Dec 31st... morning...

The Last day of this year….
WiLL it be the Last tears ???
Maybe it’s good that you are not here…
If not,, how can I face you ???
However,, thx God for this year…
2007… a year with upside down…

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Tak berinduk ;p

2 days ago,, had Lunch @ IKEA with my sis & bro…
Then,, as we waLked around,, I just couLd say “Whoaaa,, kerennnn yah..” “Wedeh,, bagus amattt….” “Wah,, yg inih boLe jg…”
Note that IKEA is in my top 10 fave pLaces in Singapore…
Then,, I started dreaming about my house wanna be,, hihihihihi….
If I can dream,, I dream about a not-too-big house with a sea view just Like in FuLL House and the interior wiLL be cLassic minimaLis…
Hihihihi…

Btw abies ngomong2 soaL rumah,, next week,, I wiLL move out from TangLin View…
New year,, new room… Hihihihihi…
Sedih jg ninggaLin si TangLin View inih,, udah 1 taon 2 bLn Rani mengendap disitu…
Dr muLe si Kebo pindahan,, Rani n C dtg berkunjung,, trus Rani dipaksa nginep 2 mgg buat nemenin si Kebo pas si R tinggaL situ,, ampe akhirna berduaan ama RM nempatin kamar inih.. bLom Lg akhirna sendirian di kmr inih stLh RM ke LiverpooL,, LaLu muLe dtg Lah sis & bros yg siLih berganti bermaLam dsinihh jg… Dr rame ampe pernah kesepian jg…

Nah,, nyambung dr kesepian,, smingguan inih ampe new year,, kita sperti anak ayam yg keiLangan induknaaa…
Bayangkannnnnn….
Dari sgitu bnyk tmen2 yg sangat dkettt,, Lumayan dkettt,, dketLah,, so so ampe yg ga gtu dkettt,, hampir smuana ga avaiLabLe skrg2 inih…
Ce Bombie,, Ce Lydia,, Ce Dian-Ko Alfon,, berhoLiday trip ke Macau & Hongkong yg diLanjutkan bermission trip ria di China…
Ko David & Ceph,, bertamasya ke KL bersama keLuargaaaa…
Cuy2 & Wawan ber-cruise ria…
Bahkan Ce Fenny yg tetep disinih pun didatangi mamah & dedena…
Si Bimby & Icha hebring dadakan pLg ke Jkt pula Lg…
Mreka2 inih yg tercantum diatas yg biasana berhang out ama Rancu smuana sdg ndak avaiLabLe…
Dan kinih… tersebutLah 3 wanita pemberani nan perkasa…
Yg msh tetap setia satu sama Laenna…
Jennita,, Elisa,, Rani…
Tiap hari meLangLang Singapore menghabiskan wkt bersama akibat ditinggaL oLeh pembesar2 & induk kamiii…
Huhuhuhuhu….

Inh br pLg ntn WarLords beserta 3 ksatria kesepian inih,, hihihihi…
For me,, I didn’t Like that movie…
Emang dr awaL jg bkn type fiLmna Rani segh,, tp kirain msh bgs Lah,, since yg maen cukup2 okeh…Ternyataaaaa,, biasa ajeeee.. MaLah ga gtu bgs segh kLo boLe dibiLang…
Bnerna ada satu sentence segh yg Rani suka…
“Take the money,, take the food,, take the women…”
GokiLLLLLLLLL,, mreka kira ce tuh apaan ??? Barang rampasan ????
Cuh,, cuh… Kesanna ngeremehin ce bgtttttt…
Udah keLuar kaLimat jeLek gtu pun,, si 2 brothers ntu msh dibunuh pas ketauan mreka nge-rapped ce…
Lahhh,,, udah ad kata2 take the women,, tp pas ktauan rapped,, dibunuh jg,, mauna apaaaa segh ???
Yah,, waLopun pd zaman ntu wanita emang diperLakukan kyk gtu,, tp tetep ajeeee…
Cuh…cuh..cuh…

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I'm running after you....
That's my aLarm tone...
132501292020125029184 ;p

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KuKup TriP

Thx Lord that He stiLL bLess us tiLL we couLd enjoy our trip…
Thx Lord for Your protection aLong our way….
Hihihihihihi….
Thx for the whoLe team,, ten of us… Uhuyyyyyyyy…
Ko David,, Andreas,, Ko Darvin,, Ce Lie Mei,, Ce Fenny,, Hendra,, Wawan,, Ce eLisa,, Jennita…
Yah,, mo dibLg below expectation kek,, or ndak seindah yg kt bayangin kek,, mo dibLg kerjaan cuma kyk babi doank kek,, or kepanasan & kebauan di kampong situ,, tp in the end of the day,, kita smua menikmati trip inih kokkkkkkk….
Seruuuuuuuu bersama kaLiannnnnnnnn….
Thx for aLL of y’aLL..
Muach…muach…

Hiyaaaaaaaaaaa…
As we ended this trip,, I ended my hoLiday week as weLL…
The foLLowing week,, seems quite hardest and busiest week for the whoLe Dec 07…
HopefuLLy everything can go smoothLy and wiLL be aLright…
Yay…yay…
And it’s 24 hours away from Christmas Day,, yeeeeeeeeeeeee….

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My heart,, Your home

Search me... Through and through...

TiLL my heart becomes a home for You...

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Their instinct

Up tiLL now, at Least 2 Ladies say the simiLar statement about you….
80% simiLarities… and the same one word: Lucky…
According to my interpretation,, that word is quite true enough…
Wonder if one day, the chance is there and you aLLow me to waLk together….

I know this isn’t right is it ??
But I get jeaLous of his Lover
How they can be there with him…
Do stuff with him that I couLdn’t do with him…

It’s wrong to be jeaLous…
I’m not the kind of person to get jeaLous but I am…
ShouLd I be jeaLous of her for what they can do ??

Secrets… LittLe secret…
Being whispered aLL around
Rumors… LittLe rumors…
Thought you didn’t hear a sound

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Your Daughter's Bird ;p

My mom pointed at a book titled “Bird”
Hihihihihi ;p
And she aLso asked about your news my LiL bird…
Soooo,, how are you my LiL bird ???
;p

Morning Thought

God is greatttt…
ReaLLy reaLLy reaLLy great to my famiLy, especiaLLy to my mom…
Thx God for giving a precious present for me for this Christmas…
I’m so proud and amaze of my mom,, she has a woman’s heart that I’m Longing to have…
Wonder if I can have that kind of heart someday………….

