Looking back on 2008,, as the finaL seconds are ticking away…
I reaLize how Lucky I am to be aLive,,
And how bLessed in heart I feeL today…

This Last year been hard on me…
However there had been heath issues,, that added much to my dismay…
But 2009 is upon us,, there’s no need to dweLL on the past…

The future is in our grasp…
Tomorrow is a new day,, and the start of a new year…
Let’s put away aLL our fears…
Let us embrace the new year
Let’s start 2009 off right…

Le gra’

The hidden pLace

Shout it out...

aLways standing stiLL…
that’s what I have to be…

gotta keep it strong…
that’s what I wanna be…

stiLL,,
kindness and compassion be in mind…

Le gra’

It cannot be Love if it’s not feLt by two..
But yet…
Let her fLy…
Let her soar high above…
Let her Love…
Let her Live…

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2 become 1

She says it’s just Like any other Love…
They say every Love story is unique…

She says it’s about the chemistry…
They say Love wiLL grow…

She says it’s because of simiLar personaLity…
They say it can depthened the understandabiLity…

She says it’s the matter of age gap…
They say the difference is not that much…

She says it’s may be caused by the race…
They say it can be bridged over…

She says the reason is the spirituaL maturity…
They say everyone is Learning to get better…

She says it’s more to where they come from…
They say sociaL status is just an attribute…

She says it’s just a dream…
They say “You deserve a better man”…

She says just hoLd on & keep it siLent…
They say to teLL about the feeLing…

One thing that waking her up is…
When his Love is not there,, how the two become one??

WiLL she sink with her own feeLing??
Or wiLL that guy save her from this drowning??

Le gra’

gaya skrg...

“Life is aLL about choices”
It was foLLowed by Tropicana SLim,, hiehiehiehie ;p

Groupband pun membLudak jumLahna…
Perasaan,, yg paLing trakhir Rani tau soaL band gini2an jg Samsons ato Nidji…
Buat band baru udah kyk kacang goreng skrg…
Smoga masa berkaryana tuh band ga cepet abies degh…
Ntar br 1 aLbum kLuar,, bLn dpn udah ga kedengeran apa2 Lg or ga muncuL batang idungna Lg…
Heranna,, org2 pun hapaL smua Lagu2 hits tiap band…
Mengutip dikit dr conversation pas tmnku pake gaya bhs masa kini:
R: “Kmu apaL smua Laguna ya??”
D: “Ya iya Lah,, masa ya iya dong… MuLan aja JamiLah bkn Jamidong… Duren aja dibeLah bkn dibedong…”
R: “Errmmmm… (tes..tes..tes… -_-) Kerjaanmu tiap hr cuma ngapaLin Lagu ya?? Kok prasaan smua Lagu kmu bs apaL…Hieheihei…”
D: “Enak aja Loe.. Gimana gue ga mo apaL,, secara tuh Lagu Lg ngetop abies gtu Lhoooo”…

Haizzz,, bhs zaman skrg,, hihihihi…
Untuk case “ya iyaLah”,, pertama kLi denger sempet nge-bLank,, bbrp dtk kmdn br dong,, hieheiehi ;p
Untuk case “secara” segh wkt dsono jg udah pernah denger,, hehehehe…

BaLik soaL band…
Dan saLah satu band yg Lg naek daun iaLah d Massiv…
SingLe2napun digunakan oLeh berbagai sinetron sebagai sountrackna…
Sehari Rani di rmh bisa kLi denger tuh Lagu2 mreka 10x Lbhhhh,, ckckckckck…

Dr sekian bnykna Lyric2 yg berterbaran dimana2,, cuma sepenggaL Laguna d Massiv yg juduLna “Diam tanpa kata” inih yg nyantoL di ati ;p
Kau takkan pernah sadari,, betapa ku mencintaimu…
Kau yang seLaLu,, aku banggakan…


Le gra’

He know that she Loves him
He know that she cared
But he didn't recognize it
and he just put it in vain.........

Maybe she’s just so stupid
That's why he Left her behind
But then she reaLized
it was not her Lost anymore.........

Again she said, 'hi! ,
'But he onLy said, 'goodbye! .'

Le gra’

1.35pm

I dunno how to say thx to y’aLL….
You heLp me through it aLL…
In happiness & sorrows,, you’re there…
As Long as your presence are there,, I feeL secure ^^
Thanks for sharing this year with me…
Expecting more to come in year ahead,, hohohoho…
My LoveLy bLessianzzz ;p

Few hours to fLy….
Just a month away to see you again though ;p
BeLieving to come back with a new spirit,, yeahhhh ^^

A note for aLL my friendz…
Enjoy your hoLiday,, hohohohoho….
Receive your gift of Love in this Christmas ^^
Cya when I cyaaaa….
Loph you aLL,, muach muach ;p
If you wiLL be in Jakarta in Dec-Jan,, don’t forget to contact me ;p

Diiringi ama Laguna si Om Chris botak,, daku undur diri yaaa,, hohohoho ;p



Le gra’

My pLan is not Your pLan

Remember that a friend of mine toLd me that he was disappointed with his best friend…
And now,, I feeL the same way….
I was disappointed,, very disappointed... coz the one who did it is one of my cLose friends…
Too bad,, but I can’t say anything…

SimiLar to his case,, I was too beLieve that my friend won’t disappointed me and in fact the thing didn’t work as what I want...
The thing that I guess won’t be a probLem for me turns to be a probLem,, haizzz…
Lucky that I know my God…
And his sms about Prov 3:5-6 was true…
Instead of hated my friend,, thx God that I can keep rejoicing Him aLL over again…

And as SaLvation is Here said in its chorus….
Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know His word never fails
And I know my God make a way for me…..

HopefuLLy,, this wiLL have a happy ending story
So God,, maybe it’s Your destiny,, hieheiheiehie ^^
I know that You’ve mesmerized me in Your way ;p

Le gra’

In Loving Memory of Pak De Muranto

Today something happened that I thought never wouLd this fast
I reaLize the memories I’ve made wiLL be aLL there is
My great uncLe’s memories,, ours….
See,, my uncLe passed away today and wiLL never be back
And now it’s moments with him that I wiLL sadly Lack

He won’t be here anymore to see me coming back to Jakarta
He won’t be here anymore to see me graduate
Because he is so far

But I know he’s in better pLace
He resides in heaven and is surrounded by God’s grace
Now he can watch over me throughout the night and day
And for me,, he can stiLL be a part

Thx for the memories..
Thx for the wise advices…
Thx for the heLping hands…
Thx for being my great uncLe…
God bLess you.. pak de…

Le gra’

within You

I am stuck with this abiding situation
Without a trace of understanding why
There is a specific reason for this unwanted affLiction
I beLieve I have been given this by God and onLy God
That I may fuLfiLL a task
That wiLL transform my Life and others
Arising emotions conflicting
Yet so tender,, I Live in You

Le gra’

The Hands of God

Tangan Tuhan

Apa yang kau aLami kini
Mungkin tak dapat engkau mengerti
Satu haL tanamkan di hati
Indah smua yang Tuhan bri

Chorus: Tuhanmu tak akan member
ULar beracun pada yang minta roti
Cobaan yang engkau aLami
Tak meLebih kekuatanmu

Tangan Tuhan sedang merenda
Suatu karya yang aggung muLia
Saatnya kan tiba nanti
Kau Likat peLangi kasihNya


O my faithfuL Lord…
Though I may not understand what’s happening now but You may aLLow it to show Your grace..
I may use it Later as my testimony for Your greatness ^^
I onLy ask for Your wiLL to be done in my Life…
I beLieve that Your mercy wiLL be given abundantLy…
And I’m going to Leave it aLL to You…
Coz I… I want to seek You first and don’t want to be disturb by those kind of things ;p

