My grown up Christmas List…

Your presence is one of my Christmas wishes….
So,, pLease be nice by not disappoint me ;p
I hope you can understand,, hihihihihi…
Don’t waste your time ^^

My Grown Up Christmas List -- MichaeL bubLe
Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With chiLdhood fantasies

WeLL, I’m aLL grown up now
And stiLL need heLp somehow
I’m not a chiLd
But my heart stiLL can dream

So here’s my LifeLong wish
My grown up christmas List
Not for myseLf
But for a worLd in need

Chorus:
No more Lives torn apart
That wars wouLd never start
And time wouLd heaL aLL hearts
And everyone wouLd have a friend
And right wouLd aLways win
And Love wouLd never end
This is my grown up Christmas List

What is this iLLusion caLLed the innocence of youth
Maybe onLy in our bLind beLief can we ever find the truth

Chorus

Le gra’

Another prove... and it happened...

First of aLL…
Congrats… congrats…
Last time you came to me with deniaL about this mannnn…
And Look at you now…
You are so into him now……
Arghhhhhh….
Can’t beLieve it….

Satu Lg pasangan yg membuktikan adanya cinta yg dtg karena terbiasaaaa…
Hmm…
Nampakna mreka bs dikategorikan type yg kedua…
Type dmn smua berawaL dr kata2 “friendship”….
I onLy know in the Last 6 months they are very cLose to each otherrrrrr….
And both of them are quite angry if we tease them…
Gerak gerik & smuana segh msh bs dibLg ndak terLaLu obvious,, tp wajar Lah buat si “brother-sisterhood” inih critana….
TiLL suddenLy few days back…
Ktika si wanita inih merayakan hr burungnaaa,, si cowok inih mengungkapkannnn perasaan di hatiiii…
Yups… he didn't choose other day but her birddeiiiii….
Aih…aih…
Kt yg denger jd terharu,, shocked,, tp mo ketawa jg…
Hihihihihihi….
Akhirnaaaaaa…
Smua pun bernapas Lega pas si wanita inih hanya menciptakan seuLas senyum manisna….
Satu kata yg terdengar… yessss…
And the next thing was…. Keceriaan yg terpancar dr smua pihak…

PdhL yah…
kaLo inget bbrp bLn yg LaLuuuuuu…
Wadoooo,, mreka inih termsk makhLuk2 yg mendukung kaLimat kontroversina si Raniii…
Fyi,, Rani tuh percaya kaLo "kite ndak mgkn Lah jdan ama makhLuk2 terdekat kite…"
Abiess,,, since kt udah tau smua seLuk beLukna dy…
Udah tau pLus minusna tuh org…
Sooo,, it’s kinda impossibLe for us (me) to faLL into that person…
If I say this sentence,, mgkn hanya 2 dari 20 org yg agree with me…
And this sentence tuh mengundang org to say “Ati2 Lhoooo Ncuu… KuaLat ndiri br tau Lhooo..”
I guessed it won’t happen to me…
But,, as I Looked deeper… it did…
….Once….

Hmmm,,, di kaLa Rani sibuk men-deny smua org tiap kaLi ditanya…
Tanpa sadar,, pintu pertahanan inih teLah diboboL…
Ada maLing masuk,, membawa hatiku pergi pdnaaaa…
But,, Thx God that I have this feeLing…
Hihihihihih….
Ntu kan brarti Rani msh wanita normaL !!!!

Le gra’

Rain outside

Rains are important to me
Rains inspire me to write
Rains inspire me to sing
Rains inspire me to dance

Rains are important to me
Rains give me new way to Live Life
Rains force me for depth thought
Rains give me untouched feeL of Love

Rains are important to me
Rains give new rhythms to my soul
Rains fresh me from my tiredness
Rains make me mad in joy….

Le gra’

Admire..

Nah…
Hiihihi…
Mariii kita muLeeeeee…
Liatttttttttt,, for the sake of…. Promise ?? Dare ??
Inih,, sesuai requestanmu nak,, aku post di bLogku..

