God's graCe..

Oh ya,, just want to copy a quote from my friend’s bLog:
Dunno why,, this quote keep appearing in my mind today...
"God allows us to experience the low points of life in order to teach us lessons we could not learn in any other way. The way we learn those lessons is not to deny the feelings but to find the meanings underlying them"

Maybe you don’t know what He wants when we suffered,, confuse of what He wants from us when He aLLows us feel sad.. Just remember that He knows everything,, so you dun have to worry.. As Long as u’ve tried ur best & the rest,, just Leave it up to Him.. Just rely on Him.. Keep in mind that He will give the best @ the right time!!! Yes,, God is great,, God is good… He knows what’s the best for us,, keep believing it !!

When I woke up this morning,, suddenLy a voice crossed my thought… It whispered to read Psalm 8… Okay,, I obeyed it.. Opened my bible & read it…
Oh,, how great it is.. it teLLs us how great is our God…Yupz,, I reaLize we’re nothing without Him.. Looking back this whoLe year… How He reaLLy heLps me in everything that I’ve done.. How Lucky I am that I know Him,, my hero… He aLLows me to experience the affection from my parents,, the kindness from aLL of my friends though they’re not here with me,, and the warmth of famiLy in God here …

Sometimes, I think I ask Him too much… I asked for this,, asked for that,, aksed for it… But what have I given to Him?? Not much!! I even can say… hmm… Nothing!!! Why am I so greedy?? I don’t have right to ask anything from Him…
But another voice said that He is excellent!!! He aLways Loves us & never ask anything from us,, coz He aLready has everything!!! He onLy asks for our heart… Hohohoho… ActuaLLy it’s very simpLe,, but it’s not an easy thing to do… hahahaha…

That’s why we need friends.. The good one of course.. They who can Lead us & bring us to keep our heart to Jesus.. Thank God that I’ve them aLL… Yeah,, I Luv my ceLLgroup.. Seeing them makes me grow stronger each day in God’s hands.. Whoaaa,, dunno why suddenLy I think about them,, mizz them aLready,, hahahha…

Oh yee,, for Ko David dkk yg mo ke Thai,, enjoy ur holiday !!! Ntar bgitu bLk ke sg Lg,, saya todong oLeh2,, wakakakaka kidding,, kidding… Ntar mo saya tagih criTa,, trus keLanjutan posting2anNa di bLog (hobby br bc bLog org, LoL..LoL..) Buat ce Lydia & ce Fenny yg ke Bintan,, sLamat bersenang2 ce!!! Trus sapa dunk yg ushering mgg bsk ?? hahahaha…. Then,, buat sMua yg tLah & sdg puLang kampong ke indo,, jgn Lupakan Rancu yg ga puLang.. kLo bLk ksiNi,, pd Laporan ke Rani yoo,, sambiL bw upeti oLeh2 jg maksudNa,, hahahahaha… ApaLagi buat some peopLe,, jgn Lupa apa yg udah aku titip yoooo… Hohohoho…

--RanCu--

oLrite..

Sadness comes into me
Another grief comes into my heart
The brutal & angry tears that makes a life worthwhile
My heart is like a symphony
That sings of only pain
When will this seasoned sorrow end?

I don’t blame anyone
Just a little misunderstanding
Sometimes it can bring an unnecessary trouble
This time we talk about pride!

Mommy, do not worry about me
I’m doing well here
I will be okay
Do not angry with anyone,, with anything
I.. I will adjust myself with this situation

Knowing you are sad hurts my heart
So,, promise me that you’re okay
How can I smile knowing that you’re sacrifice that much?
I try my best to handle it all
I’m okay,, trust me…

--Rancu--

The music of My heaRt..

Everytime I try to make myself comfortable,
The more I feel wanna cry
Even if I wipe away those tears secretly
These feeling won’t go away
I regret that I’ve only received
Will you forget me because I haven’t given you anything?

You haunt me still, and so I won’t pretend
My fears sometimes my sentiments betray
Telling me to put my thoughts to sleep
I’m sorry that I disappointed you
Experiences can often teach someone a lot

I know I must have hurt you, caused you pain
Sometimes we have to lose what we most cherish
To understand how much we are in need

So come with me with open mind
And heart, and we the time will prove
Then shall my music be brought to you
Lightly on birds wings
A sound for all you have been through
Without boundaries you are still here

Thus time will heal this wound and leave no scar
Since u now know the pain of losing you

--Rancu--

I need My smiLe…

Today I still have my short break,, my last day before go back to college tomorrow… u know what,, today I woke @ 00.30 am !!!!! OMG,, this is the first time seumur idup bangun jam sgitu.. Salahkan siapa?? Hahaha… Yupz,, mungkin kecapean gara2 kmaren kLi yoo,, abiz br tdr jam 5 pagi,, hohohoho….