Hmmmm….
Ever think to change the worLd… to make this worLd a LoveLy pLace to Live…
Dimana smua org tuh punya hati yg sLg mengasihi…
Ga ad Lg dah tuh yg namana iri2an,, tuduh2an,, gontok2an,, makan temen,, tipu sana sini,, mo menang sendiri,, mo show off terus,, menyombongkan diri,, mo ambiL keuntungan sendiri or smua sifat yg sejenisna inih degh…
It may sound toooooooo naïve,, but seriousLy….
I know I’m just an ordinary girL… and I don’t have any power to do that…

If you reaLLy Love your God,, if you bner2 mo hidup seperti and buat Tuhan,, then…..
Knapa kita smua ga bs punya kasih ntu ???
Knapa kita smua ga bs menghiLangkan sifat2 ntu ??
Gimana kita bs mengasihi Tuhan kL kita ndak bs mengasihi org Laen ???
Bknna ad ayat yg bLg apa yg kita ingin perbuat ke Tuhan,, perbuatLah ke sesamamu…
Kita brani bLg kita mengasihi Tuhan,, tp apa yg terjadi ama keLakuanmu ??
KL kita msh suka ngeLakuin smua sifat di atas,, dimana perbedaan kita ama org2 dunia ???
Rani sadar sesadar-sadarna kLo Rani bkn siapa2 & Rani jg msh jauhhhhhhhh dr yg namana sempurna..
Nobody’s perfect riteeeeeee…
Tp,, kita kan harus sLaLu berusaha memperbaiki diri ke arah yg Lbh bae tentunaa…

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We Are The Reason

As LittLe chiLdrenwe wouLd dream of Christmas morn
Of aLL the gifts and toys we knew we’d find
But we never reaLized a baby born one bLessed night
Gave us thr greatest gift of our Lives

Chorus:
We were the reason that He gave His Life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a worLd that was Lost He gave aLL He couLd give
To show us the reason to Live

As the years went by we Learned about the gifts
The giving of ourseLves and what that means
On a dark and cLoudy day a hung man crying in the rain
All because of Love
All because of Love

Chorus

I finaLLy found the reason for Living
It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him
And aLL that I do every word that I say
I’LL be giving my aLL just for Him, for Him

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weLL... fine....

Time is going faster that I thought for the Last 2 days…
I guess you aLL know the reason riteeeee…..
Hihihihihihi…
17.12.07….
After two years….. after aLmost everyday do it…. FinaLLy……
You know….. I got fined !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rancu akhirna kena fine !!!!!
Not in City HaLL,, not in CoLeman Street,, not in New Bridge Road… and not in the pLace that I usuaLLy do jaywaLk…
It just a waLkpath in the pLace that I never crossed it…
When we didn’t have intentionaLLy to jaywaLk…
A man with poLice uniform just stopped us & asked for our IC…
It become worse when Ko David tried to toLd him his new address (coz his add is different from what is written in his IC),, the poLiceman even tried to find his other mistakes…
Hadowwww,, koooooo…kooooooo….
Dsrrrrrrr….
Rani mah rada sdikit bangga kLo kena fine na di jLn gede gtu,, di tmpt aku jaywaLk tiap hr kek,, pokokna di jLn yg Lebar deh…
Tp inih,, jLn pedestrians gtuuuu,, mn kepikir kL disitu ad traffic Light…
Lgan,, dpnna Rani jg ad yg nyebrang kok !!!!
Huhhhhhhhh,, sebeL… Fine na krg bermaknaaa negh..
Hihihihihii….

And accidentaLLy I found that it is intended for me…
Can I have it a LiL bit Longer ???
I don’t wanna Loose it…
I don’t wanna Leave it…
But somehow,,, I must make a move…
Live in this comfort zone for too Long makes me unconscious…
Now,, when everything is taken back…
I shouLd be abLe to keep smiLing…

He showed His grace for many timesss…
Then,, definiteLy He wiLL show me the way…
Where shouLd I waLk to ???
What shouLd I do ???
When shouLd I go ???
God wiLL make a way…
StiLL I’m praying for that matter…
Does it mean that I shouLd wait or ……………………
Do you aLLow me ???

Yay.. yay… ^^

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I don't wanna go...

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That's how you know

How does she know you Love her ?
How does she know she’s yours ?
How does she know that you Love her ?
How do you show her you Love her ?
How does she know that you reaLLy reaLLy truLy Love her ?
How does she know that you Love her ?
How do you show that you Love her ?
How does she know that you reaLLy reaLLy truLy Love her ?

It’s not enough to take the one you Love for granted
You must remind her or she’LL be inclined to say:
“How do I know he Loves me ?
How do I know he’s mine ?”

WeLL does he Leave a LittLe note to teLL you you are on his mind
Send you yeLLow fLowers when the sky is grey?
He’LL find a new way to show you a LittLe bit everyday
That’s how you know
That’s how you know he’s your Love

You got to show her you need her
Don’t treat her Like a mind reader
Each day do something to need her to beLieve you Love her

Everybody wants to Live happiLy ever after
Everybody wants to know their true Love is true
How do you know he Loves you ?
How do you know he’s yours ?

WeLL does he take you out dancing just so he can hoLd you cLose ?
Dedicate a song with words meant just for you ?
He’LL find his own way to teLL you with the LittLe things he’LL do
That’s how you know
That’s how you know he’s your Love

Because he’LL wear your favourite coLor just so he can match you eyes
Plan a private picnic by the fire’s gLow
His heart wiLL be yous forever
Something everyday wiLL show
That’s how you know
That’s how you know he’s your Love

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The Grace of YieLding

My dear God,, can I ask something….
You may aLways hear aLL my prayer Lists every nite…
But tonite,, may I ask for Your spirit ??

YieLding…
I want to have it… Yessss,, I’m Longing for it…
Roh Kristus adaLah roh yg reLa mengaLah..
I beLieve Yesus tuh teLadan utama kt dLm haL mengaLah..