Sipppp….
Sd. St. CaroLine:
Back to that time,, I remembered that I was sooo excited to go to schooL..
WhiLe most of my friend couLdn’t Let their mom’s hand away,, I just quickLy ran into the schooL gate and entered the cLass…
Saw the others and enjoyed watching them... Betapa poLos & Luguna di hari pertama ntu…
Rani inget bgttt,, hr pertama skuL tuh Rani cuma duduk diem di saLah satu bangku kedua dr depan,, baris ketiga dr kiri… bLom brani ngapa2in… KenaLan ama tmenpun pas jam istirahat,, maLu2 kucing Lg…
Rani msh inget,, waLi keLasku namana Bu LiLiana Fung…. Hihihihi…

Then,, sLama di CaroLine yah.. Guru yg Rani admired yah..
Bu Kristiani,, waLi keLasku keLas 3c…
Wadooo,, dy segh guru tersabar pertama yg pernah ngajar Rani…
Guru pertama Rani jg yg tuLisanna pLg bgs !!! and dy punya signature yg sgt unique & ribettt bgt dah…
I think that she knew I admire her…
Since tuLisan tegak bersambung Rani,, rani buat semirippppppp tuLisanna…
DodoL jg yah kLo inget wkt ntu…
Tiap hr bLjr cara nuLis supaya mirip tuLisanna ama Bu Kristiani,, which is berhasiL jg akhrina..
Udah gtu,, ad side effectna Lg… TuLisan Rani jd rapiiiiiii,, bgs & kerennnn bgtttt…
Oh nooo,, jd narsis sendiri…
Aniwei,, tp emang tuLisan dy tuh keren abies,,one point why I admired her…

SLTP St. Maria:
I aLso couLd picture myseLf in the first day in that schooL…
Ketika ntu,, Jakarta Lg heboh2na demam banjirrrr…
Dimana mana banjirrrrrrrr….
Si papi nyetir ndak bs kemana2…
KompLek rumahku udah kyk puLau sendiri,, di sekitarna ndak bs kLuar…
Tp napsukuuuuu msk skuL gedeeee bgttttt…
ALhasiL,, ketika smua siswa masuk jam 7 pg dah ad orientasi di auLa,, Rani br berhasiL nyampe jam 8.25 di Juandaaa…
Lari2 sekuat tenanga dr Lap parkir ampe auLa…
And dgn banggana,, ngebuka pintu auLa… Jebrekkkkkkkkk….
Pintu kebuka,, and smua mata memandang ke beLakangggg !!!!!
Duenk…duenk…
MaLuuuuuuu bgtttt !!!!
Bayangin ajeee,, brp ratus anak br Lg pd kumpuL di auLa,, Lg dengerin orientasi pLus guru2 petinggi yg bersanding di barisan terdepan,, smua Lengkap serentak nengok ke Rani !!!!!
Satu2na murid yg teLatna paLing parah & nyeLonong msk auLa !!!!!
Oupppssssssss….

Nah,, kLo guru yg di admire mah obvious bgtttt….
Hampir smua angkatanku tauuu bgt kLo Rani demen ama Bu Rosa…
Huh,, huh,, huh… StiLL wondering knp yah kLo Rani demen org tuh kLiatan bgtttt ???
That time was reaLLy reaLLy reaLLy crazyyyy !!!!
Admire na tuh parah abiesssss,, ngeLebihin ungkapan cinta ke co sendiri…
Huahuahuaha….
Nek,, kmu inget kan smua puisi2 that we gave her… Smua tingkah2 dodoL yg pernah kita Lakuinnn…
Tiap pagi doa di kapeL,, just to wait tiLL she come…
& hebatnaaaa,, waLopun dy tau kLo kt rada distract dy gtu,, dy teteppppppp ajeeee baeee yah nek…
Pake acara manggiL anakku sayang sgaLa Lg,, hihihihi… Jd tersipu2 Raniiii…
GiLaaaaaaa,, kita ampe pernah ke Otista sgaLaaa…
Kmu ngerasa ngeriii ndiri ndak seh Nek kLo inget our daiLy activities yg reLated to her….
Yg pLg Lucuuuu,, wkt di hoteL di Yogya !!!! Yg ada cLana pendek,, wc,, hayoooo msh inget ndak ???
Adooowww,, jd inget aib sendiriiiii…