Le gra’

This is my faith Lord ;p

Aihhhh…
One of my wishes is fuLfiLLed ;p
Buffet sushi ^^

Woke up without a pLan to got out…
But since my roommate had come this dawn,, we ended up had our Lunch @ Icon ViLLage…
There’s nothing much staLLs to see there,, this is my third visitation there…
The reason is simpLy that we want to use our voucher that can be redeemed there…
After arrived there and Looked around twice,, we decided to eat Sakae Sushi instead of Korean restaurant…
Oh yaaa,, if I go there again,, I want to give it a try at Country Kitchen DeLicatessen,, it’s a MiddLe East restaurant that is served by onLy one man… He does the cooking,, the serving,, the payment… One man show,, hieheiehiehie… And he’s very friendLy though he may do it to attract customers,, hahahaha…
In Sakae Sushi,, we thought that we can eat more than 10 pLates since both of us were starving since morning,, hiheiehie…
Too bad,, si Keke onLy couLd finish 6 pLates…
As for me,, since this is one of my wishes before going back to Indo next week,, I put my best to break our aim… and I did it ;p



During eating time,, we feLt sLeepy….
If someone couLd send me a piLLow,, definiteLy I wouLd sLeep there ;p
Moreover,, I stiLL can use the voucher to buy few cakes from GeLare..
Aaaa,, so nice,, what a treatttt,, hoehoeheoheo...

Thx for the voucher ^^
It’s given at the right time ;p
Even for the smaLL thing Like this,, God wiLL provide..
Then,, how could I ask for more???
Hiuehueheueh….
Coz I’m sure that He takes care of me ;p
And for the rest,, He wiLL give it to me at the right time as weLL
This is my faith Lord ;p

Le gra’

A journey of Kiki & Keke

For more than 3 years we’ve known each other…
And for more than 2 years we’ve Lived together…
Bittersweet that we’ve been through…
Soon it wiLL be our memory…

Gud Luck my dearest roommate…
Thx for the days we’ve shared together…
Thx for the heLping hands…
Thx for coLouring my book of Life…
May God bLess you aLL the time ^^
Luv u my Keke ;p



Le gra’

I just want to know…
Can you be Like this???
Can you be Like this when they are not here???
Oooooo,, you may be Like this when there’s no other peopLe…
But,, you wiLL not count me in as weLL…

Hence,, everything seems fake to me…
Everything seems so wrong from the very first step…
Yet,, I faLL in the same trap…
Maybe I don’t need you…
What I need is…. them….
Those peopLe who make you to be yourseLf ;p

Le gra’

Chinese Garden & Japanese Garden

OfficiaLLy,, I get my new student pass,, praise the Lord ^^
Yeahhh…
After I heard a Lot of story about students’ case in the renewaL of student pass,, I just can say thx God for this student pass… At Least one case is ended ;p

StiLL have to manage other things,, but I’m not worry,, yeah.. yeah…
SureLy by the time I go back to Jakarta,, it’s been settLed ;p
So Lord,, pLease take care of it ;p

Went to Chinese Garden & Japanese Garden unintentionaLLy,, LoL… LoL…
I know I aLways Like that kind of scenery and reaLLyyyy.. I Like it…
My typicaL seghhh,, heiheihiee…


And weueeewwwww,, went to Live TurtLe & Tortoise Museum,, euhhh geLiiii bgttt..
But,, it was niceee…
There are various kinds of turtle there,, Lucuuuuuu,, tp geLiiiii iyuuuuuu…



Then,, the Bonsai Garden aLso niceeeee….
Bener2 dirawattt yah…

But too bad I didn’t waLk up to the seven storey pagoda,, capeeee bowww…

As for Japanese garden,, it’s more quiet and there’s nothing much there except the bridges…
Maybe they can buiLd Japanese houses there ;p

OveraLL,, oks !!!
Udah Lama ga jaLan2,, hieheiehie…
I definiteLy wiLL come there again ^^

Le gra’

The unimportant thing

Woeksss,, woekss…
I was tagged by Bimbyyyy…
Oks,, oks.. Since I’m not too busy,, Let’s do it babyyy ;p

RuLes:
Shout out those who tagged youList 5 unimportant(?!) things that make you happy
State the rules and tag 5 other blogs
Leave a comment letting the 5 blogs know they have been tagged

In my spare time,, I Like to sing…. Just sing whatever song that stuck in your mind… Yahhh,, tukang nyanyi di kamar mandi segh,, hieheiehie… Or,, just open youtube and search for the song andddd Let’s karaokeeeee,, huehueheuhe…. Take a bow was the updated song that I sang with Bimby…

Second things that come across my mind is watching Korean drama in mysoju or crunchyroll.. You can watch drama and movie from Korea,, Japan,, Hongkong etc.. The Latest drama that currentLy watched is Beethoven Virus & I wiLL finish it by tonite ;p









The next thing that I usuaLLy do in my room is pLaying guitar.. Just grabbed it and jreng,, jreng.. Though sometimes can’t find the right chord,, hieheiheie ;p
StiLL try to Learn it but I’m too easy to forget the chords,, arghhh... After see it through internet,, then the next day it wiLL be forgotten… Haizzz,, shouLd put more effort to it ^^
The Latest song is Meet You There,, haven’t complete it yet,, huhuhuhu…


Blogginggggg…. Either read my friend’s bLogs or post my entry,, but it become one of my hobbies since the past two years… Not just to treat it as diary,, but as dustbin as weLL,, huahahaha… I never expect that my posts can be easiLy understood… Hence,, if you feeL Like dun understand it,, that’s just me.. Sometimes,, it’s interesting to make it a LiL abstract ;p

The Last one,, I can’t think of anything eLse but sLeeping,, hieheihie…
Hmmm,, I know that I can easiLy faLL asleep as Long as you provide me a piLLow,, just a piLLow…






After Listing it aLL,, for me aLL of the things above are important…
Sooo,, what’s the unimportant thing that I usuaLLy do???
I just can think of one unimportant thing…
Letting you occupy my mind,, especiaLLy in my daydreaming time,, hiehiehiehie…
Remembering aLL the time that I had with you up tiLL now…
Wasting my mind to think of you whereas you don’t even know that I start to…….…

Now,, I tagged: Jenita,, KoChan,, Andreas,, Ivan,, Gheko.. ohhh,, but you and you and you aLsooo ^^

Le gra’

My medicaL check up resuLt is supposed to be out on this upcoming Wednesday,, but a caLL in this afternoon toLd me that it is ready to be coLLected…
Hence,, Bimby & I decided to coLLect it straight away & by today we’re going to give it back to TMC admin…
As I beLieve,, the resuLt wiLL be good…
The result of HIV test is negative & the resuLt for xray is normaL,, heiheiehie…
Butttttt…..
There’s typo error in my particuLar !!!!

Can you beLieve it that they type Singaporean as my nationaLity !!!!!!!
Huahahahaha….
Inih mah kLo anak2 TMC laen pd tau,, bisa dicengcengin & dibuLLy terus Rani ;p
Udah bs kebayang segh mreka bkL ngomong apa,, since Rani ga gtu suka nasi,, ga bs makan pedes,, jarang baLik Indo pas Liburan,, muLe ketuLaran SingLish…. Sigh…
Untung Cuma si Bimby yg tau ;p

Therefore,, the procedure of the renewaL for my std pass is much more faster than expected…
It is estimated that I get my new student pass on 8 Dec,, but Look at now,, by 28 Nov I can get it…

That’s the power of faith when we surrender it aLL to God..
Yeah,, I don’t have to worry about anything and instead,, I wiLL pray about everything ^^
Moreover,, recentLy I hear peopLe taLk much about faith,, faith and faith,, sounds that aLL of them are intended for me,, hiehiehiee…

Le gra’

His promise

This evening,, I saw rainbowww..
It was beautifuL….
Too bad,, I couLdn’t capture that moment…
Ahhhh,, remind me of a song PeLangi KasihNya….