A crucial schedule for today: make sure everything is clear !!! hahahaha… Pokokna hari ini hrs seLese smua masaLahna,, ga pake mundur2 Lg,, ga pake aLesan2 Lg… Yg jeLas,, hr ini smuaNa jeLas,, ga ad yg ngambang2 Lg… One of my friend know that aku paling ga suKa yg ga jelas,, smuaNa hrs jeLas !!! But talking is not an easy job,, especially for me in this case.. It’s hard to tell you the truth..

Well,, maybe I can’t do it myself.. I need somebody else to help me.. I need encouragement to do it.. Okay,, u asked me what I want ?? Did I make it clear ?? I want to try it,, let’s do together.. But,, I dun want to tell it coz u mention about her.. Actually I want to say that we can try it first then we’ll see later.. Maybe she can change her mind coz nothing impossible.. Yeah,, she doesn’t even know me yet… But,, I keep it silent.. I dun want force myself to say it.. My friend told me “Rani tuh anaKna seLaLu mentingin kepentingan org Laen dibanding kepentinganNa sendiri..” Well,, it’s true.. Aku ga mau org laen ngaLah demi Rani,, it’s better buat aku yg ngaLah.. Rani udah terLatih buat ngaLah kok.. Rani ga mau org Laen sedih,, kaLopun hrs ad org yg sedih biar Rani aj.. God give me a strong heart supaya Rani bisa tahan smuaNa sendiri.. The other friend toLd me: “Why u never aLLow anybody to help u when u’re down?? U aLways help others facing their difficulties,, but u dun want others to help u..” It’s simply coz Rani ga mo buat org kepikiran masaLah Rani..

Why the differences always be my major problem ??? People say kLo perbedaan tuh buat saLing meLengkapi,, but it can’t be applied to my case.. Though I want it,, but I can’t.. I’m learning not to be a selfish person.. Rani belajar untuk consider other people want.. It’s easy to say,, but it’s hard to do it.. Sometimes I wonder sampai kapan Rani hrs seLaLu ngaLah ?? Is there time for me to win ?? Why I always stuck with those kind of differences among us ?? Last time I also give up with the differences.. There are so many people out there face the same problem with me,, but they can do it.. Why can’t I ?? I know it aLso hard for you… U know,, at that time when I said that u must Listen to her,, part of me said that u can taLk to her about this & I believe she’ll change.. But once again,, I dun want become selfish.. I want u to be a good boy… She’s ur everythin & I’m nobody… Hahahahha…

It’s not my fault,, it’s not ur fault,, it’s not her fault & it’s not His fault… We’ll just stuck in the wrong situation & wrong time… Sorry kLo difference yg ada ga bs untuk diLengkapi… I think u’ve come out with the decision… Thx to Him for this decision… Hopefully this is the best for u… hohohoho… Thx God u’re busy with all those activities that makes u easily forget all we’ve been through…

Thx for ur help… Thx for ur accompaniment… Thx for the shoulder… Thx for ur warm hands… Thx for day & nite we spend together... Thx for understand me… Thx for ur care… Thx for ur kindness to me… Thx to say those words (finally,, hohohoho…) Thx for everythin… ^^
Sorry kLo Rani terLaLu gampang nyerah.. Sorry kLo Rani make it aLL become so easy for you.. Sorry jg kLo Rani yg buKa jLn terLaLu Lebar… Sorry I never show how much I care… Sorry kLo Rani terLaLu teLmi… Sorry if I can’t help u much… Sorry I can’t give u the real smile… Sorry I can’t stop to…. & sorry I can’t say aLL this things directly… ;)

--RanCu--

Thx U so much…

Hohoho….
Huahuahuahua….
Thx yoo yg udah sms,, teLp,, give me testi & yg nyeLametin Lgsg just to say Merry Xmas to me….
Yay,, yay… Although it was raining on 25.12.06,, but it’s okay… Enak segh kLo cuaca adem ayem gini,, panas enggak,, ujan jg nggak.. Tp,, skrg tuh cuaca ga bs diprediksi !! Tiap hari mesti bw paying kmana2,, berat2in aja -_-“….