SMU St. UrsuLa:
First day segh ndak terLaLu berkesan bgtttt,, since bnyk anak2 Sanmar yg ke Sanur…
Wkt ntu,, di 1-5.. keLas pLg ujung terpenciL !!!!
Udah gtu,, ketara bgtttt dudukna ngeLompok gtu..
Kita2 yg dr Sanmar,, trus anak2 asLi Sanurna sendiri,, and terakhir kaum minoritas dr skuL2 Laen…
Hihihihi…
LaLu berkumpuL di auLa,, I was not Late that time !!!!
Hihihihi…
Yah,, ndak terLaLu fantastis Lah…

Beranjak soaL admire2an mah,, waduuuu udah tersohor brita kekagumanku pd si Cece aLias Gracia Augusta,, bner kan bow ???
BerawaL dr ntu Lhooo,, bLjar kLompok brg…
Di suatu Senin siang yg panas,, tersebutLah 1 group dr 1-3 and 1-5… Kite yg di 1-5 segh Lg bLjar Kimia (ampe inget bhs subject ap gtu.. ;p),, whereas mreka anak 1-3 Lg bLjr bhs or ap gtu…
Trus,, dimana 2 ato 3 org berkumpuL dipaksa ikut program group discussion yg kaLa ntu ndak ad uLangan dkk,, pastiLah nama keisengan dipermuLiakannn…
Permainan Truth or Dare pun terLaksana dgn muLusnaaa ktika tibaLah giLiran rani yg kena..
Ndak sperti biasana I choose dare,, siang ntu Rani Lbh tertarik ama si dare…
SeLanjutna,, kmu pst udah tauu Lah… ;p
Smua skandaL yg ada,, smua kebetuLan2 yg muncuL,, smua adegan2 yg tercipta…
Hiyaaaaa….

Hmmm,, kaLo dipikir2 nyeremin jg yah…
Admire org bs ampe separah ntuuu…
Hiiiiiii,, serem ndiriii…
Kecian jg segh mreka2 yg jd korban,, hihihihi…

Heeeeeeeeeeee,,, udah.. udah… Cukuppp puasss kan dirimuw nak ??
Haizz,, udah disebutkan tuh diatas !!!!!
Emang rani sLaLu terjebak dgn kata2 dare,, hihihihi…
Untung yg baca bLog Rani cuma kaLangan tertentu ajee,, coba kLo yg tersebut diatas bc nih bLog…
Bisa merah2 muka Raniiii,, huahahahahaha….

Le gra’

Comfieeeeee

By definition,, a comfort zone is a type of mentaL conditioning that causes a person to create and operate mentaL boundaries that are not reaL…
And that such boundaries create an unfounded of security…
Thx to Wikipedia for that definition…
And yupzz,, I agree with that expLanation…

WeLL,, smua org emang pasti mencari suasana nyaman…
Tapi kondisi yg terLaLu nyaman ternyata tidak menyehatkan…
Sometimes,, the word comfort itseLf,, stiLL confuse me…
Antara kehiLangan ambisi,, atau karena gampang merasa cukup,, atau pureLy karena maLas ???
Sama seperti singa yg ndak pernah ngerasa Lapar,, mungkin ndak segh insting untuk berburuna tetap terasah ??? KaLo otona ndak pernah bergerak,, apakah dy tetap Lincah ???

Comfort zone udah pst adaLah area yg seLaLu dicari…
And si comfort zone ntu emang pantas buat dicari…
Tapi,, sampai mana segh parameter si comfie ntu ???

Is it possibLe outside our comfie,, justru terbentang zone2 yg jauhhhhhh Lbh nyaman Lg ??
Or,, si comfie ntu adaLah suatu awaL dr sebuah “discomfort zone” ???

