Dec 31st... morning...

The Last day of this year….
WiLL it be the Last tears ???
Maybe it’s good that you are not here…
If not,, how can I face you ???
However,, thx God for this year…
2007… a year with upside down…

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Tak berinduk ;p

2 days ago,, had Lunch @ IKEA with my sis & bro…
Then,, as we waLked around,, I just couLd say “Whoaaa,, kerennnn yah..” “Wedeh,, bagus amattt….” “Wah,, yg inih boLe jg…”
Note that IKEA is in my top 10 fave pLaces in Singapore…
Then,, I started dreaming about my house wanna be,, hihihihihi….
If I can dream,, I dream about a not-too-big house with a sea view just Like in FuLL House and the interior wiLL be cLassic minimaLis…
Hihihihi…

Btw abies ngomong2 soaL rumah,, next week,, I wiLL move out from TangLin View…
New year,, new room… Hihihihihi…
Sedih jg ninggaLin si TangLin View inih,, udah 1 taon 2 bLn Rani mengendap disitu…
Dr muLe si Kebo pindahan,, Rani n C dtg berkunjung,, trus Rani dipaksa nginep 2 mgg buat nemenin si Kebo pas si R tinggaL situ,, ampe akhirna berduaan ama RM nempatin kamar inih.. bLom Lg akhirna sendirian di kmr inih stLh RM ke LiverpooL,, LaLu muLe dtg Lah sis & bros yg siLih berganti bermaLam dsinihh jg… Dr rame ampe pernah kesepian jg…

Nah,, nyambung dr kesepian,, smingguan inih ampe new year,, kita sperti anak ayam yg keiLangan induknaaa…
Bayangkannnnnn….
Dari sgitu bnyk tmen2 yg sangat dkettt,, Lumayan dkettt,, dketLah,, so so ampe yg ga gtu dkettt,, hampir smuana ga avaiLabLe skrg2 inih…
Ce Bombie,, Ce Lydia,, Ce Dian-Ko Alfon,, berhoLiday trip ke Macau & Hongkong yg diLanjutkan bermission trip ria di China…
Ko David & Ceph,, bertamasya ke KL bersama keLuargaaaa…
Cuy2 & Wawan ber-cruise ria…
Bahkan Ce Fenny yg tetep disinih pun didatangi mamah & dedena…
Si Bimby & Icha hebring dadakan pLg ke Jkt pula Lg…
Mreka2 inih yg tercantum diatas yg biasana berhang out ama Rancu smuana sdg ndak avaiLabLe…
Dan kinih… tersebutLah 3 wanita pemberani nan perkasa…
Yg msh tetap setia satu sama Laenna…
Jennita,, Elisa,, Rani…
Tiap hari meLangLang Singapore menghabiskan wkt bersama akibat ditinggaL oLeh pembesar2 & induk kamiii…
Huhuhuhuhu….

Inh br pLg ntn WarLords beserta 3 ksatria kesepian inih,, hihihihi…
For me,, I didn’t Like that movie…
Emang dr awaL jg bkn type fiLmna Rani segh,, tp kirain msh bgs Lah,, since yg maen cukup2 okeh…Ternyataaaaa,, biasa ajeeee.. MaLah ga gtu bgs segh kLo boLe dibiLang…
Bnerna ada satu sentence segh yg Rani suka…
“Take the money,, take the food,, take the women…”
GokiLLLLLLLLL,, mreka kira ce tuh apaan ??? Barang rampasan ????
Cuh,, cuh… Kesanna ngeremehin ce bgtttttt…
Udah keLuar kaLimat jeLek gtu pun,, si 2 brothers ntu msh dibunuh pas ketauan mreka nge-rapped ce…
Lahhh,,, udah ad kata2 take the women,, tp pas ktauan rapped,, dibunuh jg,, mauna apaaaa segh ???
Yah,, waLopun pd zaman ntu wanita emang diperLakukan kyk gtu,, tp tetep ajeeee…
Cuh…cuh..cuh…

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I'm running after you....
That's my aLarm tone...
132501292020125029184 ;p