Nothing special today,, but there was very special moment today.. hahahahaa… Rancu ga segh ???
Yupz,, first I just wanted to stay @ home,, knowing that aLL my friends had their own plan.. But around 10pm (24.12.06),, one of my friend asked me to go out… I love to go out & hanging around with my friend,, so definitely I accepted it!!
Then,, that noon we went to Esplanade.. Actually,, we also confuse to decide the place & kt ga tau dsono ad apa… We just walked around,, Esplanade—Marina Square—Esplanade,, hahahaha.. Bner2 kyk org ga ad kerjaan.. Until the nite came,, we discussed such an important issue for me… It spent very Long time since I couldn’t speak up properly what’s on my mind,, LoL..LoL… Sorry yoo & thx for the time….

Actually,, I also confuse with myself.. I aLready know what I want & but I can’t speak it up.. too many things should I take into account.. My choice of words,, my way to arrange the sentence,, my feeling that I’m afraid to be detected… Some say pernah ngomong ke Rancu kLo aku tuh orgNa sok kuat.. Semua mau diatasin sendiri.. Frankly,, it’s true!!! Sometimes it’s good,, but sometimes it can be bad.. It’s good that kit abs prove kLo kt tuh ga manja,, ga usah terLaLu bergantung sama org laen,, kt bs mandiri !!! But,, ad saat2 tertentu yg kt hrs dibantu org Laen,, kt jg perLu org Laen.. Man,, we Live in community,, we Live with people… Mana ad smuaNa bs dikerjain sendiri tanpa perLu org laen..
One thing that force me to be strong is I don’t want to disturb others… Rancu sebenerna beratttt bgt kLo minta toLong ke org,, coz I know that I will disturb that person.. Rancu cuma ga mau nyusahin org laen lbih banyak Lg,, coz I think aku dah terlaLu banyak ngerepotin & nyusahin org laen… everybody have theor own businesses so I don’t want sacrifice their time just for me.. Yupz,, that makes me feel Like I’m strong & I must be strong…

But,, semakin daLam I pretend to be strong aLL the time,, the more it makes me fragile… Sedikit2 pasti rapuh bangetttt…. & when I feel it,, I just let myself know that I’m sad,, I’m not satisfied,, I’m hurt…. Sometimes I feel become an over emotional person,, just like this nite.. I tried not to cry everytime I’m thinking about it,, but I can’t.. The tears suddenly felt down… This nite @ Esplanade,, at the beginning I forced my friend to go home.. He said he can’t (if I’m a man,, I’LL give the same answer).. But I keep force & force him,, why ?? Bcoz I’LL know that I want to cry & I don’t want he saw me crying… After talking & talking,, I still can’t force him to go home,, so .. no choice… We just sat and try to talk & start another conversation about other topics. Firstly I was crying bcoz I miss them in Jkt… hahahaha… Maybe I need them rite now… Secondly,, I didn’t know that I was crying for another reason.. I cried when my friend was talking about a big problem that we face… I kept hiding & hiding my face coz I’m afraid.. I could think about the outcome of this problem & I pretend that I didn’t know it… But,, he knew that I cried.. He said that I didn’t have to hide it from him…

Just to let you know,, last nite I was crying coz I can’t stop stop thinking about that problem.. Well,, maybe @ the beginning I was crying buat org2 yg akhirNa kuteLpon.. But,, it’s over,, that’s aLL… & the rest,, I was crying bcoz I dun wanna loose…. I dunno whether I cried bcoz of the sadness or the anger or anything else.. I’ve tried to stop & contoL my feeling but I’m failed.. One main reason knapa Rani sLaLu nunda2 & Lamaaaaa bgt ngomong even for 1 sentence,, simply bcoz I stiLL want to spend the time together with u… Why I didn’t have any choice ?? Once I have said that Life is aLL about choices,, but in this case why I can’t choose ?? Where’s all of the choices ?? I didn’t want make he feel sad to see my crying but I couldn’t take it anymore.. Why I’m so pathetic ??? Everytime he asked me,, I just can say a big Lie.. I dun care if u called me a Liar.. U know why? Dengan begitu,, semakin mudah for u to hate me.. Rani ga mau bikin kamu pusing… That’s why.. If I never told u the truth,, it’s easy for u to make the decision.. But unfortunately,, u know that I’m lying.. See,, Rani bikin susah Lagi kan.. See,, I make you confuse & dunno how to decide…