Mungkin disituLah Letak bahaya dr si comfort zone inih…
Dy berhasiL membuat kita terLenaaa… terbuaiiiii daLam kenyamanan yg statis…
KehiLangan semangat juang,, semangat untuk meraih hidup yg Lbh dr sekedar “comfort” dan finaLLy we can find ourseLf Lg jongkok di tempat… terLaLu capek buat Lari…

*I Longed so much to do the things I’d never done before, but see myseLf in the mirror..
I can see a girL who stayed inside her comfort zone and paced the same oLd floor..*

Le gra’

es es ce..

Saat kau MENYUKAI seseorang, kau ingin memiLikina untuk keegoisanmu sendiri..
Saat kau MENYAYANGI seseorang, kau ingin sekaLi membuatna bahagia dan bukan untuk dirimu sendiri..
Saat kau MENCINTAI seseorang, kau akan meLakukan apapun untuk kebahagianna waLaupun kau harus mengorbankan kebahagianmu bahkan jiwamu..

Saat kau MENYUKAI seseorang dan berada di sisinya,
maka kau akan bertanya, “BoLehkah aku menciummu ?”
Saat kau MENYAYANGI seseorang dan berada di sisinya,
maka kau akan bertanya, “BoLehkah aku memeLukmu ?”
Saat kau MENCINTAI seseorang dan berada di sisinya,
maka kau akan menggenggam erat tanganna waLau tanpa kata kata...

SUKA adaLah saat ia menangis, kau akan berkata, “SudahLah, jangan menangis..”
SAYANG adaLah saat ia menangis, kau akan menangis bersamana dan memeLukna..
CINTA adaLah saat ia menangis, kau akan membiarkanna menangis dipundakmu sambiL berkata, “Mari kita seLesaikan masaLah ini bersama sama..”

SUKA adaLah saat kau meLihatna, kau akan berkata, “Ia sangat cantik dan menawan.”
SAYANG adaLah saat kau meLihatna, kau akan meLihatna dari hatimu dan bukan matamu
CINTA adaLah saat kau meLihatna kau akan berkata, “Buatku dia adaLah anugerah terindah yang pernah Tuhan berikan padaku.”

Pada saat orang yang kau SUKA menyakitimu, maka kau akan marah dan tak mau Lagi bicara padana.
Pada saat orang yang kau SAYANG menyakitimu, maka kau akan menangis untukna.
Pada saat orang yang kau CINTA menyakitimu, maka kau akan berkata, “Tak apa apa, dia hanya tak tahu apa yang dia Lakukan.” dan memberina kesempatan baru...

Pada saat kau SUKA padana, kau akan memaksana untuk menyukaimu.
Pada saat kau SAYANG padana, kau akan membiarkanna memiLih yang terbaik untukna
Pada saat kau CINTA padana, kau akan seLaLu menantina dengan setia dan tuLus, bahkan meLepasna ketika dia memiLih yang dia rasa terbaik untukna

SUKA adaLah kau akan menemanina biLa itu menguntungkan..
SAYANG adaLah kau akan menemanina di saat dia membutuhkan..
CINTA adaLah kau akan menemanina di saat bagaimanapun keadaanna, waLau keadaan tak memungkinkan buatmu.. bahkan dari sekitarmu !!

SUKA adaLah haL yang menuntut..
SAYANG adaLah haL memberi dan menerima..
CINTA adaLah haL yang memberi dengan reLa, berani bertahan daLam penderitaan..

Saat kau MENYUKAI, engkau dengan mudah bisa meLupakanna..
Saat kau MENYAYANGI, engkau akan suLit meLupakan dirina seLamana, dan ingin dia seLaLu berada di sampingmu..
Saat kau MENCINTAI, engkau akan tetap menjadi sahabatna waLau dia bersama orang Lain, meski engkau terLuka ketika engkau berada di dekatna dan kau akan berharap dia berbahagia bersama yang Lain..

Le gra’

WaLkin her home

A sweet and nice Lyric…
Another touching song,, hihihihi
Hiyaaa,, make me want to Love someone Like this and want to be Loved as weLL..