Just Like mentioned in Romans 8:9 “You,,, however,, are controLLed not by sinfuL nature but by the spirit, if the Spirit of God Live in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ.”
ALLow me to have Your spirit…
Suatu roh yg Lemah Lembut,, rendah hati and ramah…
Roh yg ndak angkuh and mo menang sendiri or mencari kesenanganna sendiri…
Roh yg ndak terus2an menuntut,, apaLagi dgn motivasi yg krg bner…
Kt udah punya hak bersamaNa,, jd untuk apa menuntut terus ???
ApaLagi merebut yg bkn bgn kt…

Remember about SoLomon and 2 prostitutes…
Si ibuk asLi yg anakna msh idup reLa ngaLah & reLa give her baby to the other woman drpd tuh anak matiii..
Dy reLa ngaLah buat sesuatu yg hrsna adLh hakna…
But in the end,, SoLomon who bLessed with wisdom of God gave the baby to his reaL mom..

Nah,, kLo ntu terjadi ama kt gmn ???
kLo kt kerja tgs.. Kt yg ngerjain susah payah,, tp justru cuma tmen kt yg dpt nama baena,, ap yg kt pikirkan ??
BkL sakit hati gara2 nama kt ndak disebut or tetep seneng as Long as tgs ntu bs done weLL ??
Atooo,, kyk drama korea dmn ada 1 co yg udah capek2 ngerintis company…
LaLu tiba2 dy di back stabbed ama tmenna ndiri…
Trus,, apa kt mo dendam spanjang masa ama tuh org or mo coba usah Laen & bangkit Lg ??
Ada jg contoh Laen dmn ad 2 co yg Lg ngejer 1 ce…
Ada 1 moment dmn co A udah nyiapin surprise buat si ce,, tp berhub ada miscomm and misinterpret,, si ce maLah nyangka tuh surpise dr si co B…
Hayooo,, ap yg bkL diperbuat ??
Instead of mencak2 & brusaha ngeyakin tuh ce kLo tuh surprise dr dy,, co A maLah tetep bs tnang n justru diem2 aje..
But in the end,, kLo emang si ce udah emang buat si co A,, akhirna,, dy dpt jg kannn….

In other cases,, I reaLLy need the power of yieLding…
HeLp me dear Lord buat punya hati yg bs mengaLah..
Hihihihihi…

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How happy I am if. . . . . . .
But,, I reaLized there wiLL too much things need to be considered…
FirstLy,, I think it won't happen...
Again,, nothing is impossibLe,, it happened.. not with me though..
If I reaLLy ask God for it,, what can make a thing impossibLe ??
Good God,, wiLL You give what I want ??
If I say I reaLLy want that one,, wiLL You give it for me ??
Then I think,, how does it feeL if it come to me ??
Hahahahaha….
Is it an answered prayer ??
Is it a dream come true ??
Is it God’s wiLL ??
Before it’s too far,, may I know how do you feeL ??

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A cLassic probLem encountered most coupLes is when the guy expect the woman to say what they want whiLe on the other hand the woman expect the guy wiLL know what they want…

Kykna ntu udah hukum aLam degh…
Si ce most LikeLy sLaLu bLg “apa aje degh” whiLe actuaLLy dy mengharapkan si co bs nge-guess apa yg dy mau specificaLLy…
Ntar giLiran si co ga ngasih apa yg ce harapin,, ce na rada ngambek2 dikitttt…
Trus ce biasana pake jurus kaLimat maut “Hrsna kan kmu ngertiin aku dunk…”,, bkn bgitu bkn ???
LaLu si co pun menimpaLi dgn ngomong “Yah abiess,, kmu ndak pernah bLg ap2.. Katanya terserah… Mkna,, ngomong dunk mauna apa…”,, bkn bgitu bkn ???

Mgkn pihak si ce na menganggap kLo kaLian ntu udah so cLose to each other,, by right co tuh hrsna tau gmn personaLityna si ce… BkL tau tuh ce suka apa,, mau na apa…
Mgkn aje kLo kaLian ngomong2 gtu,, dy udah ksh hint2 yg nyerempet ksonooo gtuu.. Ce segh bisana gtu,, suka ksh hint & hope that u can grasp it mannnn…
Bnerna segh ce pengen tau seberapa perhatianna co ama hint2 ce…

Sedangkan,, kLo ngeLiat dr sisi co na..
SkaLi Lg ditekankan,, wahai wanitaa,, co mah bkn tukang nge-guess… (Bkn jg tukang juaLan Guess ;p)
Yah,, mreka tentu sajah mo ksh yg terbaik buat si ce na,, tp kLo co na hrs menerka2 terus,, gmn jdnaaa ??
KaLian kira reLationship ntu maen guessing-an ap ??
KaLo nge-guess dikit2 in certain occasions,, boLe Lah…
Tp kLo tiap kLi si co hrs mengira2 reaksi ap yg diharapkan si ce dr si co,, ato piLihan yg bkL si ce piLih,, ato apaLah gtu,, kaciann jg Lah co na…

Namun,, dr smuana ntuuu…
Yg perLu diinget jg adLh,, biasana seh ce tuh bkL tetep seneng kok terima smua perLakuan dr org2 yg mreka sayangi,, aLthough ntu ga se-exact as what they want Lah…
And buat ce,, inget jg kLo co tuh udah sebisa mgkn buat kaLian seneng… kaLo kaLian mo ap2 yg specific,, ndak ad sLhna kan diomongin…
One more,, communication is reaLLy important….

Tp kLo kaLian udah meant to be together,, smuana bs diatasin kok yah…
HopefuLLy I can understand how you feeL when you said it…
Maaph,, Rani segh bLom expert dLm msLh ginian bunggg…
Btw,, bginih… Sorry yah td keputus… Msnku error Lg,, huhuhuhu…
Mkna,, Lgsg tuLis di bLog ajee,, biar bs panjang Lebar,, hahahaha…
Lgan,, sapa tau ad comment2 dr tmen2ku yg Laen,, yg bs bantu kmu nak,, hihihihihi…
To readers,, open to discussions Lhoo,, hehehehehe….

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10.12.07

Hari Burung papiiii...