For my friend,, a BIG thx to u mannnnnn…. Hahahahaha… I’m okay.. No need to worry about me again.. Thx for being my good friend,, I think I still need u…

--RanCu--

Christmas Eve..

finaLLy,, here it comes the day !!!!
yay !!! yay !!!!
First of aLL,, I wanna say MERRY CHRISTMAS to aLL my beloved famz & friendz ;)
Thx GOD for everything that I have,, everything that I achieved,, every moment that I experienced,, every people that I love…
Christmas in Sg,, fyuh…fyuh…

As I said in my previous bLog,, this is my 2nd chance to ceLebrate Xmas in Sg… Wow,, it’s reaLLy awesome… Roads are fuLLed with Xmas decoration,, every shop are promoted their products with tempting discount..
Everybody seems very busy.. WeLL,, I don’t know what they’re doin,, but Looking at them makes me dizzy… Especially this Christmas Eve..
After attending Xmas Eve service,, I dunno where shouLd I go,, what shouLd I do…
So,, I, ko David & his Bro,, ce Lydia,, ce Anita,, ce SherLyn & her friend decide to walk around first…
We Looked around Orchard to find a good pLace to chit chat.. Then,, after searching for a while,, we chose NYDC… Yupz,, yupz… we chatted about everything,, important & not important things…

Then, actuaLLy I dunno how could, but we ended up with pLaying cLassicaL game caLLed “Truth or dare”… if I’m not wrong it’s aLL bcoz ce Lydia asked something to ce Anita.. & u know,,, the Luckiest first person to be asked is: ME !!!! is it Lucky or UnLucky ??? okie,, just take it as a Lucky person… Then the story goes on,, I rather choose truth than dare in this kind of game (try to be honest red.).

After that,, koko asked the question.. he asked me: “If u can go anywhere in this Christmas Eve,, with whom you want to be ??” Wooooo,, he said it’s a simple question (well,, it is red.), but to answer it was not as simple as asking it… when I was thinking,, suddenLy his name came out in my mind… A name from few years ago… ****N.. hahahahahaha.. Okie,, people said that we don’t know what we have until it’s gone.. This rule applied to me in this case.. Yupz,, yupz,, when we still together, I never realize how much I care. Well, maybe I’m not a person who shows their careness in usual way. When we still together, I always act somehow like I don’t need him,, like I don’t want to be with him,, pretend to ignore him..

Recently I found out the reason why I act like that.. The reason is I don’t want to be hurt when he’s not around anymore… But, I also realize that the more I pretend to ignore him,, the more I feel pain.. I convinced myself that nothing happen.. I tried to act that I’m a strong girl.. I acted like I didn’t need him.. But, it didn’t work !!!! I even couldn’t stop tionk about him… ckckckckckck…Thus,, after he had gone to a place that quite far from here,, I decided to change my behaviour.. I learn to act like what I really want to do.. No need to pretend anymore.. I’m not afraid to get hurt anymore,, as long as I always keep God in mind,, everything must be ok.. Wow,, he’s the one that can make me like this.. Yes,, he was my big enemy,, my best friend,, my LoveLy bro… He is my 1st Love… ckckkck….

WeLL,, back to the main story again.. Yupz,, yupz,, we played Trurh or Dare for 2nd round. It was Ce Lydia... hahahahaha…. A person who asked her a question was Ko David (again..) Yeah,, somehow he really good to arrange the words to make a good sentence,, hahahaha…. He asked Ce Lyd: “If now you can be with the person that you really want to be,, what kind of kind of occasion do you want to have ?” Hohohoho…. Then she told us that she wants to have a candLe Light dinner with that person.. She hasn’t known yet the exact pLace,, but she wants it.. Having candle Light dinner with a person you love,, surrounding by the music that can lead your mood.. Whoaaa,, so romantic….

Then,, after ce Lydia,, finally,, it was time for our FA Leader to answer the question. Hahahaha…. Everybody thought about what question should we ask,, then Ce Lydia came out with one question.. “TeLL us about your Latest love Life”… huahuahua…. First he confused how to start it,, hohohoho…. Then,, finally he began to tell his story… But,, in the middle of the story,, I saw my friends pass by,, so I called them & talked with them for a while.. It meant that I miss some part of his story !!! huhuhuhuhuu… Wow,, it was a great story (I should ask him more about it,, maybe I can make another story from his story red.)