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KuKup TriP

Thx Lord that He stiLL bLess us tiLL we couLd enjoy our trip…
Thx Lord for Your protection aLong our way….
Hihihihihihi….
Thx for the whoLe team,, ten of us… Uhuyyyyyyyy…
Ko David,, Andreas,, Ko Darvin,, Ce Lie Mei,, Ce Fenny,, Hendra,, Wawan,, Ce eLisa,, Jennita…
Yah,, mo dibLg below expectation kek,, or ndak seindah yg kt bayangin kek,, mo dibLg kerjaan cuma kyk babi doank kek,, or kepanasan & kebauan di kampong situ,, tp in the end of the day,, kita smua menikmati trip inih kokkkkkkk….
Seruuuuuuuu bersama kaLiannnnnnnnn….
Thx for aLL of y’aLL..
Muach…muach…

Hiyaaaaaaaaaaa…
As we ended this trip,, I ended my hoLiday week as weLL…
The foLLowing week,, seems quite hardest and busiest week for the whoLe Dec 07…
HopefuLLy everything can go smoothLy and wiLL be aLright…
Yay…yay…
And it’s 24 hours away from Christmas Day,, yeeeeeeeeeeeee….

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My heart,, Your home

Search me... Through and through...

TiLL my heart becomes a home for You...

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Their instinct

Up tiLL now, at Least 2 Ladies say the simiLar statement about you….
80% simiLarities… and the same one word: Lucky…
According to my interpretation,, that word is quite true enough…
Wonder if one day, the chance is there and you aLLow me to waLk together….

I know this isn’t right is it ??
But I get jeaLous of his Lover
How they can be there with him…
Do stuff with him that I couLdn’t do with him…

It’s wrong to be jeaLous…
I’m not the kind of person to get jeaLous but I am…
ShouLd I be jeaLous of her for what they can do ??

Secrets… LittLe secret…
Being whispered aLL around
Rumors… LittLe rumors…
Thought you didn’t hear a sound

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Your Daughter's Bird ;p

My mom pointed at a book titled “Bird”
Hihihihihi ;p
And she aLso asked about your news my LiL bird…
Soooo,, how are you my LiL bird ???
;p

Morning Thought

God is greatttt…
ReaLLy reaLLy reaLLy great to my famiLy, especiaLLy to my mom…
Thx God for giving a precious present for me for this Christmas…
I’m so proud and amaze of my mom,, she has a woman’s heart that I’m Longing to have…
Wonder if I can have that kind of heart someday………….

Hmmmm….
Ever think to change the worLd… to make this worLd a LoveLy pLace to Live…
Dimana smua org tuh punya hati yg sLg mengasihi…
Ga ad Lg dah tuh yg namana iri2an,, tuduh2an,, gontok2an,, makan temen,, tipu sana sini,, mo menang sendiri,, mo show off terus,, menyombongkan diri,, mo ambiL keuntungan sendiri or smua sifat yg sejenisna inih degh…
It may sound toooooooo naïve,, but seriousLy….
I know I’m just an ordinary girL… and I don’t have any power to do that…

If you reaLLy Love your God,, if you bner2 mo hidup seperti and buat Tuhan,, then…..
Knapa kita smua ga bs punya kasih ntu ???
Knapa kita smua ga bs menghiLangkan sifat2 ntu ??
Gimana kita bs mengasihi Tuhan kL kita ndak bs mengasihi org Laen ???
Bknna ad ayat yg bLg apa yg kita ingin perbuat ke Tuhan,, perbuatLah ke sesamamu…
Kita brani bLg kita mengasihi Tuhan,, tp apa yg terjadi ama keLakuanmu ??
KL kita msh suka ngeLakuin smua sifat di atas,, dimana perbedaan kita ama org2 dunia ???
Rani sadar sesadar-sadarna kLo Rani bkn siapa2 & Rani jg msh jauhhhhhhhh dr yg namana sempurna..
Nobody’s perfect riteeeeeee…
Tp,, kita kan harus sLaLu berusaha memperbaiki diri ke arah yg Lbh bae tentunaa…

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We Are The Reason

As LittLe chiLdrenwe wouLd dream of Christmas morn
Of aLL the gifts and toys we knew we’d find
But we never reaLized a baby born one bLessed night
Gave us thr greatest gift of our Lives

Chorus:
We were the reason that He gave His Life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a worLd that was Lost He gave aLL He couLd give
To show us the reason to Live

As the years went by we Learned about the gifts
The giving of ourseLves and what that means
On a dark and cLoudy day a hung man crying in the rain
All because of Love
All because of Love

Chorus

I finaLLy found the reason for Living
It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him
And aLL that I do every word that I say
I’LL be giving my aLL just for Him, for Him

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weLL... fine....