Tangan Tuhan sedang merendaaaaa..
Satu karya yang agung muLiaaaaa..
Saatna kan tiba nantiiiii…
Kau Lihat peLangi kasihNyaaaaaa…

And as He showed His promise to Noah,, that’s how He wiLL show His promise to me ;p
Yippieeeee…

Le gra’

BCD - D = BC

Through whatever,, God aLways good to us…
Thx Lord,, my student pass has been approved…
Yey,, yey…
Thx Lord that the process is faster than the officer had been said,, weuwwww ^^
It onLy take a week where it suppose to be at Least 2 weeks,, yey yey yey…
Hence,, I have to go to medicaL check up to do bLood test & xray…
Decided to do it in cLinic @ Toa Payoh with Bimby,, hehehehe…
Arghhhh,, ngeri ndiri pas mo disuntikkk,, bnykkk bgtt darah yg diambiL,, teganaaaa…
By next wed the result wiLL be out & I know everything wiLL be ok,, coz we are heaLthy rite Mbiii?? ;p



The next thing is doing crazy thing together,, as usuaL where we are together ;p
Haizz,, it’s been so Long since we never spend time together yaaaa Mbiii,, hieheiheie…
The first thought was to take dvd @ my house & chit chat for a whiLe..
But,, the pLan was just the pLan for us,, the fact was totaLLy different ;p
She said the she wouLd went back home @ 2pm but the fact we ended the session @ 8pm !!!!

IncidentaLLy,, she took a nap @ Nissa’s bed,, video-ed me when I did my things,, took pictures & acting for the stupid things,, hahahha… dsr Bimbyyy….
Oh yaaa & our fave thing to do is crazy karaoke !!! Uhuyyyy,, one of my partners (BCD minus Dedek, red.) in doing crazy karaoke that I Love,, yihhaaaaa…

No matter how,, I wiLL praise the Lord for every joyfuL & sorrow that happened during these days…
He is good… My Jesus is superb ^^

Le gra’

one.. to.. three.. for...

give me more loving then i've ever had
make it all better when i'm feelin sad
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not
make me feel good when i hurt so bad
barely gettin mad, im so glad i found you
i love being around you. you make it easy, as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)

Chorus: theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words and that's what i'll do.
i love you.(i love you)

give me more lovin from the very start
piece me back together when i fall apart
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
make me feel good when i hurt so bad
best that i've had. im so glad that i found you
i love being around you. you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)

Is Loving you easy as easy as say 1234???
Owwww,, i wonder...
ReaLizing the thing Like "i hate that i Love you" is easy as easy as 1234...
Hoehoehoehoe...
Soooo,, the concLusion is,, saying "I hate you" is easier as easy as 1234...

Le gra'

chiLdhood cartoons

Too much taLk about Doraemon for the past 2 days remind me of my primary schooL,, where I addicted to Doraemon,, hieheiheie...
Pengen jadi Shizuka degh,, yg pinter maen instrument & trus Lembuttt,, hahaha....
Later on I found out myseLf Liked Detective Conan moreee and moreeee...
Among aLL,, I Like Detective Conan the mostttt,, uhuyyyyyy....
Nah,, kLo dsinih Rani mo jd Ran,, udah mirip kan namana ;p
Jago karateee & setia ama Shinichi Lg,, hieheihei...
But,, it was Candy Candy that stoLe my heart in the first pLace...
Sempet terkagum ama si Candy2na,, yg braninaaa mantaphz dah...
And not to forget,, the rememberance of SaiLor Moon..
Seandaina Rani kyk si Mercury yg pinterrrr,, hieheihei...
Yihaaaaa....
Ahhh,, fantasy masa keciLkuuuuu....

Le gra'

si keciL yg berbakat

Whooooooaaaaa,, this kid is sooooo cooL…
Kerennn skaLiii dy,, masih muda Lg,, br 12 taonn…
Wedeeee….
SaLuteeeeee…
I’m moved….
SungHa Jun….

Le gra’

aLLowance

The heart is the key to our emotions
It aLLows us to feeL
So why do I feLL Like my heart
Has been ripped into so many pieces

The heart aLLows us to Love
Even when the person we Love
Can’t or won’t show
That they Love us in return

The heart aLLows us to cry
To aLLow our tears to fLow
When we wish to show
That we care inside

Le gra’

StiLL

Hide me now under your wings
Cover me within your mighty hand

Chorus: When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul in Christ alone
Know his power in quietness and trust

Repeat chorus


One song that crossed my mind when Ps DanieL Chua preached was StiLL…
And it is my fave song,, hohohohoho….
UnLike usuaL,, the sermon this morning was different from what he had preached yesterday afternoon…
This morning he taLked about the eagLe… BasicaLLy I prefer dove than eagLe,, hahahaha…
The points were: aLL birds have eyes but eagLe has vision,, eagLe wiLL test first before he trust,, eagLe weLcome storm,, eagLe oiL their wings and the Last one was not Like the other birds which migrate,, eagLe remains…
As he spoke about the eagLe,, it feLt Like he spoke to me personaLLy…
Just Like that God answered me directLy before my eyes,, hieheiehie…
It was strengthen me and it bLessed me,, hohoohoho…

Aniweiii,, hehheehehe…
Today was superb especiaLLy for me…
Serving my kings wiLL aLways the onLy thing that I can’t give up… and I don’t want to give it up!!!
Cause above aLL,, what I can do wiLL never enough compared to what He had done in CaLvary…
That’s one point that I Learn from my famiLy…
Despite of everything that may happen to us,, I know that my parents wiLL aLways serve Him and I want to be Like them….
So yeahhh,, Thx Lord for aLLowing me to serve You today after what was happening before,, hieheiehie…
Thx for the warmth hands and prayer in the coLd haLL,, hehehehe…
Thx for the jokes and the funny stories…
Thx for simpLe being there and accompanied me today…
That's why I Love you ^^

Le gra'

I'm not worry ^^

“Do not worry about anything; instead pray about everything. TeLL God what you need and thank Him for aLL He has done" PhiLippians 4: 6

Father, thank You that You desire to and that You do take care of every LittLe detaiL of my Life.
HeLp me to teLL You what I need and thank You for aLL You have done..
Not worrying about whether I’LL have money tomorrow,, or where I shouLd Live in,, or how I’m gonna pay my schooL fee,,or what I’LL eat tomorrow or whether I wiLL even be breathing tomorrow..
Fix my eyes on the things of Your heart…

Le gra’

ReLated with the sermon by Ps. DanieL Chua about the mighty men of David,, I remembered a famous quote by JFK that said, “ Ask not what your country can do for you but ask what you can do for your country”

PersonaLLy most of the time I often ask God for this for that,, I want this I want that,, desperateLy asked Him to give me this and that,, without focusing on what I’ve done for Him….

Hence,, Let me serve You Lord with aLL my heart and with aLL my soul and with aLL my mind and with aLL my strength….
And may You teach me to be Your servant….

Le gra’

Can you wait???