Although we still want to continue,, NYDC was closed.. we wre “kicked out” by the waitress,, hahahahaha… Then,, we looked a round to find toilet,, but it was very crowded !!!!!!!!!!! Whoa,, I got dizzy everytime I see too may people, got sick of them… Cut the story,, we reach Cineleisure & went to the toilet… it was 00.20.. After talking & talking & talking,, we decided to go back home… So,, we went to Somerset MRT.. Ce Anita went back by MRT,, then the rest went to bus stop near it.. SherLyn & her friend catched the NR bus.. Then I still can go back by 111,, yey… hehehehe… Ce Lyd went back by 16 & last Ko David & Andreas waLked to their place,, coz it’s quite near from there…

Fyuh,, fyuh,, I’m so tired now but it was a great time…. ActuaLLy,, I dun have any pLan for this Xmas,, I asked everybody but most of them are having pLans with their frinds or relatives… When I reached home & onLine,, a frind of mine asked whether I have any pLan or not… Then,, we decided to go to EspLanade…. Wow,, you know,, EspLanade is my 2nd fave pLace in Sg.. It’s aLready 1.5 months since the last time I went there… hahahaha…. hopefully I get experience such a nice & fun & wonderful Xmas today…

--Rancu--

Rancu's NegLigence Misrepresentation (Section 777)

The issue is whether I can sue you under negligence misrepresentation
which cause the plaintiff facing disappointment
FirstLy, I need to prove that you are negligence
I should establish that you have owed duty of care to me
I’ll be my own laywer

Went back to that memory….
Here comes proximity
Definitely there is a close proximity
None will doubt it
After all, there is a foreseeable duty of care to me
A reasonable person can see that you owe the duty of care

You also failed to exercise the required standard of care
Subjected to unforeseen circumstances,
You failed to tell the latent changes that suddenly come out
With the premises made by you
Therefore, you committed a breach of Rancu’s law

Hence, I can sue you for the damages that I need to get
I may seek for the remedies that I’m longing to
The losses that I suffered are disappointment and time wasted
Although it apportioned due to contributory negligence,
it still suffices as a breach of negligence misrepresentation
And you liable for the losses I suffered

--Rancu--

Ps: whoaaaaa… I dunno why I can make this “Law” poem…
But,, it’s kinda weird & funny,, isn’t it ???
Hahahahahah…

this morNing..

Whoaaaaaa….
2 more days untiL Christmas…I get my short break now,, but when it comes to hoLiday,, I dun have anything to do.. I mean,, anything “speciaL” to do… I remembered few days ago,, I talked with my friends that we wouLd go there,, we wouLd do that,, we wouLd watch those movies.. we pLanned to do aLL those things afTer we finish our Law Assignment.. But now,, hahahahaha… we Finished it aLL & what happened ?? We don’t do anything!!!! Hahahahahah… so funny….

This morning,, I woke up a bit Late,, around 8 am.. FeLt a bit Lazy coz it’s holiday…. But I must wake !!! Hohohoho… first thing to do,, of course read the word of God as my strength to do aLL the activities today… then after that,, I wanted to go to Living room but nothing to do.. So,, I decided to read the book (which aLmost 2 weeks I forgot to continue read it,, hehehe..) Van,, FinaLLy,, I read it completeLy !!! yey,, yey…^^ Later,, I’LL return to u,, hohoho…

Then,, then,, when I went out to the Living room,, my houzmate & her parents (which arrived yesterday nite..) aLready wake up.. We chatted,, ate breakfast with instant noodle called “Mie CeLor” They said it special from Palembang,, hoho… & u know… they brought “PemPek”,, hohohoho I Like it…. Though it’s spicy,, but I stiLL Like it (I dun Like spicy red.) & suddenLy our fridge is fuLL of others food… hahahahaha…

Okie..okie..
Then now.. I’m aLone… I’m okay,, I guess…
I need a space to think..
Yupz,, yupz,, there are many things that I shouLd think about.. many things need to be considered…
Okie,, I’LL continue Later.. need to do sumthin…
Cya…^^

--RanCu--

contact Me...

SuddenLy,, I miss U my friend..
Dunno why…
This morning,, u just came out in my mind..
I dunno why,, but I believe God knows the reason..