Mark SchuLtz – He’s WaLking Her Home
Looking back, he sees it aLL
It was her first date the night he came to caLL
And her dad said “Son, have her home on time,
and promise me you’LL never Leave her side.”
He took her to a show in town,
And he was ten feet off the ground

He was waLking her home, hoLding her hand
Oh the way she smiLed, it stoLe the breath right out of him
Down that oLd road, with the stars up above
He remembers where he was the night he feLL in Love
He was waLking her home

Ten more years, in a waiting room
And haLf past one, was when the doctor said
“Come in and meet your son.”
And his knees went weak, when he saw his wife
She was smiLing as she said “He’s got your eyes”
And as she sLept he heLd her tight
His mind went back to that first night

Back to chorus

And wandered through the best days of her Life
Sixty year together and he never Left her side

A nursing home, at eighty five
And the doctor said it couLd be her Last night
And the nurse said “Oh, shouLd we teLL him now?
Or shouLd he wait untiL the morning to find out?”
But when they checked her room that night,
He was Laying by her side

He was waLking her home, hoLding her hand
Oh the way she smiLed when he said “This is not the end”
Just for a whiLe, they were eighteen
And she was stiLL more beautifuL to him than anything
He was waLking her home
He was waLking her home

Looking back, he sees it aLL
It was her first date the night he came to caLL



Le gra’

my buddies out there...

Aih…aih…
BeLakangan inih capekna Luarrrrrrrrr biasaaaaa….
Sedih jg… There are few things yg ga bs ke handLe deh akhirnaaa,, huuuuuuuuuuuu…
Too bad segh,, but I try harder to catch up everything for the foLLowing day Later…
Yeahhhhhhhh….
Gara2 capek parah,, ampe2 bs2na Rani ketiduran bentar pas denger sermon mgg kmaren,, adooo ngerasa dosa,, hihihi…
Trus,, di bus pun ketiduran Lg,, 2x in a day Lg..
Route singkat dr Thai Embassy ke Plasing bs ketiduran!!! Ntu yg pLg parah segh,, pdhL cuma few stops doank.. Udah gtu,, maLem pas pLg di 51 ketiduran Lg… for the first time,, Rani kebabLasannnnnn gara2 ketiduran… Hiks.. hiks…
Tp untungnaaaa,, smua ntu udah terbayarkan dgn tidur babi sLama 11 jam !!! Hihihihi…
Yups,, bgn udah seger Lg degh skrg…
Hihihihihi…

RecentLy,, aLL the topics that had been brought up are interreLated…
God aLways tooo good aLL the time…
Everything is sooo perfect at His time.. bring me back again,, and again..
And the Last dawn prayer,, it was awesome…

Dear my bestfriend ever after: Agnessss….
Ooowww,, it’s been more than 2 years girL…
Youuu know,, I reaLLy reaLLy reaLLy reaLLy miss you dear…
It seems everytime I go back to Indo,, I dun have time to visit you in Bdg or the other way around…
I never forget for the 12 years that we’ve been through together…
The funniest things,, the sadness time and the anger period…
Bittersweet…
I wish that we can meet soon babe…

Dear my cumi2 goreng tepung…
Ahhhh,, having you as a friend is one of His bLessing for me…
You are a good friend gortep… it’s trueee…
Though we may not aLways chat,, or sms,, but keep in mind that I do remember you…
All the memories in Sanur,, especiaLLy in Sosrow,, won’t be forgotten.. Hihihihi…
Termasuk smua kegiLaan kt,, kegokiLan kt…
Ampe terciptaLah RACUN,, Rancu & Cuni… and our victims,, mreka2 yg teLah teRACUNi oLeh kt,, hihihihi…