Wait me there…
In the finish Line…
I know you wiLL stand up there…
And hopefuLLy I can reach it soon…

Just wait…
Be patient…
I’m trying as hard as I can…
Though you wiLL not know it..
Though you wiLL not reaLize it…

And when I reach the end…
I wiLL be there not to accompany you…
But to waLk with you…

Le gra’

Wad a tiring day for me…..
More exact,, wad a disappointing day…
But above aLL,, I’LL choose to give thanks to my dear God for everything…
At Least I stiLL can renew my student pass and hopefuLLy it wiLL be accepted and get it done within 2 weeks…
And yet,, I stiLL have to give thanks to God for the “Sopexa”,, though it may not be as high as my expectation….
Hence,, for wadeva it may happen today,, I have to give thanks…
And Let this be the part of my story that bring gLory to Him…

Le gra’

aLL is vanity...

What is wisdom ?
I ask myseLf that many times…
I’ve heard peopLe say “she is so wise..” “He is the wisest guy I know…” and such,, but truLy what kind of wisdom is that ??
I’ve been reading EccLesiastes LateLy,, and have been enjoy the simpLe wisdom from SoLomon..
He says it pLain and simpLe…
“Vanity of vanities”, says the preacher, “Vanity is vanities,, aLL is vanity” EccLesiastes 1:2

SimpLe enough…
The book of EccLesiastes is simpLy saying,, if you are Living without God,, everything is vanity..
Everything you do in this Life… is vanity…
James 3 says a Lot about how to determine if a person is “earthLy wise” or “heavenLy wise”
To be wise is more than just knowLedge,, but it is aLso works and his humiLity…
SoLomon gave God the gLory for his wisdom..
SoLomon showed no earthLy wisdom because he reaLized that everything on this earth is going to pass away…

Le gra’

“When you go through deep waters and great troubLe,, I wiLL be with you. When you go through rivers of difficuLty,, you wiLL not drown! When you waLk through the fire of oppression,, you wiLL not be burned up; the fLames wiLL not consume you.”
Isaiah 43:2

My LoveLy Jesus,, I just want to thank You for these timeLy words in my heart,, with the Lack of sLeep,, the heaviness on my spirit and the frigid temperatures in this room ;p… and just generaL irritation…
Father,, I thank You that I’m not aLone,, but that You are waLking with me…
I pray that You wouLd take tonite and make it Yours…
Thank You for Letting me finish aLL of that,, so that I couLd sit down and sort this aLL out with You…
Amen….

Le gra’

Ondy becoma a husband ^^

Nothing that I can say except Thx God for this past 2 weeks…
Not Like any other exam period that I’ve taken…. Too much tension here and there…
However,, my heart keeps rejoicing…
My Lips keeps smiLing…
My souL keeps praising Almighty Lord…
Jesus,, aLL my strengths are within You…
aLL my happinesses are come from You...
aLL my hopes are found in You…
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Wedding…. againnn??
It’s been a hot topic for the Last 2 months…
Aaaaaa,, Rani ditinggaL nikahhhhh…
Hihihihihihi….
Ternyata,, today is the day…
The day of his wedding…
Ondyyyyy,, cepet banget dy nikah…

Back to our chiLdhood,, our funny stories…
Zaman2 cupuuuu….
Pada tiap awaL bertemu,, kami sLaLu dgn poLosna maen2…
LaLu pada akhirma kami sLaLu berantem tiap ortuna menyebutkan soaL keinginan masa depan ntu,, hahahaha…
Ditambah dgn kehadiran sepupu2 kami yg turut menyemarakkan suasana gaduh & membuat kami makin panas,, hiehieheihei…
But,, to be honest… he was the cooLest boy at that time,, huahuahuahua….

LaLu,, pertengkaran diantara kami pun akhirna mereda seiring bertambahna usia kami,, waLopun mamina sLaLu mengucapkan haL yg sama di tiap ujung pertemuan keLuargaa kita,, geLinaaaaa….
Yeahhh,, we just didn’t care and took it as a joke…
Being the eLdest among his cousins,, bring more responsibiLities to take care of them in every famiLy gathering was heLd… and he aLways know how to handLe aLL of his cousins,, hiehieheiehi…
We’re good,, bahkan kami justru punya kebiasaan ngumpet & maen bareng di mobiLna ketika pesta2 ntu muLe membosankan ;p
But,, 1 yg ga brubah… acting cooL-na ntu Lhooo,, haizzz…

In the end,, jarak jg yg buat hubungan kami makin renggang…
He went to pursue his dream in music…
I never reaLised that he wanted to study music,, huahahahaha…
The Last time I saw him was in 2006 and I couLd recognize him untiL his mom toLd me that he was coming to that funeraL…

And Last week..
His famiLy came to mine and give an invitation…
BaLik2 dr Aussie Lgsg mo nikah ajeee,, hieheiehiehei....
He’s getting married,, weuwwwwww…
Hiehieheiehei….
SLametttttttttttt yeeee,, uhuyyyyyyyy ^^
Smoga smuana Lancar yah Ondy….
Hmmm,, generasi ke-3 inih,, ada pattern dLm haL ngeLahirin anak ga Ndy??
Huahahuaahuahua....
GBU abundantLy in you’re marriage ;p
Gideon S. A.,, the cooLest cousin that I’ve ever had,, hhiehieheiehie….

Le gra’

D#5 -- Dawn desire

For the first time within this year,, I just wanna say…. I wanna go homeeeeee !!!!!
Maybe because too many friends are going home for hoLiday or business trip or wadevaaaa….
Maybe because I start to miss Indonesian food ;p
Maybe because I miss my friends there…
Maybe because I haven’t go back aLong this year….
For whatever reason that may come out,, I know one thing for sure…
I wanna go back home because I reaLLy miss them now.. now… not tomorrow… nor next week… nor next month… but now….
My parents… What eLse can I say???
PhonecaLLs are not enough to fiLL my desire to meet them…
How Long shouLd I wait???
I miss them as in now….. sigh….

But,, just Leave it to God…
He wiLL show me the way so that I can go home faster ^^
I’m very sureeee that everything wiLL be okay,, yey yey yey ;p
And the other thing that most important is to seek for Your heart…
Just to have a resting time in You and Listen to Your voice…
I’m tired Lord…
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29.10.08 -- D#5
Hope to wake up earLy to reread few topics before went to the battLe fieLd...
Set my aLarm at@3.30am...
My "Running After You" rang and I just press turn off aLarm button instead of snooze,, haizzz...
LuckiLy 2 messages came in...
My dearLy friend and my LoveLy mom...
Hence,, I stiLL have time to revise ;p
Thx aniweiiii ^^

Le gra’

smua baik ;p

“Smua baik…” mengutip kata si koko usher yg kerjaana jd bozz muLuk ;p
For this past week,, at Least SMUA berjaLan dgn BAIK….
I stiLL have time rest in this exam period,, and the good thing is the peacefuL heart sureLy foLLow me,, hiehieheie….
Yesterday I just toLd Nissa that I reaLLy want cakes but sadLy I didn’t have time to buy it.. And this afternoon,, I got a bite of Tiramisu,, and it was reaLLy niceeee,, foLLowed by 2 pieces of ChocoLate… yummyyyy…
And though I can’t watch HSM3 in the foLLowing 2 weeks,, I stiLL have chance to rewatch HSM2 in the TV now… Vanessaaaaaa,, weuwwww… Owww,, my typicaL fave movie…

Oyaa,, i saw this one on my way home,, right in front of Hyatt...
I think,, it is cute,, isn't it??? Uowwww ^^

This week,, SMUA BAIK…
Tuhan emang baiiikkkkkkk… as Long as we give our Life to Him…
Love Him more ^^

Le gra’

MusicaL

Hmmm…
Here’s my fave tunes from HSM1-3








Le gra’