HeavenLy Father,, I want to thank you and start my day
Lifting up in prayer,, my father on his birthday
Counting not onLy the years added to his Life
But the Life added to his years with this famiLy

In everything he does,, go before him,, I pray
In every need and pLeas,, answer him,, have Your way
Whenever his Life turn into confusion
Let the paLm of Your hands Lead his way into Your direction

BLess my dad on his birthday
In aLL areas,, good heaLth and a pure heart
A Lasting peace and joy
Not onLy today but each and everyday

Grant my dad the gift of wisdom,, understanding and faith
As he meditate on the truth of Your word
To continue to seek You with an open heart
The passion and unconditionaL Love that wiLL not keep You apart

Take good care of his heart, Lord
It was this heart You’ve moLded bigger than mine
It was this heart that has touched and gentLy moved us to tears
It was this heart that sees compassion and pLeasing to Your eyes

This I pray and thank you for in faith in Jesus name..
Amennnnnn…

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OnLy Reminds Me of You..

Toniteeeee…
Yupz,, no other niteee… just toniteee…
pLease aLLow me to memorize that time…
I don’t say I’ve erased it aLL,, in fact I won’t…
Cause none of the them are ought to be rubbed out…
It doesn’t mean anything… Just reminds me of you…

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“Don’t be stupid,, you know I Love you…”

It might be a sentence that wanted to be said….
Hihihihihi…
But heyyyy,, I’m just a human…
And you know that we can’t assume…
Okie… so now,, I dun want to assume.. again..
We’LL see Later what wiLL happen..
Hihihihihi….

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Made to Worship

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Good God…

Learning and Learning…
Thx for the Lessons that I’ve received…
Papi had aLready taLked about exactLy the same things that mentioned in FA Last night…
I was Like… oh,, my God is reaLLy awesome..
He speak through my father and my FA leader about the same things,, even the same points..
I knew tat God reaLLy want to teach me more and more in this specific part…
Thx for the reminder God…

“Always remember to give thx to God,, regardLess the situations and conditions for He aLready gives us our daiLy bread…”
“Keep humbLe…We are nothing but He is everything…”
“Have faith.. He can do something that we can’t imagine..”

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Harvest moon

There is a storm in my heart
It tears my inside part
I am bLeeding and I am hurt
Like a wingLess LittLe bird

Then it turns dark
And for a moment I see
The pain that was inside of me
And in a journey I embark
In search of answer
In search of truth
In search of understanding
In search of you

Just by the thought of you
I find myseLf aLL sad again
I’ve Lost you, but aLso gained
I know I must be gratefuL
But my souL is sad for you

The season is over and
I know I must be happy
But the Loss is too big
And the pain too intense
I need to teLL you my new story
See your eyes
Experience your smiLe

I just so much wish
You couLd see the harvest of my Life
From the seeds you have sown
EspeciaLLy now, when it’s fuLL in harvest
But then again, aLthough I’m sad
I know I’m gLad…

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Messed up…

Sorry Lord…
FeeL guiLtyyyyyyy…
Arrgghhhhhhhh….

Matahari tengah bertahta di singgasana…
Dengan diiringi jentikan jari,, semua pun berubah…
Hingga mataharipun tak Lagi terLihat…
Janji tuk menutup hari hanyaLah janji...
LaLu api-api itupun kini terpadamkan oLeh air..

Thx bro udah jd tempat sampah
Maaph Lg degh…^^

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My grown up Christmas List…

Your presence is one of my Christmas wishes….
So,, pLease be nice by not disappoint me ;p
I hope you can understand,, hihihihihi…
Don’t waste your time ^^

My Grown Up Christmas List -- MichaeL bubLe
Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With chiLdhood fantasies

WeLL, I’m aLL grown up now
And stiLL need heLp somehow
I’m not a chiLd
But my heart stiLL can dream

So here’s my LifeLong wish
My grown up christmas List
Not for myseLf
But for a worLd in need

Chorus:
No more Lives torn apart
That wars wouLd never start
And time wouLd heaL aLL hearts
And everyone wouLd have a friend
And right wouLd aLways win
And Love wouLd never end
This is my grown up Christmas List

What is this iLLusion caLLed the innocence of youth
Maybe onLy in our bLind beLief can we ever find the truth

Chorus

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Another prove... and it happened...

First of aLL…
Congrats… congrats…
Last time you came to me with deniaL about this mannnn…
And Look at you now…
You are so into him now……
Arghhhhhh….
Can’t beLieve it….

Satu Lg pasangan yg membuktikan adanya cinta yg dtg karena terbiasaaaa…
Hmm…
Nampakna mreka bs dikategorikan type yg kedua…
Type dmn smua berawaL dr kata2 “friendship”….
I onLy know in the Last 6 months they are very cLose to each otherrrrrr….
And both of them are quite angry if we tease them…
Gerak gerik & smuana segh msh bs dibLg ndak terLaLu obvious,, tp wajar Lah buat si “brother-sisterhood” inih critana….
TiLL suddenLy few days back…
Ktika si wanita inih merayakan hr burungnaaa,, si cowok inih mengungkapkannnn perasaan di hatiiii…
Yups… he didn't choose other day but her birddeiiiii….
Aih…aih…
Kt yg denger jd terharu,, shocked,, tp mo ketawa jg…
Hihihihihihi….
Akhirnaaaaaa…
Smua pun bernapas Lega pas si wanita inih hanya menciptakan seuLas senyum manisna….
Satu kata yg terdengar… yessss…
And the next thing was…. Keceriaan yg terpancar dr smua pihak…

PdhL yah…
kaLo inget bbrp bLn yg LaLuuuuuu…
Wadoooo,, mreka inih termsk makhLuk2 yg mendukung kaLimat kontroversina si Raniii…
Fyi,, Rani tuh percaya kaLo "kite ndak mgkn Lah jdan ama makhLuk2 terdekat kite…"
Abiess,,, since kt udah tau smua seLuk beLukna dy…
Udah tau pLus minusna tuh org…
Sooo,, it’s kinda impossibLe for us (me) to faLL into that person…
If I say this sentence,, mgkn hanya 2 dari 20 org yg agree with me…
And this sentence tuh mengundang org to say “Ati2 Lhoooo Ncuu… KuaLat ndiri br tau Lhooo..”
I guessed it won’t happen to me…
But,, as I Looked deeper… it did…
….Once….

Hmmm,,, di kaLa Rani sibuk men-deny smua org tiap kaLi ditanya…
Tanpa sadar,, pintu pertahanan inih teLah diboboL…
Ada maLing masuk,, membawa hatiku pergi pdnaaaa…
But,, Thx God that I have this feeLing…
Hihihihihih….
Ntu kan brarti Rani msh wanita normaL !!!!