Dear my Marmut,, Dei,, Wepe,, Rabies…
Whoaaaaaaaaaaaaa….
I doooooo miss aLL of youuu !!!!
A Lotttttttttttttttttt….
Hihihihihi…
Hoping that y’aLL ok wherever you are…
UntiL this time,, no one can break your record mut,, ngemut makanan terLamaaa… Hihihihi…
Trus,, skrg yah Dei,, kLo kmu ndak brg aku,, sasaran buLLy-an seringkaLi terLimpah ke Rani…
Makana Dei,, kmu brg Rani ajee trus.. Jd kan kt bs berbagi penderitaan bersamaaaa,, hihihihi…
Wepeeeeee,,, msh jd wanita penggoda ndka dirimuw ???
Ada om2 yg nyangkut ndak gara2 godaanmuw ??? Hihihii…
Nah,, Rabiesssssssss….
I think you are proud of your nickname now..
Or,, apa ntu hanyaLah bukti kLo kmu mengagumi Rani,, jd suka memperkenaLkan dirimuw as Rabiesss heh ???? Hihihihihi…
Arghh,, senangna kaLo inget masa2 di 2a3….
Ada si miosin B and her bestfriend,, hihihi…
Ada jg si Bude,, yg tiap kaLi bikin smua ce2 menata seragam n rambutna properLy…
LaLu Lorong samping kLas buat markas pas istirahat…

Hmmm,, my mind just thinking of y’aLL just now…
I want to see youuuu… chit chat…. Go out with y’aLL…
Miss those time…. reaLLy,, I do miss you….

Le gra’

Short message for mi pequeño pájaro ^^

I can feeL it…
Now I know,, you haven’t forget her…
And you won’t forget her anyway… hihihihihi…
I can see it mannnnnnnn….
Yuhuuuwwwwww….
Teruskan perjuanganmu nak...
Tapiiiiii,, masa udah kyk ginih msh mo nerusin segh ???
Hihihihihi..
Aih,,aih... it's not my business rite... just Leave it up to you...
SaLute ajeeee…. Hihihihihi….

However,, I stiLL can’t understand you,, my mysterious friend…
Hihihihi…
It seems Like I haven’t known you weLL…
Okay,, maybe I onLy know the basic and common things about you…
WeLL,, of course… coz I don’t have any right to know deeper..
Hihihihihi…
But,, I do Like to have a conversation with you…
ReaLLy,, I mean it…
It’s Like a never ending story…
There’s aLways some things that you can bring up…
And more or Less,, reaLize or not,, you heLp me to get the better understanding about this Life…
That’s why I Like you… but not in the usuaL way… ;p
The Last poem was dedicated for you.. again.. hihihihi…

Hmm,, though a Lot that I want to say about you…
Let’s just keep it siLent…
Coz there are things that no need to be written or spoken…
Lemme enjoy this excitement ;p

This is onLy a short message for you my dear friend…
Hope this day wiL be fruitfuL,, be bLessed and enjoy your day…
Oups,, not onLy you,, for everyone aLso…
Coz aLL of you,, brighten my days
I Love y’aLL ^^
Muach…muach…

Le gra’

mis ceLos

I’m jeaLous of the sun
for warming up your face
I’m jeaLous of the stars
for brightening your dreams
I’m jeaLous of the wind
and of the air you breathe
I’m jeaLous of the ground
you waLk upon each day
I’m jeaLous of the piLLow
on which you kneeL and pray
I’m jeaLous of the book
you touch to read at night
I’m jeaLous of the mirror
refecting your sweet smiLe

I’m jeaLous of the woman
that had known you for years
whiLe I had just a bLink of eyes
of Love with you
I’m jeaLous of her race
for being aLso yours
I’m jeaLous of the Language
and its forbidden words
I’m jeaLous of the tears
because they meLt your heart
whiLe mine are onLy words
you sometimes read about…

I’m jeaLous of the distance
I’m jeaLous of the past
I’m jeaLous of the fate
that gave to the others the chance
to be cLose to you
A history of her
A memory of me

I’m jeaLous of the sun
I’m jeaLous of the stars
My jeaLousy consumes me
As fire meLts the ice…

Le gra’
14.11.07

the perfect one..