Lord,, may my desire for You rise above emotions..
I do want to be bLessed of You,, both personaLLy and in my ministry…
I commit myseLf today to a wiLLingness to take the cross and foLLow You and to take the necessary action to come on Your terms…

Father,, heLp me to be faithfuL in everything that You have given me to do…
Not worrying what may happen,, but resting and trusting in You for every detaiL on everday…
Thx God,, that You KNOW me deepLy and that You CARE for me ^^

Le gra’

D#4 -- A wake up caLL

As I came home from ceLLgroup,, I checked my emaiL…
Ah,, got an emaiL from you…
Wanted to repLy back,, but I guess I’m sick…
Eye irritation,, back pain,, headache,, hence I decided to sLeep earLy…

In the earLy morning I couLdn’t sLeep…
Tried to study but my body seems couLdn’t take it anymore…
What did I do?? I wrote an emaiL to you….
HonestLy,, I dunno what to write (too much hohoho,, hiehiehei ;p)…
But hopefuLLy,, you get the message that I want you to understand ^^
And fastLy I get back to the bed…

The warmth of the bLanket surrounded me…
I heLd Skimmer in my hand whiLe my phone is ringing…
Who’s the crazy peopLe caLLing me @ 4am???
But ooo Lookkkk,, is it you??
Did I wrong?? The name,, the picture…yeah,, it’s you…

“Hey Rani…”
“Uhmmm... Kok tumben teLpon Rani,, kmu knp??”
“No,, I’m okay… I just read your emaiL and I want to pray for you now..”
“Heh,, as in now?? Through the phone??”
“Yeaaaa,, why not??”
And the conversation went weLL…
Hieheiheieh,,, I’m moved….
My dearLy friend ^^

Le gra’

SpirituaL growth is the greatest gift we can receive. And we earn it through taking risks. There is much risk invoLved in working the steps: the risk of admitting that we’re out of controL....
The risk of turning our wiLL and Lives over to a Power greater than ourseLves..
The risk of Letting go of character defects..
The risk of making amends to peopLe we’ve harmed..
The risk of admitting our wrongs..
The risk of teLLing out stories as we carry the message of hope…
To grow spirituaLLy, we need these adventures…
These chaLLenges…

Le gra’

My dearLy friend…

This year,, sadLy wiLL end up soon…
Two months ahead and… tadaaaa… there are the fireworks again ;p
I’m wishing of watching fireworks with my beLoved friend and you as weLL ^^
WiLL you be back soon???

How’s everything there??
Whateva you’re facing,, you aLways say it’s great…
Gud,, gud…
Life is aLways good,, hiehiehiehei…
Of course,, it wiLL be great as Long as our Jesus take part in it…
Just surrender aLL of your probLems and He wiLL take care of everything,, yey yey yey….

Have I toLd you that I saw you in a video??
Yeah,, I saw you,, hahahaha…
Same oLd styLe of you ;p
I’m happy that you Look fine and enjoy your Life there ^^

I am Longing to taLk to you but it seems difficuLt…
Even in this era of advance technoLogy,, any means seems doesn’t work…
I dunno whether you are toooo busy or you are avoiding me,, hehehehe…
Are you reaLLy ok with aLL of this??
Sometimes the situation and the pressure from the others bring this awkwardness….

I just watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith…
I can say that we couLd be Like them,, NOT exactLy segh,, hahahaha...
I mean,, in terms of the communication…
Each of us dunno our reaL job is and both of us are Lying…
Lying about what we’re gonna say,, Lying about what we feeL,, Lying about what we’re expecting from each others and Lying about what we’re gonna do…
And I… I want to stop Lying,, hmmm and denying as weLL,, hueheuheue…
Thus,, this Letter is made to show that I stiLL remember you and if I have the chance,, I wiLL show it,, hahahahaha….
No more pretending and Let spread the Love for others too,, yeahhhhhh…

I want to encourage you to get cLoser and cLoser again...
Not with the person you Love,, not with your friends,, not with anybody eLse but our God…
Anybody may bring you bitterness,, but He aLways provides you His warm Love…
Let’s get deeper and deeper with Him…
Even if you are finding it hard to get to your dreamgirL’s heart,, just Leave it to God…
He is sureLy shows the right way for you…
So Let’s seek Him first.. yeaaaaaaa….

One thing that I want to share with you is His bLessing…
And I can say that having you as a friend is a bLessing for me..
I dunno when we can meet again…
But no matter how,, you are stiLL my dearLy friend ;p

Le gra’
19.10.08

Yeahhhh,, feeLs Like wanna send this Letter straight to your house !!!!
Jd inget tempo duLu,, Lucu kLi yaaa kLo pake merpati pos buat ngirim surat…
My LittLe bird,, sampeinnn dunk suratnaaaaa…
Arghhhhhhh….
Hueheuehuee….

If He took something from us,, He wiLL sureLy provide us with the best one…
So,, if you Lose something,, just beLieve that it wiLL be changed with the better one…
That’s what I have to keep teLLing to myseLf…
Oh goshhhhhh….

Le gra’

The Alsace

What can I say about the past 2 days???
Good job,, weLL done !!!!

I Like the ambience,, I Like the peopLe..
I enjoy the events and I enjoy the wine,, hieheiehie…
And not to forget about the cute guys,, hohohoho…
If I have a chance,, I wiLL go to France Embassy and hopefuLLy can meet that cute guy again,, hieheiheiehie….
Or,, I wiLL often visit their company to meet Sarah’s coLLeague ;p
Thanks Sarah for the invitation,, I enjoy for every moment ^^

What can I Learn is no matter how busy you are,, no matter how the things are not work out,, you have to keep caLm and SMILE !!!
I Loveeeee it…..
So,, get ready Alsace girLs ;p

Le gra’

D#2 -- D#3

Let’s skip D#2 ;p
Hohohoho…

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In this trip…
Together, aLL of you rent a smaLL house in the riverside…
I wasn’t interested in interfiLed you..
I beLieve that you can manage your time weLL and know how to prioritize them ;p

I dunno it’s coincidence or not,, but one of my friend brought me to the river..
A river which,, in the first pLace,, I didn’t know that it was a pLace you rented the house…
As we went aLong the river, we were passing by your rented-house…
You were not there at that time…
My friend decided to take a rest for a whiLe…

Nothing much that I couLd taLk about,, just a formaL conversation…
I just knew 1 of your friend mah.... The rest was just been introduced in D#1…
I asked my friend to go back,, but it seemed that she enjoy taLking with your friend..
They were pLanning to go swimming or to go to WiLd WiLd Wet when you came back...
Everybody was agreed to go to WWW,, but something happened in our way…
Therefore,, we changed our destination to Mount Faber…

Sorry if in the end we went together whiLe you supposed have a great time with your friend,, heiheiehie…
You parked the car in my fave spot ;p
ALL of us might enjoy the ambience here as I did,, I hope so,, hahahaha…
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A thought of enjoying the nite @ Labrador Park suddenLy come across my mind…
I went there once,, but I thought we haven’t expLore it to the max,, hahahaha…
I wish,, I have a chance to go there again and spending the nite there together…
Playing,, taLking,, pLaying,, taLking,, hieheiheiehie…
Or,, in a speciaL occasion,, you wiLL ask to go there,, huahuahuahuaaa…
Just Like my wishList no.1,, hieheiheiehie...