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Rain outside

Rains are important to me
Rains inspire me to write
Rains inspire me to sing
Rains inspire me to dance

Rains are important to me
Rains give me new way to Live Life
Rains force me for depth thought
Rains give me untouched feeL of Love

Rains are important to me
Rains give new rhythms to my soul
Rains fresh me from my tiredness
Rains make me mad in joy….

Le gra’

Admire..

Nah…
Hiihihi…
Mariii kita muLeeeeee…
Liatttttttttt,, for the sake of…. Promise ?? Dare ??
Inih,, sesuai requestanmu nak,, aku post di bLogku..

Sipppp….
Sd. St. CaroLine:
Back to that time,, I remembered that I was sooo excited to go to schooL..
WhiLe most of my friend couLdn’t Let their mom’s hand away,, I just quickLy ran into the schooL gate and entered the cLass…
Saw the others and enjoyed watching them... Betapa poLos & Luguna di hari pertama ntu…
Rani inget bgttt,, hr pertama skuL tuh Rani cuma duduk diem di saLah satu bangku kedua dr depan,, baris ketiga dr kiri… bLom brani ngapa2in… KenaLan ama tmenpun pas jam istirahat,, maLu2 kucing Lg…
Rani msh inget,, waLi keLasku namana Bu LiLiana Fung…. Hihihihi…

Then,, sLama di CaroLine yah.. Guru yg Rani admired yah..
Bu Kristiani,, waLi keLasku keLas 3c…
Wadooo,, dy segh guru tersabar pertama yg pernah ngajar Rani…
Guru pertama Rani jg yg tuLisanna pLg bgs !!! and dy punya signature yg sgt unique & ribettt bgt dah…
I think that she knew I admire her…
Since tuLisan tegak bersambung Rani,, rani buat semirippppppp tuLisanna…
DodoL jg yah kLo inget wkt ntu…
Tiap hr bLjr cara nuLis supaya mirip tuLisanna ama Bu Kristiani,, which is berhasiL jg akhrina..
Udah gtu,, ad side effectna Lg… TuLisan Rani jd rapiiiiiii,, bgs & kerennnn bgtttt…
Oh nooo,, jd narsis sendiri…
Aniwei,, tp emang tuLisan dy tuh keren abies,,one point why I admired her…

SLTP St. Maria:
I aLso couLd picture myseLf in the first day in that schooL…
Ketika ntu,, Jakarta Lg heboh2na demam banjirrrr…
Dimana mana banjirrrrrrrr….
Si papi nyetir ndak bs kemana2…
KompLek rumahku udah kyk puLau sendiri,, di sekitarna ndak bs kLuar…
Tp napsukuuuuu msk skuL gedeeee bgttttt…
ALhasiL,, ketika smua siswa masuk jam 7 pg dah ad orientasi di auLa,, Rani br berhasiL nyampe jam 8.25 di Juandaaa…
Lari2 sekuat tenanga dr Lap parkir ampe auLa…
And dgn banggana,, ngebuka pintu auLa… Jebrekkkkkkkkk….
Pintu kebuka,, and smua mata memandang ke beLakangggg !!!!!
Duenk…duenk…
MaLuuuuuuu bgtttt !!!!
Bayangin ajeee,, brp ratus anak br Lg pd kumpuL di auLa,, Lg dengerin orientasi pLus guru2 petinggi yg bersanding di barisan terdepan,, smua Lengkap serentak nengok ke Rani !!!!!
Satu2na murid yg teLatna paLing parah & nyeLonong msk auLa !!!!!
Oupppssssssss….

Nah,, kLo guru yg di admire mah obvious bgtttt….
Hampir smua angkatanku tauuu bgt kLo Rani demen ama Bu Rosa…
Huh,, huh,, huh… StiLL wondering knp yah kLo Rani demen org tuh kLiatan bgtttt ???
That time was reaLLy reaLLy reaLLy crazyyyy !!!!
Admire na tuh parah abiesssss,, ngeLebihin ungkapan cinta ke co sendiri…
Huahuahuaha….
Nek,, kmu inget kan smua puisi2 that we gave her… Smua tingkah2 dodoL yg pernah kita Lakuinnn…
Tiap pagi doa di kapeL,, just to wait tiLL she come…
& hebatnaaaa,, waLopun dy tau kLo kt rada distract dy gtu,, dy teteppppppp ajeeee baeee yah nek…
Pake acara manggiL anakku sayang sgaLa Lg,, hihihihi… Jd tersipu2 Raniiii…
GiLaaaaaaa,, kita ampe pernah ke Otista sgaLaaa…
Kmu ngerasa ngeriii ndiri ndak seh Nek kLo inget our daiLy activities yg reLated to her….
Yg pLg Lucuuuu,, wkt di hoteL di Yogya !!!! Yg ada cLana pendek,, wc,, hayoooo msh inget ndak ???
Adooowww,, jd inget aib sendiriiiii…

SMU St. UrsuLa:
First day segh ndak terLaLu berkesan bgtttt,, since bnyk anak2 Sanmar yg ke Sanur…
Wkt ntu,, di 1-5.. keLas pLg ujung terpenciL !!!!
Udah gtu,, ketara bgtttt dudukna ngeLompok gtu..
Kita2 yg dr Sanmar,, trus anak2 asLi Sanurna sendiri,, and terakhir kaum minoritas dr skuL2 Laen…
Hihihihi…
LaLu berkumpuL di auLa,, I was not Late that time !!!!
Hihihihi…
Yah,, ndak terLaLu fantastis Lah…

Beranjak soaL admire2an mah,, waduuuu udah tersohor brita kekagumanku pd si Cece aLias Gracia Augusta,, bner kan bow ???
BerawaL dr ntu Lhooo,, bLjar kLompok brg…
Di suatu Senin siang yg panas,, tersebutLah 1 group dr 1-3 and 1-5… Kite yg di 1-5 segh Lg bLjar Kimia (ampe inget bhs subject ap gtu.. ;p),, whereas mreka anak 1-3 Lg bLjr bhs or ap gtu…
Trus,, dimana 2 ato 3 org berkumpuL dipaksa ikut program group discussion yg kaLa ntu ndak ad uLangan dkk,, pastiLah nama keisengan dipermuLiakannn…
Permainan Truth or Dare pun terLaksana dgn muLusnaaa ktika tibaLah giLiran rani yg kena..
Ndak sperti biasana I choose dare,, siang ntu Rani Lbh tertarik ama si dare…
SeLanjutna,, kmu pst udah tauu Lah… ;p
Smua skandaL yg ada,, smua kebetuLan2 yg muncuL,, smua adegan2 yg tercipta…
Hiyaaaaa….