So,,so…
How’s Life darLenggggg ???
It just a weeK ago since our Last conversation…
But,, this particular of time,, I need your help..
Things become worst and worst & I really confuse..
I remembered when u gave me advice regarding this problem..
Hahahahahahaha…. Did u realize that it helped me a lot ??

Now,, pLease help me once again..
Coz I think u’re the one who knows that problem..
I really need to taLk with u again…
Huhuhuhuhuhu…
Miss u…

My path..

When we’re together times are good
Which makes it hard to be apart
The more my joy when I’m with you
The more the anguish in my heart

My words a silent whisper
Flowing through the empty hall
Without an echo, they fade away
So was it worth, for me to stay

Life is a journey of time
Where a heart need another to give it a shine
And we’all part of a journey
With two paths to take
One that is right and the one that can break
The path to true love can often be
Long, winding and rocky

The journey can be easy at times
But difficult at others
It can be short for some
But long for others
It will never be the same for each other
Cause we’re all different
None of us will ever know this path is like
Until we have to travel it ourselves

--RanCu--

hohohohohoho.....

FinaLLy,, I can take a deep breath of freedom for a whiLe…
yeah,, at Least no more assignment untiL new year…
my Last assignment wiLL due tomorrow & I’m done it (yey !!!!) Thanks God I can finish it now…
but I stiLL dunno whether my work wiLL get a good mark or not,, hahahhaaha….
ActuaLLy,, I’m a bit worried for this subject (since I dun Like it,, hoeks..hoeks..) but I’ve tried my best to do it… The rest wiLL be HIS job…
Fyuh,, fyuh… this assignment (Law.. red.) drove me crazy !! I think not onLy me,, but my friends as weLL. For a couple of days,, we just Like ughhhhhhh…. Cannot imagine… hahahahahah… Worry,, confuse,, dunno how to start,, screw up !!!
But,, we dun have any choice.. we shouLd face it.. we must do it… I just want to say thanks for Venkat (My Lord,, hihihi..) He’s my Lecturer.. he’s so kind.. thx My Lord.. u’re so funnyyyyyyy My Lord,, hahahhahha… Thx for ManChuw,, Feby,, SweeTy,, Mazni & aLL of my friends who heLp me doing this bLoody assignment….
Okie.. oKie.. I think I shouLd stop taLk about that assignment !!!!

Move to another topic….
& here it comes: CHRISTMAS… hehehehehe…
UnfortunateLy,, I dun have enough hoLiday !!! I just have short break froM 22nd– 26th Dec & from 29th Dec – 2nd Jan… huhuhuhu…
Dunno why,, but I’m so excited waiting for Christmas to come in Sg... This is my 2nd Christmas here…
Yupz,, I remembered Last year I ceLebrated Christmas in Sg with my famiLy…
This year,, they won’t come here due to some activities in Jkt…
But,, I think it shouLd be okie,, since I stiLL have my LoveLy friends surrounded me…
Like yesterday,, I attended Christmas celebration among the member of our FamiLy Altar.... aih,, aih,, it was a greaT time… Thx to u aLL… I’m bLessed to have u aLL around me here… I do reaLLy appreciate it…

The Last thing…
actuaLLy,, dunno what to say anymore…
stiLL thinking,, keep thinking…
about me,, about U,, about him,, about her,, about them…
why ?? why ?? why ??

--RanCu--

HappY bDae paPikuw...

For a father, a teacher, a friend of mine..
Happy birthday dad..
On this special day,
let’s sing a song from our soul
Sing to us your sweet song
Sing for all the years you have been granted
Rejoice in all the pleasure

I want this day to be for you
For everything you are to me
And all the things you do
May your happiness fulfill your goodness
As is just and right
And so as poetry it flows to you
That I may words with all my love to you

--Rancu--

YearNing...

What did you see deep inside me
that I never knew was there?
I’ve no idea what feeling’s in your heart
I’ve no idea what I am thinking of
You ask me what I’m thinking
But I can’t tell you
You never uttered the words I longed to hear
I just want to make you smile as you make me

If I could break your mind
I’d leave a note that said you were like
A song that I must struggle not to sing
A poem that I must never read aloud
But those are not hiding the way I feel

Can’t decide what I should do
I don’t like always running hot and cold
I feel afraid of getting too involved
And probably causing greater pain
Cause I cannot know where this will take us

I’ve been waiting for a couple of weeks
And I know we shouldn’t rush
Let’s take this chance to know each other better

--RanCu--