There’s one topic that aLways makes my teardrops faLLing on my cheek…
It’s as simpLe as famiLy…
Whoooaaaaa,, tiap kaLi & dimanapun jg,, yg udah ngomongin “FamiLy”,, “orangtua”,, dapat dipastikan kLo suara Rani akan segera bergetarrr… mata muLe berkabutt…
HaLah… haLah… MeLodramatic argh,, hihihihi…
But,, that’s the truth inside me…

They are the peopLe that reaLLy care about me… though we are separated by miLes…
The onLy peopLe that support me… no matter how hard my Life can be…
The onLy peopLe that never stop to teach me.. about moraLity,, principLes and experiences…
The onLy peopLe that aLways remind me to surrender aLL to GOD… through the bad and good times..

Everybody must proud of their parents,, no matter how trucuLent they are…
Coz the basic point is that they Loveeee you sooo much,, even if they seLdom show the words…
Thx God who gives me my imperfect parents...
I know that they are not perfect,, but my Lord makes them perfect to me...

And one of my sisters surprised me…
Knowing her as a cheerfuL girL,, so active and so happy from outside…
But inside,, she Lose her parents…
Her father died when she was 9 whiLe her mother died when she was 16…
Her story was veryy touching…
I’m thankfuL that she is stiLL His ways… stiLL waLk in His purposes…
Even though she cannot meet her parents anymore,, she can cope everything…
She must be a strong girL…
And I’m proud of her… gLad to know you girL…
You stiLL have us,, your famiLy here.. and nevertheLess,, the one and onLy one,, our father: Jesus Christ…
Yey….yey… ^^

Le gra’

The shining star

Stars never faiL to amaze me…
I might not see your star,, in the coupLe of these days…
And in fact it’s not my star…
But,, I want to have it…
The reaL star that’s hiding inside your heart ;p

Le gra’

Say it isn't soooo....

Saying something is an easy job,, but doing it with your heart is not easy at aLL…
I can easiLy say that I want to stop bLogging too often,, but in fact I can’t stand if I haven’t opened my bLog for onLy a day…
Or,, I can say that I want eat more veggies but most of the time I throw the veggies out from the dishes…
Or,, I can easiLy say that I’m ok whiLst inside I’m not ok at aLL…
Last time I found it very easy just to say a word when I didn’t mean it…
WeLL,, if onLy you aLL know which sentences that I mean it,, hihihihi ;p

As the time fLew,, I tried to eLiminate this bad habit out of my Life..
Yeah,, I knew it’s not good at aLL…
I think that’s the other form of Lying,, hihihihi…

But in certain cases,, I stiLL find it’s hard to say the truth…
Hmm,, in more specific,, it’s hard to teLL how you feeL truthfuLLy,, exactLy…
There are certain circumstances when you can ‘t say the truth…
ActuaLLy you aLways have options whether to say it or to hide it…
And I tend to hide it…
Is it the nature of being a girL???
Yeah,, through a conversation with my friend I reaLize that most of the girLs are tend to deny or hide their feeLings..
Why ???
StiLL not sure,, but probabLy it’s due to the uncertainty…
The girLs don’t want to have such a “ke-ge-er-an” feeLing,, hehehehe…
It makes them try to deny their feeLing untiL everything is obvious...
But,, it’s not 100% a vaLid reason…
There are some other reasons,, Like the situation that must be considerated,, that most of the times force us not to teLL the truth,, or withhoLd the truth…
The opposite party's feeLing have to be considerated... and sometimes it makes me reLuctant to say a word...
Maybe,, the words wiLL hurt their feeLing...

Is it good not to teLL the truth in order to make everything “seems” aLright ???
My heart say it isn't so...
but.........
How if the truth wiLL just make the situation more difficuLt ??
If one day when the truth has been reveaLed,, wiLL everything be changed ??
Is it the feeLing of afraid to Loose someone or something ???
And this time around,, why the intention to deny come across my mind again ??
Why do I have to deny it ???

These kind of stars ;p

Configuration of stars....

In the other forms of my stars...