Hmmm,, kaLo dipikir2 nyeremin jg yah…
Admire org bs ampe separah ntuuu…
Hiiiiiii,, serem ndiriii…
Kecian jg segh mreka2 yg jd korban,, hihihihi…

Heeeeeeeeeeee,,, udah.. udah… Cukuppp puasss kan dirimuw nak ??
Haizz,, udah disebutkan tuh diatas !!!!!
Emang rani sLaLu terjebak dgn kata2 dare,, hihihihi…
Untung yg baca bLog Rani cuma kaLangan tertentu ajee,, coba kLo yg tersebut diatas bc nih bLog…
Bisa merah2 muka Raniiii,, huahahahahaha….

Le gra’

Comfieeeeee

By definition,, a comfort zone is a type of mentaL conditioning that causes a person to create and operate mentaL boundaries that are not reaL…
And that such boundaries create an unfounded of security…
Thx to Wikipedia for that definition…
And yupzz,, I agree with that expLanation…

WeLL,, smua org emang pasti mencari suasana nyaman…
Tapi kondisi yg terLaLu nyaman ternyata tidak menyehatkan…
Sometimes,, the word comfort itseLf,, stiLL confuse me…
Antara kehiLangan ambisi,, atau karena gampang merasa cukup,, atau pureLy karena maLas ???
Sama seperti singa yg ndak pernah ngerasa Lapar,, mungkin ndak segh insting untuk berburuna tetap terasah ??? KaLo otona ndak pernah bergerak,, apakah dy tetap Lincah ???

Comfort zone udah pst adaLah area yg seLaLu dicari…
And si comfort zone ntu emang pantas buat dicari…
Tapi,, sampai mana segh parameter si comfie ntu ???

Is it possibLe outside our comfie,, justru terbentang zone2 yg jauhhhhhh Lbh nyaman Lg ??
Or,, si comfie ntu adaLah suatu awaL dr sebuah “discomfort zone” ???

Mungkin disituLah Letak bahaya dr si comfort zone inih…
Dy berhasiL membuat kita terLenaaa… terbuaiiiii daLam kenyamanan yg statis…
KehiLangan semangat juang,, semangat untuk meraih hidup yg Lbh dr sekedar “comfort” dan finaLLy we can find ourseLf Lg jongkok di tempat… terLaLu capek buat Lari…

*I Longed so much to do the things I’d never done before, but see myseLf in the mirror..
I can see a girL who stayed inside her comfort zone and paced the same oLd floor..*

Le gra’

es es ce..

Saat kau MENYUKAI seseorang, kau ingin memiLikina untuk keegoisanmu sendiri..
Saat kau MENYAYANGI seseorang, kau ingin sekaLi membuatna bahagia dan bukan untuk dirimu sendiri..
Saat kau MENCINTAI seseorang, kau akan meLakukan apapun untuk kebahagianna waLaupun kau harus mengorbankan kebahagianmu bahkan jiwamu..

Saat kau MENYUKAI seseorang dan berada di sisinya,
maka kau akan bertanya, “BoLehkah aku menciummu ?”
Saat kau MENYAYANGI seseorang dan berada di sisinya,
maka kau akan bertanya, “BoLehkah aku memeLukmu ?”
Saat kau MENCINTAI seseorang dan berada di sisinya,
maka kau akan menggenggam erat tanganna waLau tanpa kata kata...

SUKA adaLah saat ia menangis, kau akan berkata, “SudahLah, jangan menangis..”
SAYANG adaLah saat ia menangis, kau akan menangis bersamana dan memeLukna..
CINTA adaLah saat ia menangis, kau akan membiarkanna menangis dipundakmu sambiL berkata, “Mari kita seLesaikan masaLah ini bersama sama..”

SUKA adaLah saat kau meLihatna, kau akan berkata, “Ia sangat cantik dan menawan.”
SAYANG adaLah saat kau meLihatna, kau akan meLihatna dari hatimu dan bukan matamu
CINTA adaLah saat kau meLihatna kau akan berkata, “Buatku dia adaLah anugerah terindah yang pernah Tuhan berikan padaku.”

Pada saat orang yang kau SUKA menyakitimu, maka kau akan marah dan tak mau Lagi bicara padana.
Pada saat orang yang kau SAYANG menyakitimu, maka kau akan menangis untukna.
Pada saat orang yang kau CINTA menyakitimu, maka kau akan berkata, “Tak apa apa, dia hanya tak tahu apa yang dia Lakukan.” dan memberina kesempatan baru...

Pada saat kau SUKA padana, kau akan memaksana untuk menyukaimu.
Pada saat kau SAYANG padana, kau akan membiarkanna memiLih yang terbaik untukna
Pada saat kau CINTA padana, kau akan seLaLu menantina dengan setia dan tuLus, bahkan meLepasna ketika dia memiLih yang dia rasa terbaik untukna

SUKA adaLah kau akan menemanina biLa itu menguntungkan..
SAYANG adaLah kau akan menemanina di saat dia membutuhkan..
CINTA adaLah kau akan menemanina di saat bagaimanapun keadaanna, waLau keadaan tak memungkinkan buatmu.. bahkan dari sekitarmu !!

SUKA adaLah haL yang menuntut..
SAYANG adaLah haL memberi dan menerima..
CINTA adaLah haL yang memberi dengan reLa, berani bertahan daLam penderitaan..

Saat kau MENYUKAI, engkau dengan mudah bisa meLupakanna..
Saat kau MENYAYANGI, engkau akan suLit meLupakan dirina seLamana, dan ingin dia seLaLu berada di sampingmu..
Saat kau MENCINTAI, engkau akan tetap menjadi sahabatna waLau dia bersama orang Lain, meski engkau terLuka ketika engkau berada di dekatna dan kau akan berharap dia berbahagia bersama yang Lain..

