change....

eheM.. eHem…
RanCu mo ngobRoL2 agh….
Yupz..yuPz.. berhubung skrg Lg zamanNa “Study WeeK”,, I have a Lot of spare time…
I know that I shouLd spend this time effectiveLy & efficientLy…. yaH,, mengiNgat buKu2 yg tebeLna ga kiRa2 (amPe bisa buaT pingsaN org kLo kena puKuL tuh buKu),, seharusNa & seLayakNa saYa tuh nyiciL beLajar… buKan bgiTu buKan ???
anyWay,, di ruMah males ngaPa2in (hanYa mondaR manDir mejA mkn & dapuR)… maKa drpd krn oLeh sebaB iTu,, disiniLah saYa menuLis bLog haNya unTuk menGhabizkaN waktu…

hmm…hmm…
I just oPened my oLd photo aLbum (thx to om MonyeT yg udaH bwiN ke siNi…)
When I opened it,, ehm…ehm… feeL Like I wanna go back to my oLd Life… at thiZ particular of time,, I really mizz my parentz… when I saW the photos one by one,, hmmmmm the memories suddentLy come into my mind….
terNyata RanCu bner2 bruBah… aLthough peruBahan nTu dLm haL yg sekeciL apaPun,, but Rancu muLe bruBah…

sesuAi dgN bahan FA hr iNi,, peruBahan….
terNyata di dLam Tuhan, Rani bner2 bruBah… seteLah direnung2i,, ke araH yg Lbih bgs tenTuna…
peruBahanNa ga hrs diLihat dLm haL yg bsr kan ?? kadang kt bs bruBah dLm haL2 keciL yg ga kiTa sadaRi… duLu bgt sbeLom Rani dkeT ama Tuhan,, Rani tuh anaK yg bs diBiLang keRas kLo dah puNya kemauaN… kLo dah biLang A,, yah braRti A… ga ad tawaR2an Lg… but now,, I caN reaLize that He has already changed me…. Rani sadAr skrg Rani udaH bs Lebih kompromi dLm haL2 terTentu,, udaH bs ngaLah sama tmen,, dah bs ngeRtiin keaDaan & perAsaan org,, waLopun msh jg bLjr buat Lbih peKa Lg… but at Least,, peruBahan Ntu tamPak nyata bukan ???

Then,, sperTi yg saya critaKan di FA… duLuna tuh haTi Rani seKeras baTu.. mungKin ntu related ama gaYa RanCu yg boyish abizz… tuH haTi bs sedinGin guNung es kLi,, hahahhaah… But noW,, as the time goes by & wiTh the touch of my Lord,, rani muLe ngeRasa kLo akU daH nggaK sekeras duLu Lg… justru skRg,, cpet ngerasa iBa… seengakna mule tumBuh Lah sdikit bagi2 perhatiaN ke tmen2, hahahaha… kLo ad yg Lg kesusaHan,, pengen rasaNa sLaLu ad buat ngeBantu… tp apa daya,, kadaNg ad haL2 yg ngebatAsin aku untuk berBuat sesuaTu… but Praise Lord that He made changes to me….

Hmm…hmm… tiBa2 saYa menganTuk (sambiL menguap negh ~_~”)
wakTu menunJuKkan puKuL 1.51 am…
Ok agh,, saya mo mLanjutKan chatting kembaLi… hahahhaahaha….

DunnO...

Something strange has come over me
My head is battling with my heart
You make me feel upside down
I feel the broken heaven inside my heart
You unlock my heart that I kept well hidden

I remember all the things we did together
I find my happiness in seeing you
I know you are not mine and I’m not yours
I know we haven’t known each other long
But I see u everyday
And time went by so fast when I was with you
Even though I know I can’t be with you, it stays on my mind

Why did you have to come into my life if you weren’t going to stay?
How could you just go?
You know that you made an impact on me
I guess you don’t know how much it hurts
I can’t think you know and just don’t care

Why did you change?
What did I do?
How could you forget so fast?
I’ve learned not to believe my eyes
Nor trust the instinct of my heart

I don’t understand what happened to us
Or why you have turned away
Of course you are free to do as you like
I want you to know that your friendship is something
You’d find in me still a good friend
We are good friend, I appreciate it

--RanCu--

ehm..ehm..ehm..

Here I am ….
Late at night on the sofa
Remember when we first met
You gave a smile that I could never forget
I think I can’t tell you what this meant to me
How can I hide it all away?
How can I hide it when we are together?

You make it everything so easily
You make me laugh a lot
I know that we have got a real good time
How can I pretend these entire things?
I always get stuck with these emotions
How can I put what I feel into words?
I’ve been thinking to keep it going on

But, I guess that this is over now
I should leave you now
I said I’ll leave you
Cause I can’t take the pain
It’s hard to continue this love that ain’t the same
Nothing I can do about it, nothing I can say

Suddenly, I can never seem to give up on you
Is it me?
Am I so complicated?
I was lying to myself…
And now, I’m dying in this hell

– RanCu –