Le gra’

Everything in its time -- Corrine May

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it’s hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round
Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

Chorus:The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I’m two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I’m stubborn in the things I believe

Repeat chorus

’cause maybe there’s another plan
One I still can’t see
A little surprise, like Your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I’m stubborn in the things I believe

Repeat chorus

Le gra'

Lucky & D#1

You wouLd have a trip with aLL your housemates…
Another girL,, came out of a sudden to your house…
I visited your house in the foLLowing day and met that girL again…
We chatted and had our Lunch together…
On my way home,, you caLLed and toLd me to go back to your house…
For the sake of expLanation given,, finaLLy I went back…
And in the hectic time before your trip,, aLL of us had to go to find shoes or bag…
I was watching you taLk to that girL whiLe we waited for the bus…
Then I asked your housemate regarding you tension..
Then they toLd me,, it’s nothing but about me!!

I was shocked… About me???
What was the purpose of taLking about me??
But I keep quiet…
UntiL there were time when I and that girL was waLking together…
I asked her about the question that she asked you that makes you a bit weird….
She expLained to me and now I’m getting confused…
Was it just the matter of reLationship???
-_- !!!

ALL of them feeL curious about our reLationship…
And that girL brought up that thing to you and directLy asked you in the night when she was at your house…
The thing is,, you were not state cLearLy…
It made them more sure if there’s something between us…
WeLL,, actuaLLy there’s nothing…

You shouLd know that you’re a miracLe if that thing happens…
But I’m Lucky enough to have you as my friend…
Hiehieheiehie…

*Lucky I'm in Love with my bestfriend...*

Le gra’

You are my miracLe ^^

Many peopLe define miracLe as something happening in extraordinary way, in some inexpLicable ways.
But I say, miracLe is something that can fiLL our souL…

Birds sing after the storm, why shouLdn’t we??
You’ve passed the storm..
Therefore, I wiLL wait for you to sing again Like the birds sing…
You have to sing again…
You have to spread your wings again…

And through this strom…
I shouLd wait for my miracLe to come….
The funny thing is... I found my miracLe in you ;p
And I put my trust in my dearest Lord…
A midnite expectation ;p

Le gra’

Is it reaLLy just another crush??

Archieee….
Yeah,, this crush ain’t goin away…
Crush over this song maksudnaaa,, hieheiheiehie…

Aih,, aih…
Akhirnaa,, dpt jg Lagunaaa…
Thx buat yg udah ngedonLotin yeeee,, hiehiehiehie…

Here’s the Lyric…
Archieeee….

I hang up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep insideIt was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way
About meIt's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Reff: Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

Has it ever crossed you mind
When were hangin, spending time girl,
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever

Repeat reff

Le gra’

S #1

“You do stay”
It’s done….
Yeahhhh ;p
17.11.06 – 04.10.08
Can’t wait for the next one,, hiehieheiehie ^^

Le gra’

Inside your heart

Weuwwwww…
Musimmm nikah euyyyy….
Emangna buLan2 ginih tuh buLanna nikah yah??
Time moves so fast…
It feeLs Like yesterday when I was receiving 17th birddei invitation in every Saturday for the whoLe year !!!
And what does it come today?? Wedding invitation…
Hieheiehieheie…

I thought I’m happy to remain as 17teen years girL…
But,, Lookin at girLs’ worLd now,, I become moreeeee excited…
Sekarang maenanna udah wedding euy,, bkn seventeenan Lg,, hiehieheiheie…

The upcoming is Mamah Fenny’s wedding…
Whoaaaa,, kami dapat papa baruuu,, hieheiheiehie…
Waiting in the corners are Ce Ruth and Mbah Ruth…
Hahahaha,, 2 Ruth yg berbeda siap nikah jg akhirnaaa…
Laiii,, Laiiii,, sapa Lg yg nyusuL??

Visited eda Eliii’s bLog…
She posted about her wedding website…
Oh my gudnessss,, heiheiehiheie…
She’s reaLLy into it ^^
HopefuLLy your dream comes true yah edaaaaa… ;p
Hmmm…
If I Listen to your story with si Abang,, fuLL of inspiration dah…
SaLuteeeee…

FeeL reaLLy excited when it comes to wedding… especiaLLy if I’m quite cLose with the bride or groom…
Whoaaaaa,, kayakna smua yg bahagia bakaL tercipta dsituuu..
A new beginning wiLL start on that day…
Forget the sorrow and enter the new Life ;p

Nah,, skrg the question is,, apa hubunganna ama titLe na hayoooo???
Hmmm…
It’s difficuLt to expLain but I keep try to understand the geniousity of your mind….
Hohohoho..
Thennnn????
What’s inside your heart? ;p

Le gra’

Let's share

Did you know that the word “share” derived from the oLd EngLish word for “shear” which means to cut or divide??
To share with others means to divide your burden… Each time you share,, you Leave another LittLe piece of the weight of your burden with them…

Dedicated to myseLf and to a friend out there…
Don’t hoLd it back & Let your pride go….

Le gra’

It cannot be....

Maybe he hates me so much that
he Loves to see me cry
I couLdn’t teLL what was wrong
But maybe it was,, jeaLousy,,
or just pLain me

I couLdn’t share my secrets
Because when I was sad
he wouLd cheer me up
but he’s the one I’m mad at!!!
Warum geschieht das mit mir?

Or maybe I shouLd just Let it sLide
because I’m starting to Love him
No matter how,, it cannot be Love if the Love is one way
It cannot be Love if it’s not feLt by two
And it cannot be Love if there are hurt feeLings at stake
If it causes one party so much mentaL ache
es kann nicht Liebe sein

Le gra’

Limit

There’s a first time for everything…
And for everything,, there’s a Limit !!!!!!!

First chance… Didn’t have any idea… It was ok…
Second chance… Maybe it was your habit…
Third chance… Since it’s your habit,, then I tried to understand…
Forth chance… Accommodation in progress…
Fifth chance… Heuhhhh,, tired… Too insensitive…
Don’t know how many chance… Enoughhhhh… Can’t take it anymore !!!

Can’t beLieve I reached that point…
I said enough,, it means pLeaseeeeee… it’s enough !!!!

Le gra’

CoLd day in JuLy

The moon is fuLL
But my arms are empty
ALL night Long I’ve pLeaded and cried
You aLways said
The day you Leave me
WouLd be a coLd day in JuLy

Your bags are packed
Not a word spoken
I’ve guess we’ve said everything with goodbye
Time move so sLow
And promises get broken
On this coLd day in JuLy

Chorus: Sun’s coming up coming up down on main street
ChiLdren shout as their running out to pLay
Head in my hands here I am standing in my bear feet
Watching you drive away watching you drive away

You said that
We were gonna Last forever
You said our Love wouLd never die
It Looks Like spring and it feeLs Like sunny weather
But it’s a cold day in JuLy

Repeat chorus

Le gra’

I shouLd... I shouLd...

I shouLd stop before the Line
I need to know the boundaries
Just because I didn’t get caught doesn’t mean I didn’t break the Law
I shouLd drive sLowLy yet I shouLdn’t reLy on the brakes
What if they faiL ??

I shouLd stop before the Line
I need to know the boundaries
I want something that’s not mine and I’m content watching him be happy
I want to steaL him away, but I’m more comfortabLe watching from a far
There you go again with your Loving gaze…

I understand what does he feeL towards her
And I don’t want to go through the same path as him
Too afraid to think about the concequences
Then I shouLd stop before the Line…

Le gra’

PLease don’t ask me why I cry
From troubLed spirits does this derive
Am I but a Leaf bLowing in the wind
Soon to be swept away into obscurity
Or fancy me a seed of hope
bLessed to sprout a joyous affection to aLL of humanity

Fancy me a ray of sunshine
MeLting frozen hearts unsympathetic
To the Lights of the suffering
Fancy me just a prayer,, hoping to be answered
Knowing that if God provides for the fieLd of goLd
He shaLL not forsake his greatest creation

So pLease don’t ask me why I cry
Why troubLe fiLLs my weary eyes
Fancy me just a prayer
Waiting to be answered
Fancy me a ray of sunshine
Or fancy me,, just a subtLe seed of hope

*mLbpp*

Le gra’

A desire...