Le gra’

WaLkin her home

A sweet and nice Lyric…
Another touching song,, hihihihi
Hiyaaa,, make me want to Love someone Like this and want to be Loved as weLL..

Mark SchuLtz – He’s WaLking Her Home
Looking back, he sees it aLL
It was her first date the night he came to caLL
And her dad said “Son, have her home on time,
and promise me you’LL never Leave her side.”
He took her to a show in town,
And he was ten feet off the ground

He was waLking her home, hoLding her hand
Oh the way she smiLed, it stoLe the breath right out of him
Down that oLd road, with the stars up above
He remembers where he was the night he feLL in Love
He was waLking her home

Ten more years, in a waiting room
And haLf past one, was when the doctor said
“Come in and meet your son.”
And his knees went weak, when he saw his wife
She was smiLing as she said “He’s got your eyes”
And as she sLept he heLd her tight
His mind went back to that first night

Back to chorus

And wandered through the best days of her Life
Sixty year together and he never Left her side

A nursing home, at eighty five
And the doctor said it couLd be her Last night
And the nurse said “Oh, shouLd we teLL him now?
Or shouLd he wait untiL the morning to find out?”
But when they checked her room that night,
He was Laying by her side

He was waLking her home, hoLding her hand
Oh the way she smiLed when he said “This is not the end”
Just for a whiLe, they were eighteen
And she was stiLL more beautifuL to him than anything
He was waLking her home
He was waLking her home

Looking back, he sees it aLL
It was her first date the night he came to caLL



Le gra’

my buddies out there...

Aih…aih…
BeLakangan inih capekna Luarrrrrrrrr biasaaaaa….
Sedih jg… There are few things yg ga bs ke handLe deh akhirnaaa,, huuuuuuuuuuuu…
Too bad segh,, but I try harder to catch up everything for the foLLowing day Later…
Yeahhhhhhhh….
Gara2 capek parah,, ampe2 bs2na Rani ketiduran bentar pas denger sermon mgg kmaren,, adooo ngerasa dosa,, hihihi…
Trus,, di bus pun ketiduran Lg,, 2x in a day Lg..
Route singkat dr Thai Embassy ke Plasing bs ketiduran!!! Ntu yg pLg parah segh,, pdhL cuma few stops doank.. Udah gtu,, maLem pas pLg di 51 ketiduran Lg… for the first time,, Rani kebabLasannnnnn gara2 ketiduran… Hiks.. hiks…
Tp untungnaaaa,, smua ntu udah terbayarkan dgn tidur babi sLama 11 jam !!! Hihihihi…
Yups,, bgn udah seger Lg degh skrg…
Hihihihihi…

RecentLy,, aLL the topics that had been brought up are interreLated…
God aLways tooo good aLL the time…
Everything is sooo perfect at His time.. bring me back again,, and again..
And the Last dawn prayer,, it was awesome…

Dear my bestfriend ever after: Agnessss….
Ooowww,, it’s been more than 2 years girL…
Youuu know,, I reaLLy reaLLy reaLLy reaLLy miss you dear…
It seems everytime I go back to Indo,, I dun have time to visit you in Bdg or the other way around…
I never forget for the 12 years that we’ve been through together…
The funniest things,, the sadness time and the anger period…
Bittersweet…
I wish that we can meet soon babe…

Dear my cumi2 goreng tepung…
Ahhhh,, having you as a friend is one of His bLessing for me…
You are a good friend gortep… it’s trueee…
Though we may not aLways chat,, or sms,, but keep in mind that I do remember you…
All the memories in Sanur,, especiaLLy in Sosrow,, won’t be forgotten.. Hihihihi…
Termasuk smua kegiLaan kt,, kegokiLan kt…
Ampe terciptaLah RACUN,, Rancu & Cuni… and our victims,, mreka2 yg teLah teRACUNi oLeh kt,, hihihihi…

Dear my Marmut,, Dei,, Wepe,, Rabies…
Whoaaaaaaaaaaaaa….
I doooooo miss aLL of youuu !!!!
A Lotttttttttttttttttt….
Hihihihihi…
Hoping that y’aLL ok wherever you are…
UntiL this time,, no one can break your record mut,, ngemut makanan terLamaaa… Hihihihi…
Trus,, skrg yah Dei,, kLo kmu ndak brg aku,, sasaran buLLy-an seringkaLi terLimpah ke Rani…
Makana Dei,, kmu brg Rani ajee trus.. Jd kan kt bs berbagi penderitaan bersamaaaa,, hihihihi…
Wepeeeeee,,, msh jd wanita penggoda ndka dirimuw ???
Ada om2 yg nyangkut ndak gara2 godaanmuw ??? Hihihii…
Nah,, Rabiesssssssss….
I think you are proud of your nickname now..
Or,, apa ntu hanyaLah bukti kLo kmu mengagumi Rani,, jd suka memperkenaLkan dirimuw as Rabiesss heh ???? Hihihihihi…
Arghh,, senangna kaLo inget masa2 di 2a3….
Ada si miosin B and her bestfriend,, hihihi…
Ada jg si Bude,, yg tiap kaLi bikin smua ce2 menata seragam n rambutna properLy…
LaLu Lorong samping kLas buat markas pas istirahat…

Hmmm,, my mind just thinking of y’aLL just now…
I want to see youuuu… chit chat…. Go out with y’aLL…
Miss those time…. reaLLy,, I do miss you….

Le gra’

Short message for mi pequeño pájaro ^^

I can feeL it…
Now I know,, you haven’t forget her…
And you won’t forget her anyway… hihihihihi…
I can see it mannnnnnnn….
Yuhuuuwwwwww….
Teruskan perjuanganmu nak...
Tapiiiiii,, masa udah kyk ginih msh mo nerusin segh ???
Hihihihihi..
Aih,,aih... it's not my business rite... just Leave it up to you...
SaLute ajeeee…. Hihihihihi….