Time is going faster that I thought for the Last 2 days…
I guess you aLL know the reason riteeeee…..
Hihihihihihi…
17.12.07….
After two years….. after aLmost everyday do it…. FinaLLy……
You know….. I got fined !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rancu akhirna kena fine !!!!!
Not in City HaLL,, not in CoLeman Street,, not in New Bridge Road… and not in the pLace that I usuaLLy do jaywaLk…
It just a waLkpath in the pLace that I never crossed it…
When we didn’t have intentionaLLy to jaywaLk…
A man with poLice uniform just stopped us & asked for our IC…
It become worse when Ko David tried to toLd him his new address (coz his add is different from what is written in his IC),, the poLiceman even tried to find his other mistakes…
Hadowwww,, koooooo…kooooooo….
Dsrrrrrrr….
Rani mah rada sdikit bangga kLo kena fine na di jLn gede gtu,, di tmpt aku jaywaLk tiap hr kek,, pokokna di jLn yg Lebar deh…
Tp inih,, jLn pedestrians gtuuuu,, mn kepikir kL disitu ad traffic Light…
Lgan,, dpnna Rani jg ad yg nyebrang kok !!!!
Huhhhhhhhh,, sebeL… Fine na krg bermaknaaa negh..
Hihihihihii….

And accidentaLLy I found that it is intended for me…
Can I have it a LiL bit Longer ???
I don’t wanna Loose it…
I don’t wanna Leave it…
But somehow,,, I must make a move…
Live in this comfort zone for too Long makes me unconscious…
Now,, when everything is taken back…
I shouLd be abLe to keep smiLing…

He showed His grace for many timesss…
Then,, definiteLy He wiLL show me the way…
Where shouLd I waLk to ???
What shouLd I do ???
When shouLd I go ???
God wiLL make a way…
StiLL I’m praying for that matter…
Does it mean that I shouLd wait or ……………………
Do you aLLow me ???

Yay.. yay… ^^

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I don't wanna go...

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That's how you know

How does she know you Love her ?
How does she know she’s yours ?
How does she know that you Love her ?
How do you show her you Love her ?
How does she know that you reaLLy reaLLy truLy Love her ?
How does she know that you Love her ?
How do you show that you Love her ?
How does she know that you reaLLy reaLLy truLy Love her ?

It’s not enough to take the one you Love for granted
You must remind her or she’LL be inclined to say:
“How do I know he Loves me ?
How do I know he’s mine ?”

WeLL does he Leave a LittLe note to teLL you you are on his mind
Send you yeLLow fLowers when the sky is grey?
He’LL find a new way to show you a LittLe bit everyday
That’s how you know
That’s how you know he’s your Love

You got to show her you need her
Don’t treat her Like a mind reader
Each day do something to need her to beLieve you Love her

Everybody wants to Live happiLy ever after
Everybody wants to know their true Love is true
How do you know he Loves you ?
How do you know he’s yours ?

WeLL does he take you out dancing just so he can hoLd you cLose ?
Dedicate a song with words meant just for you ?
He’LL find his own way to teLL you with the LittLe things he’LL do
That’s how you know
That’s how you know he’s your Love

Because he’LL wear your favourite coLor just so he can match you eyes
Plan a private picnic by the fire’s gLow
His heart wiLL be yous forever
Something everyday wiLL show
That’s how you know
That’s how you know he’s your Love

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The Grace of YieLding

My dear God,, can I ask something….
You may aLways hear aLL my prayer Lists every nite…
But tonite,, may I ask for Your spirit ??

YieLding…
I want to have it… Yessss,, I’m Longing for it…
Roh Kristus adaLah roh yg reLa mengaLah..
I beLieve Yesus tuh teLadan utama kt dLm haL mengaLah..

Just Like mentioned in Romans 8:9 “You,,, however,, are controLLed not by sinfuL nature but by the spirit, if the Spirit of God Live in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ.”
ALLow me to have Your spirit…
Suatu roh yg Lemah Lembut,, rendah hati and ramah…
Roh yg ndak angkuh and mo menang sendiri or mencari kesenanganna sendiri…
Roh yg ndak terus2an menuntut,, apaLagi dgn motivasi yg krg bner…
Kt udah punya hak bersamaNa,, jd untuk apa menuntut terus ???
ApaLagi merebut yg bkn bgn kt…

Remember about SoLomon and 2 prostitutes…
Si ibuk asLi yg anakna msh idup reLa ngaLah & reLa give her baby to the other woman drpd tuh anak matiii..
Dy reLa ngaLah buat sesuatu yg hrsna adLh hakna…
But in the end,, SoLomon who bLessed with wisdom of God gave the baby to his reaL mom..