A dead body feeLs no hunger and the dead souL knows not the pangs of hoLy desire…
“If you want God”, said the oLd saint, “you have aLready found Him.”
Our desire for fuLLer Life is proof that some Life must be there aLready…

Oh God,, I have that Longing to know You..
That hunger and thirst for righteousness,, that ‘desire for the fuLLer Life’…
Move me aLong in the direction of that hunger,, Lord…
And give me the strength to foLLow in the direction of that urge…
Amen….

Le gra’

I decide

I wiLL centre my thoughts on a Higher Power,, I wiLL surrender aLL to this power within me…
I wiLL become a soLdier for this power,, feeLing the might of the spirituaL army as it exists in my Life today…
I wiLL aLLow a wave of spirituaL union to connect me through my gratitude,, obedience and discipLine to this Highest Power…
Let me aLLow this power to Lead me through the orders of the day…
May the steps I take today strengthen my words and deeds…
May the message I carry is mine to share,, given freeLy by this power greater than myseLf…

Le gra’

how I Love you

He understands me the most…
He teLLs the answer in the right time…
He gives everything that I need…

That’s why I Love him…
That’s why I can’t Leave him…
That’s why I need him…

Le gra’

humbLe

I ask for humiLity….
Then,, what is humiLity??

Wikipedia defined humiLity as a characteristic of an unpretentious and modest person,, someone who does not think that he or she is better or more important than others…
But…
AbsoLute humiLity,, wouLd consist of a state of compLete freedom from myseLf,, freedom from aLL the cLaims that my defects of characters now Lay so heaviLy upon me…
Perfect humiLity wouLd be a fuLL wiLLingness,, in aLL times and pLaces,, to find and to do the wiLL of God…
And I…
I stiLL ask for th perfect humiLity….

Le gra’

Wad I ask

Oh MercifuL bLessed Father
GLory to Thy HoLy name forever
I beg for Thy grace and power
To heaL my sins I’ve been under

HoLy Lord Christ ,, my onLy savior
HumbLe my pride with humiLity
That my tounge speak kindLy
And I’LL aLways think wiseLy
With respect of other’s dignity

Make me Your shephered
Of hope and Love and care
That I can aLso Lead a herd of downhearted
to share smiLe as they Thy words

Above aLL,, I thank You dear Lord
For aLL the bLsseing You’ve unfold
For the mercy You’ve spared
For this great Life You’ve shared

To You I pray….
In Jesus’ name..
Amen….

Le gra’

A midnite accident

...Neck Cramp...

What you feel:
You feel like your muscles are always tight or strained, sometimes to the point of frequent pain, or even persistent and ongoing pain.
Some may also find the pain so restricting and debilitating that it prevents physical activity, and sometimes to the point of becoming bed ridden.
It's also common to experience pain or cramps in any of the body's muscles.
A particular joint in your body feels unusually stiff and sore, or hard to move.
It may even feel arthritic.
Sometimes you feel you may be ‘seizing up’.
For no apparent reason, a particular muscle will begin to twitch.
This twitching will continue for an unusual amount of time before it stops of its own accord.
Sometimes it twitches so long it becomes sore, and may continue on and off for days.
You may feel that your scalp is sore, has shooting pains, or that the back of your neck and head are very tense.
Even though there is no apparent reason for this, they continue to.

What causes this:
Stress biology causes muscles to contract (tighten) so that the body is more resilient to an attack.
The higher the stress biology, the more tense the muscles will be.
Some people experience mild tenseness while others may experience great pain, sometimes to the point of immobility.
Others experience uncontrollable muscle twitching.
It can be one particular muscle over and over again, or it can be a wide variety of muscles.
Sometimes the twitching can last for days.
Regular exercise helps to keep tight muscles relaxed.
Some find relief through massage therapy or warm baths.
As with all symptoms, when the nervous system gets sufficient rest, this symptom will diminish and eventually subside.

Le gra'

Someone Like you

Good God…..
It seems Like the time is going to end up soon…
What I want is to be cLose dengan dirinaaaa,, hehehehe…
But no matter how,, Let Your wiLL be done...
And Let me draw myseLf cLose to You in the first pLace ;p

HonestLy speaking,, I don’t want it to be happened…
I’m not ready yet….
For this time being,, I stiLL need someone whom I can count on…
And that someone is just that particuLar person…

I don’t know how important this thing tiLL I dreamt of it…
Does it occupy most of my mind ???
But,, nothing that I can say… it’s simpLy bcoz that someone never invoLved too much…

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Strength

PsaLm 73:26
My health may fail,, and my spirit may grow weak,, but God remain the strength of my heart,, He is mine forever….

My Mighty God,, may You remain the strength of my heart today,, and everyday…
Grant me the strength o Lord…
Yeah,, I trust in You ^^

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Obvious

I just wondering if he knew this song???
Hiehieheiehi ^^
If there’s a chance,, I wiLL Let him know this song…
You can give this song to her ;p


Obvious -- WestLife
We started as friends
But something happened inside me

Now I'm reading into everything
But there's no sign you hear the lightning, baby
You don't ever notice me turning on my charm
Or wonder why I'm always where you are

Chorus: I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it(I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song

I've heard you talk about (Heard you talk about)
How you want someone just like me
But everytime I ask you out (Time I ask you out)
We never move pass friendly, no no
And you don't ever notice how I stare when we're alone
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone

You are my very first thought in the morning
And my last at nightfall
You are the love that came without warning
I need you, I want you to know

And sing it until the day you're holding me
I've wanted you so long but on and on you get me wrong
I more then adore you but since you never seem to see

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Minta Mooncake Durian dunk

I just saw kejadian Langka di mrt…
Hmmm,, sungguh kerennnn…
I didn’t see the beginning of the story..
Tp,, yg rani Liat segh bginih:
Ada 1 famiLy terdiri dr si om,, si tante and 2 dedek cewek..
LaLu dedek cewek yg 1 digendong ama si om…
Kemudiannn,, tiba2 dr arah jem 9na si om,, ada mbak2 cewek yg nawarin 1 kotak pizza hut ukuran keciL…
Pertama si om bLg, “No thx.. it’s ok..”
Si mbak2 pizza: “Oww,, no probLem..” sambiL tetep nyodorin pizza ntu ke dedek cewek yg digendong…
Si om tetep kekeuh bLg no thx ntu,, sampe dedek cewek yg satuna Lg ngambiL tuh kotak pizza…
LaLu si om pun mengucapkan trima ksh yg sebesar2na sama si mbak2 pizza…
SteLah ntu,, mbak2 pizza pun turun di Toa Payoh,, bareng si penonton (Rani red.)

Spertina,, keLuargana si om ama si mbak pizza inih ga kenaL sebeLomna degh…
Trus,, mgkn dedek yg digendong inih minta2 pizza ke si om dgn gaya anak keciL..
LaLu si mbak pizza yg ngeLiat dedek keciL inh mgkn tersentuh…
Yah,, inih cuma assume-an Rani doank segh…
Abies,, terkesanna mreka ga knaL satu sama Laen gtu kok…
Heheheheh…
Wadooo,, Rani jg maooo dunk mbak pizza na…
Aihhhh,, bae bner yah si mbak pizza ntu..
Jd inget auntie Swissbake di Taka yg sering ngasih pie ke Rani dL…

Apa reLationna ama Mooncake durian???
Hiyaaa,, I bet y'aLL know it...
Rani mo Mooncake Duriannn dunkkkkk...
Semoga,, ntar ad mbak2 or mas2 yg dtg trus nawarin Mooncake durian ke Rani...
bukan tester yeee,, 1 kotak degh kLo perLu ;p
hahahahaha...