Biar cinta datang karena terbiasaaaa…

Few days ago my friend asked me regarding of that sentence…
Hahahahahaha….
I forgot how many times I’ve been asked for the same question aLong this year…
WeLL… my answer is: depends on the type of that person…
ActuaLLy there’s no 100% right answer for this kind of questions…
Everything is unsure (remember ce Lyd,, kLo ditanya soaL bginian ;p)

Yeahhh…
Semua kan tergantung si org ntu type yg gmn…
MasaLah ginian mah bisa datang dr mn ajeee bung….
Ada org yg emang udah suka dr awaL,, or at Least tertarik dr awaLnaa…
KaLo bahasa kerenna segh Love at the first sight bgituh…
UntiL now,, I stiLL wondering how peopLe can determine that a person who stands in front of your eyes for the first time is the right person for her/him ???

In some cases,, bnyk jg yg justru awaLna biasa ajaa..
or in extreme examples maLah dua2na ga bs akur sama skaLi,, sebeL kek,, benci kek…
Tiap hari berantem muLukkkk… Tiap hari ejek2an muLukkkk…
Pokokna tiap ktemu ga ad deh terLewati tanpa saut2 satu sama Laen…
Tp,, yg Lucuna,, gara2 smakin knaL tuh org maLah smakin suka and chemistry ntu muLe tumbuh dah…
Yah mgkn inih yg namana cinta datang karena terbiasaaaa,,, biasa ngejek2in kLo di type yg inih…
Cases kyk ginih waLopun cLise bgt,, cuma Rani udah punya contoh idupnaaaa… Hihihihi…
Hmmm,,, jd inget A***N…. Neneq,, dirimuw pasti tau “itu”,, hihihihi….

Ada yg dr friendship…
Nah,, kLo di kategori inih,, mgkn cinta datang karena terbiasaaaaa…
Biasa bareng2…. Biasa menikmati saat2 bersamaa… Biasa spend time together… Biasa tau habit2na dy…
Starting with a common group,, trus makin hari makin deket…
Ampe cap friendship ntu udah meLekat diantara merekaaa…
Namun,, crossgender friendship inih tentu sajah sgt rentan akan masaLah bgituannn…
So,, ga gtu heran segh kLo end up di situ situ Lagi…
Even Rani pun udah ampe eneg ditanya2in soaL bginih since I was in Junior High SchooL…
Bnykna awaLna she berniat ber-friendship ama makhLuk2 ntu & di tgh jLn tiba2… hayoooo,, ada apa yg tumbuh di hatiiiii ??? hehehehe….
Tp,, yg sedihnaa,, ada bbrp org yg make kedok friendship inih buat memperLancar usahanaaa…
Basiiiiii ahhhhhhhh….. Carana ndak kreatif tuh !!!!!

Bbrp jg ad yg berawaL dr so caLLed kakak adekkkk…
It’s funny that I can spend hours in debating on this matter with my friends….
HonestLy,, we didn’t have to debate right,, coz basicaLLy everyone have their own opinion….
Buat Rani sendiri segh,, reLation kyk ginih jg ad yg bner2 pure kok !!!!!
Knp hampir smuaaa ga ad yg percaya yah ???
Bnerna inih segh mirip2 ama type yg diatas…
Di type yg inih,, cinta datang karena terbiasaaaaa…
Biasa berinteraksi dgnna… Biasa memberi & menerima perLakuan2 Lbh… Biasa tergantung satu sama Laen… Biasa tau sifat2na Luar daLem…
For these Last two cases,, inih mah udah bnykkk bgt contohnaaa…
Yah,, type2 drama sepertinaa… hiihihi….

Hmmm..
Smuana segh ad consequences-na sendiri2 bunggg…
Rani jadi iget Lagu jaduLna Dewa,, RisaLah hati…
Aku bisa membuatmuuu,, jatuh cinta kepadakuuuu meski kau tak cintaaaa kepadaku….
Beri sedikit waktuu,, biar cinta datang karena teLah terbiasaaaaa….
Hihihihihi… ;p

As for myseLf…
If you ask me,, which side do I agree ???
ActuaLLy untiL now,, I’m not sure yet…
Hihiihihi…
But I agree that cinta bisa datang karena terbiasa….
PeopLe do change… and everything can happen… and I’m stiLL Learning ;p
I Leave it up to you ^^
So,, which side do you agree ???????

Le gra’