Nah,, kLo ntu terjadi ama kt gmn ???
kLo kt kerja tgs.. Kt yg ngerjain susah payah,, tp justru cuma tmen kt yg dpt nama baena,, ap yg kt pikirkan ??
BkL sakit hati gara2 nama kt ndak disebut or tetep seneng as Long as tgs ntu bs done weLL ??
Atooo,, kyk drama korea dmn ada 1 co yg udah capek2 ngerintis company…
LaLu tiba2 dy di back stabbed ama tmenna ndiri…
Trus,, apa kt mo dendam spanjang masa ama tuh org or mo coba usah Laen & bangkit Lg ??
Ada jg contoh Laen dmn ad 2 co yg Lg ngejer 1 ce…
Ada 1 moment dmn co A udah nyiapin surprise buat si ce,, tp berhub ada miscomm and misinterpret,, si ce maLah nyangka tuh surpise dr si co B…
Hayooo,, ap yg bkL diperbuat ??
Instead of mencak2 & brusaha ngeyakin tuh ce kLo tuh surprise dr dy,, co A maLah tetep bs tnang n justru diem2 aje..
But in the end,, kLo emang si ce udah emang buat si co A,, akhirna,, dy dpt jg kannn….

In other cases,, I reaLLy need the power of yieLding…
HeLp me dear Lord buat punya hati yg bs mengaLah..
Hihihihihi…

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How happy I am if. . . . . . .
But,, I reaLized there wiLL too much things need to be considered…
FirstLy,, I think it won't happen...
Again,, nothing is impossibLe,, it happened.. not with me though..
If I reaLLy ask God for it,, what can make a thing impossibLe ??
Good God,, wiLL You give what I want ??
If I say I reaLLy want that one,, wiLL You give it for me ??
Then I think,, how does it feeL if it come to me ??
Hahahahaha….
Is it an answered prayer ??
Is it a dream come true ??
Is it God’s wiLL ??
Before it’s too far,, may I know how do you feeL ??

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A cLassic probLem encountered most coupLes is when the guy expect the woman to say what they want whiLe on the other hand the woman expect the guy wiLL know what they want…

Kykna ntu udah hukum aLam degh…
Si ce most LikeLy sLaLu bLg “apa aje degh” whiLe actuaLLy dy mengharapkan si co bs nge-guess apa yg dy mau specificaLLy…
Ntar giLiran si co ga ngasih apa yg ce harapin,, ce na rada ngambek2 dikitttt…
Trus ce biasana pake jurus kaLimat maut “Hrsna kan kmu ngertiin aku dunk…”,, bkn bgitu bkn ???
LaLu si co pun menimpaLi dgn ngomong “Yah abiess,, kmu ndak pernah bLg ap2.. Katanya terserah… Mkna,, ngomong dunk mauna apa…”,, bkn bgitu bkn ???

Mgkn pihak si ce na menganggap kLo kaLian ntu udah so cLose to each other,, by right co tuh hrsna tau gmn personaLityna si ce… BkL tau tuh ce suka apa,, mau na apa…
Mgkn aje kLo kaLian ngomong2 gtu,, dy udah ksh hint2 yg nyerempet ksonooo gtuu.. Ce segh bisana gtu,, suka ksh hint & hope that u can grasp it mannnn…
Bnerna segh ce pengen tau seberapa perhatianna co ama hint2 ce…

Sedangkan,, kLo ngeLiat dr sisi co na..
SkaLi Lg ditekankan,, wahai wanitaa,, co mah bkn tukang nge-guess… (Bkn jg tukang juaLan Guess ;p)
Yah,, mreka tentu sajah mo ksh yg terbaik buat si ce na,, tp kLo co na hrs menerka2 terus,, gmn jdnaaa ??
KaLian kira reLationship ntu maen guessing-an ap ??
KaLo nge-guess dikit2 in certain occasions,, boLe Lah…
Tp kLo tiap kLi si co hrs mengira2 reaksi ap yg diharapkan si ce dr si co,, ato piLihan yg bkL si ce piLih,, ato apaLah gtu,, kaciann jg Lah co na…

Namun,, dr smuana ntuuu…
Yg perLu diinget jg adLh,, biasana seh ce tuh bkL tetep seneng kok terima smua perLakuan dr org2 yg mreka sayangi,, aLthough ntu ga se-exact as what they want Lah…
And buat ce,, inget jg kLo co tuh udah sebisa mgkn buat kaLian seneng… kaLo kaLian mo ap2 yg specific,, ndak ad sLhna kan diomongin…
One more,, communication is reaLLy important….

