run into light again...

It’s august now….

4 months not blogging, enough to tell many problems and trials and tough decisions…. Not to forget the happy memories and laughter and fellowships…

But if I’m still standing here at this time, it’s all because of God…

I am weak,, I am not strong,, I almost give up…

But He is too powerful to help me and He is able…

Though the scars still remain, though the hurt haven’t gone yet, but I force myself to run to Him…

I want to be healed and once again I said He is able….

People come in our life in a season…

For a reason…

To teach us a lifetime lesson…

Le gra’

A.P.R.I.L

We arrive in the second quarter of the year…

The first 3 months went difficultly,, painful…

Yet, by the grace of God, here comes April…

A month of new expectation…

By worshiping Him more may the blessing pour down…

Finished the sweet escape trip...

Hope it will be a good start for us...

The last chemo was just started…

Hope we can finish it and no more pain, no more hospitalized, no more…

The new resolution was just made…

Hope I can make it into reality…

Need to strength my heart….

Have to change to be a better person…

Let this month turn to be a sweet one…

Le gra’

Keep moving

Teruslah berjalan. jangan berhenti, sekalipun pertanyaan-pertanyaan itu membeludak dan seperti akan memecahkan kepalamu.

Karena dengan terus berjalan lah kamu akan menemukan jawaban dari pertanyaan-pertanyaanmu. Sekaligus, kamu akan menemukan pertanyaan-pertanyaan lain yang menunggu untuk dicari jawabannya.

Pertanyaan-pertanyaan itu membuat hidup kita dimulai.

Jadi teruslah berjalan. jangan berhenti.

Doakan saya yah!!!! ;p

Le gra’

addicted to you...

Belakangan ini, saya merasa terlalu tergantung dengan kehadiran orang.. Ga baekkkk negh,, huhuhu… Ketergantungan ini membuat resah.,, karena saya orang yang sulit melepaskan diri jika sudah terlalu terlibat dengan sesuatu atau seseorang… Dan ini tidak baik buat diri saya sendiri…

Karena itulah, perpisahan adalah sesuatu yang sangat menyebalkan dan menjengkelkan buat saya.. Apalagi jika perpisahan tersebut sudah menampakkan dirinya di depan mata…Betapa saya menyesali diri saya sendiri yang mempunyai terlalu banyak persediaan air mata untuk sebuah perpisahan, sekalipun itu perpisahan sementara.. Tapi apa boleh buat, hanya batang kayu yang tidak emosional kan?? Kejadian-kejadian emosionil belakangan ini sangat menumpulkan pikiran dan betapa pikiran saya menjadi sangat lelah dibuatnya… Huhhhhhhh….

Le gra'

something cliche

I just want to pursue my truly happiness

If it’s only bring sadness and tears,

Then how can I assure that this is my happiness??

If it’s only bring pain and disappointments,

Should I consider it as y happiness??

Maybe I should sit down and think it over and over again

Is it really what I want??

Or is it just my wishful dream??

Or is it where my selfishness taking place??

Climbing the stairs to reach the happiness is not easy

The obstacles may appear everywhere

We suppose to solve it as soon as it may appear

There is no time for procrastination

For the reward of procrastination is a delay of His miracle

God will help and pour down His grace as we try our best

He will see and count for every step that has been taken

But if we just stay the same without taking an action to solve anything,

How does God will help???

 

Le gra’

wishlist while i'm waiting

I'm waiting, I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful, I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful but patiently, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

Reff: While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
I'll be running the race even while I wait

I'm waiting, I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful, I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy but faithfully, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

just like a firework

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind wanting to start again
Do you ever feel feel so paper-thin
Like a house of cards one blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

REFF: 'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on show them what you're worth
Make them go, "Oh, oh, oh"
As you shoot across the sky
Baby, you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make them go, "Oh, oh, oh"
You're gonna leave before they know

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe the reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt your heart will glow
And when it's time you know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Reff

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through