I wish I couLd do the same thing ;p
Or,, just a smaLL things that are meaningfuL to other peopLe ;p
Mari menabur kebaikannnn di tiap hati org sekeLiLing kitaaaa ^^
Ga ad saLahna kan kita berbuat bae,, bnyk bnerna maLahan ;p
Coz,, above aLL,, bkn hanya org Laen aje yg senang…
Tp seLuruh Kerajaan Surga jg seneng dgn ketuLusan dr perbuatan kt ^^

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Jeritan maLam

Have to kanchiong my Auditing assignment...
Oooo Lordddd,, I reaLLy don't have any idea how to do it...
Searching for few days but stiLL can't understand it...
Arghhhhhhhhhhh....

Thennn...
As usuaL,, I have to Listen to some nice songs in order to make my brain work properLy in this Late hour,, hehehhehe....

Broken -- Scott Stapp

There is a question I want to understand
Why can't everyone teLL the truth and Learn to Love again
Do you know what it feeLs Like to be broken and used?
Scared and confused
Yes I know

Boy,, I can feeL what you feeL...
In years ahead,, I can say this to myseLf,, hiehiehihie…
I know that you deserve the best ;p




HopeLessLy addicted -- The Corrs

I don't know why but suddenLy I'm faLLing
Was I so bLind
I was Loving you aLL the time
Now I'm hopeLessLy addicted
HeLpLessLy attracted

I’m not faLLing yet…
But yet,, I’m hopeLessLy addicted…
And I stiLL don’t want to Loose you in some or other ways…


FieLds of goLd -- Eva Cassidy

WiLL you stay with me wiLL you be my Love
Among the fieLds of barLey
And you can teLL the sun in his jeaLous sky
When we waLked in fieLds of goLd

WiLL you give the answer???
But the very basic question is,, do I have that brave heart to ask you ;p
One day when the time has come for you to Leave this pLace,, wiLL it be the end of everything???
I pray to our LoveLy God for it won’t be happened…

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Woman pt 2

Woman…
A creature profound
With mind unstabLe yet sound

Woman…
Though their skin may be softer than man
This does not mean they have no strength in their hands

Woman…
Sent as an underLing of man
Sometimes gains the ruLing hand

Woman…
Though Love is their strength,
in more cases it is their weakness
One of the gentLest creature at times, the fiercest at other times

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Woman pt 1

To the women after God’s own heart…
There comes a time in every woman’s Life when she has to take a cLose Look at herseLf…
Not at her circumstance, not at what she did, not how this Life is or who made you do something…
She has to just Look at herseLf..

Have you ever admired a woman who has been through changes in her Life??
Or have you made up in your mind that she is just messed up…
Before you make this mistake,, take a cLoser Look..
A woman who has endured the most unusuaL Life is someone of wisdom,, someone who has been chosen by God to go through things that have made her stronger…

Think of aLL the great women in the BibLe: Mary MadgaLene,, Ruth,, Esther and Naomi…
Mary was a prostitute,, a very uneasy woman..
But by the time Jesus was done with her,, she was His cLosest foLLowers..
Esther was unfortunate in marrying an abusive man,, but by the time God was done with her,, she had married one of the weaLthiest men in the Land…

Women are so quick to beat the next one down instead of trying to hoLd her up..
Before you wonder, “What’s up with her?” ask yourseLf, “What’s up with me?”
That woman couLd be anyone,, my mother,, sisters,, friends,, aunties,, neighbours..
That woman couLd be me…

Women are the carriers of Life,, not the channeLs of death…
Encourage and Love,, forgive and forget,, and trust that the woman that receives this wiLL be touched in some way…

"Who made this fooL become a woman???"
God did ^^

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KerikiLmu

It’s funny when I have to be happy with your happiness,, namun rasana bibir inih tertahan ketika akan menyunggingkan sebentuk Lengkungan..
Apakah inih kebahagiaan yang beLum saatna,, ataukah kuLihat mendung menggantung di matamu???

Karena tiada Lain yg kuharap seLain meLihat binar cerah di matamu…
You deserve it,, waLaupun tak kutau semua Langkahmu sebeLumna…
Namun entah,, mungkin masih ada kerikiL yg beLum dibersihkan dari secuiL masa LaLu…
KerikiL yg berwarna-warna indah,, jenis yg amat jarang ditemukan..
Aku percaya kau masih ingin menyimpanna,, maka simpanLah ia di suatu kotak yg aman…
LaLu LanjutLah berjaLan…

Aku bukan dirimuw,, tetapi entah mengapa aku bisa menerka apa yang kau rasa di tengah persimpangan inih…
Mungkin resonansi dari rasamu ntu yg aku rasakan,, tapi bukan aku yg mampu terjemahkan…


Jika ia memang ksatria sejati,, suatu saat pasti kan pupus keLam di hati….

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Youth Conference

Finished….
And Let everything to be the gLory of His name…
Nothing much I couLd say...
I couLd onLy say thanks for everyone,, y’aLL done a great job…
Thanks for make it happened ^^

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The EmeraLd IsLe

If I can say where my honeymoon wiLL be,, I wouLd Like to say IRELAND….
Hiehiehiehiee….
Pagi2 ginih,, apa coba yg bs diLakukan…
Bangun2,, ujan gede bikin kemaLasan memuncak degh…
ALhasiL,, jd daydream degh…
And buka2 youtube,, I found this video…



As I remembered,, I once Loved CharLotte Church because of ther beautifuL voice evenmore when it reaches high note,, wuihhhhhh….
Wish that I have that angeLic voice,, hahahaa.. I wish…
I dunno she is running a TV show named CharLotte Church Show…
But,, she Less attractive to me compared with the Last time….
One of her songs that I reaLLy Love is Carrickfergus…
Apart from the unique arrangement,, it’s Lyric teLLs about the Irish peopLe who wishes they can come back to their homeLand,, which is IreLand ^^

IreLand…
The EmeraLd IsLe….
Among the other countries,, I’ve faLLen of this country…
It’s funny when I found myseLf standing in the traveL session of bookstores and I was hoLding IreLand’s traveLLing book,, or a dictionary of GaeLic…
I Loved the castLes,, the sceneries,, the cuLtures,, whoa everythingggg…
And the first boyband that I Liked was come from IreLand,, hihihi….

One day… One day…
I wish I was in Carrickfergus….
It’s my secret wish ;p
I reaLLy hope that God can make it come true ^^

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Outing's deyyy

I just reaLize that I have one day hoLiday at the day itseLf,, pity me…
Thx for those peepz who asked me to go to Sentosa,, hihihihi…
I can’t imagine if that afternoon I went to TMC and find that it cLosed,, huahuahua…
Aniweiii,, it was teacher's day yesterday...
For aLL my teachers,, heppie teacher's day,, especiaLLy my beLoved "Bukos" ^^

WeLL,, there are so many times where I wanna go out with them,, but dun count GLS time,, hiehiehie…
FinaLLy we couLd make it yesterday…
Too bad we had to finish it earLier due to that gateL2 syndrome ;p

Herann,, why are there so many controversiaL due to this pict?? I find there's nothing wrong.. hmmm???


Wanna know what we made?? A castLe?? Work in progress ;p
Tadaaaaa... Finished goods ^^ Created by Rinai,, Gurmitwan,, Rani
Bersantai abies membuat masterpiece di atas ;p
And,, it's time to... fart,, oups ;p

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