Tp kLo kaLian udah meant to be together,, smuana bs diatasin kok yah…
HopefuLLy I can understand how you feeL when you said it…
Maaph,, Rani segh bLom expert dLm msLh ginian bunggg…
Btw,, bginih… Sorry yah td keputus… Msnku error Lg,, huhuhuhu…
Mkna,, Lgsg tuLis di bLog ajee,, biar bs panjang Lebar,, hahahaha…
Lgan,, sapa tau ad comment2 dr tmen2ku yg Laen,, yg bs bantu kmu nak,, hihihihihi…
To readers,, open to discussions Lhoo,, hehehehehe….

Le gra’
10.12.07

Hari Burung papiiii...

HeavenLy Father,, I want to thank you and start my day
Lifting up in prayer,, my father on his birthday
Counting not onLy the years added to his Life
But the Life added to his years with this famiLy

In everything he does,, go before him,, I pray
In every need and pLeas,, answer him,, have Your way
Whenever his Life turn into confusion
Let the paLm of Your hands Lead his way into Your direction

BLess my dad on his birthday
In aLL areas,, good heaLth and a pure heart
A Lasting peace and joy
Not onLy today but each and everyday

Grant my dad the gift of wisdom,, understanding and faith
As he meditate on the truth of Your word
To continue to seek You with an open heart
The passion and unconditionaL Love that wiLL not keep You apart

Take good care of his heart, Lord
It was this heart You’ve moLded bigger than mine
It was this heart that has touched and gentLy moved us to tears
It was this heart that sees compassion and pLeasing to Your eyes

This I pray and thank you for in faith in Jesus name..
Amennnnnn…

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OnLy Reminds Me of You..

Toniteeeee…
Yupz,, no other niteee… just toniteee…
pLease aLLow me to memorize that time…
I don’t say I’ve erased it aLL,, in fact I won’t…
Cause none of the them are ought to be rubbed out…
It doesn’t mean anything… Just reminds me of you…

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“Don’t be stupid,, you know I Love you…”

It might be a sentence that wanted to be said….
Hihihihihi…
But heyyyy,, I’m just a human…
And you know that we can’t assume…
Okie… so now,, I dun want to assume.. again..
We’LL see Later what wiLL happen..
Hihihihihi….

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Made to Worship

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Good God…

Learning and Learning…
Thx for the Lessons that I’ve received…
Papi had aLready taLked about exactLy the same things that mentioned in FA Last night…
I was Like… oh,, my God is reaLLy awesome..
He speak through my father and my FA leader about the same things,, even the same points..
I knew tat God reaLLy want to teach me more and more in this specific part…
Thx for the reminder God…

“Always remember to give thx to God,, regardLess the situations and conditions for He aLready gives us our daiLy bread…”
“Keep humbLe…We are nothing but He is everything…”
“Have faith.. He can do something that we can’t imagine..”

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Harvest moon

There is a storm in my heart
It tears my inside part
I am bLeeding and I am hurt
Like a wingLess LittLe bird

Then it turns dark
And for a moment I see
The pain that was inside of me
And in a journey I embark
In search of answer
In search of truth
In search of understanding
In search of you

Just by the thought of you
I find myseLf aLL sad again
I’ve Lost you, but aLso gained
I know I must be gratefuL
But my souL is sad for you

The season is over and
I know I must be happy
But the Loss is too big
And the pain too intense
I need to teLL you my new story
See your eyes
Experience your smiLe

I just so much wish
You couLd see the harvest of my Life
From the seeds you have sown
EspeciaLLy now, when it’s fuLL in harvest
But then again, aLthough I’m sad
I know I’m gLad…

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Messed up…

Sorry Lord…
FeeL guiLtyyyyyyy…
Arrgghhhhhhhh….

Matahari tengah bertahta di singgasana…
Dengan diiringi jentikan jari,, semua pun berubah…
Hingga mataharipun tak Lagi terLihat…
Janji tuk menutup hari hanyaLah janji...
LaLu api-api itupun kini terpadamkan oLeh air..

Thx bro udah jd tempat sampah
Maaph Lg degh…^^

Le gra’