However,, I stiLL can’t understand you,, my mysterious friend…
Hihihihi…
It seems Like I haven’t known you weLL…
Okay,, maybe I onLy know the basic and common things about you…
WeLL,, of course… coz I don’t have any right to know deeper..
Hihihihihi…
But,, I do Like to have a conversation with you…
ReaLLy,, I mean it…
It’s Like a never ending story…
There’s aLways some things that you can bring up…
And more or Less,, reaLize or not,, you heLp me to get the better understanding about this Life…
That’s why I Like you… but not in the usuaL way… ;p
The Last poem was dedicated for you.. again.. hihihihi…

Hmm,, though a Lot that I want to say about you…
Let’s just keep it siLent…
Coz there are things that no need to be written or spoken…
Lemme enjoy this excitement ;p

This is onLy a short message for you my dear friend…
Hope this day wiL be fruitfuL,, be bLessed and enjoy your day…
Oups,, not onLy you,, for everyone aLso…
Coz aLL of you,, brighten my days
I Love y’aLL ^^
Muach…muach…

Le gra’

mis ceLos

I’m jeaLous of the sun
for warming up your face
I’m jeaLous of the stars
for brightening your dreams
I’m jeaLous of the wind
and of the air you breathe
I’m jeaLous of the ground
you waLk upon each day
I’m jeaLous of the piLLow
on which you kneeL and pray
I’m jeaLous of the book
you touch to read at night
I’m jeaLous of the mirror
refecting your sweet smiLe

I’m jeaLous of the woman
that had known you for years
whiLe I had just a bLink of eyes
of Love with you
I’m jeaLous of her race
for being aLso yours
I’m jeaLous of the Language
and its forbidden words
I’m jeaLous of the tears
because they meLt your heart
whiLe mine are onLy words
you sometimes read about…

I’m jeaLous of the distance
I’m jeaLous of the past
I’m jeaLous of the fate
that gave to the others the chance
to be cLose to you
A history of her
A memory of me

I’m jeaLous of the sun
I’m jeaLous of the stars
My jeaLousy consumes me
As fire meLts the ice…

Le gra’
14.11.07

the perfect one..

There’s one topic that aLways makes my teardrops faLLing on my cheek…
It’s as simpLe as famiLy…
Whoooaaaaa,, tiap kaLi & dimanapun jg,, yg udah ngomongin “FamiLy”,, “orangtua”,, dapat dipastikan kLo suara Rani akan segera bergetarrr… mata muLe berkabutt…
HaLah… haLah… MeLodramatic argh,, hihihihi…
But,, that’s the truth inside me…

They are the peopLe that reaLLy care about me… though we are separated by miLes…
The onLy peopLe that support me… no matter how hard my Life can be…
The onLy peopLe that never stop to teach me.. about moraLity,, principLes and experiences…
The onLy peopLe that aLways remind me to surrender aLL to GOD… through the bad and good times..

Everybody must proud of their parents,, no matter how trucuLent they are…
Coz the basic point is that they Loveeee you sooo much,, even if they seLdom show the words…
Thx God who gives me my imperfect parents...
I know that they are not perfect,, but my Lord makes them perfect to me...

And one of my sisters surprised me…
Knowing her as a cheerfuL girL,, so active and so happy from outside…
But inside,, she Lose her parents…
Her father died when she was 9 whiLe her mother died when she was 16…
Her story was veryy touching…
I’m thankfuL that she is stiLL His ways… stiLL waLk in His purposes…
Even though she cannot meet her parents anymore,, she can cope everything…
She must be a strong girL…
And I’m proud of her… gLad to know you girL…
You stiLL have us,, your famiLy here.. and nevertheLess,, the one and onLy one,, our father: Jesus Christ…
Yey….yey… ^^

Le gra’

The shining star

Stars never faiL to amaze me…
I might not see your star,, in the coupLe of these days…
And in fact it’s not my star…
But,, I want to have it…
The reaL star that’s hiding inside your heart ;p

Le gra’

Say it isn't soooo....

Saying something is an easy job,, but doing it with your heart is not easy at aLL…
I can easiLy say that I want to stop bLogging too often,, but in fact I can’t stand if I haven’t opened my bLog for onLy a day…
Or,, I can say that I want eat more veggies but most of the time I throw the veggies out from the dishes…
Or,, I can easiLy say that I’m ok whiLst inside I’m not ok at aLL…
Last time I found it very easy just to say a word when I didn’t mean it…
WeLL,, if onLy you aLL know which sentences that I mean it,, hihihihi ;p

As the time fLew,, I tried to eLiminate this bad habit out of my Life..
Yeah,, I knew it’s not good at aLL…
I think that’s the other form of Lying,, hihihihi…

But in certain cases,, I stiLL find it’s hard to say the truth…
Hmm,, in more specific,, it’s hard to teLL how you feeL truthfuLLy,, exactLy…
There are certain circumstances when you can ‘t say the truth…
ActuaLLy you aLways have options whether to say it or to hide it…
And I tend to hide it…
Is it the nature of being a girL???
Yeah,, through a conversation with my friend I reaLize that most of the girLs are tend to deny or hide their feeLings..
Why ???
StiLL not sure,, but probabLy it’s due to the uncertainty…
The girLs don’t want to have such a “ke-ge-er-an” feeLing,, hehehehe…
It makes them try to deny their feeLing untiL everything is obvious...
But,, it’s not 100% a vaLid reason…
There are some other reasons,, Like the situation that must be considerated,, that most of the times force us not to teLL the truth,, or withhoLd the truth…
The opposite party's feeLing have to be considerated... and sometimes it makes me reLuctant to say a word...
Maybe,, the words wiLL hurt their feeLing...

Is it good not to teLL the truth in order to make everything “seems” aLright ???
My heart say it isn't so...
but.........
How if the truth wiLL just make the situation more difficuLt ??
If one day when the truth has been reveaLed,, wiLL everything be changed ??
Is it the feeLing of afraid to Loose someone or something ???
And this time around,, why the intention to deny come across my mind again ??
Why do I have to deny it ???

These kind of stars ;p

Configuration of stars....

In the other forms of my stars...

Biar cinta datang karena terbiasaaaa…

Few days ago my friend asked me regarding of that sentence…
Hahahahahaha….
I forgot how many times I’ve been asked for the same question aLong this year…
WeLL… my answer is: depends on the type of that person…
ActuaLLy there’s no 100% right answer for this kind of questions…
Everything is unsure (remember ce Lyd,, kLo ditanya soaL bginian ;p)

Yeahhh…
Semua kan tergantung si org ntu type yg gmn…
MasaLah ginian mah bisa datang dr mn ajeee bung….
Ada org yg emang udah suka dr awaL,, or at Least tertarik dr awaLnaa…
KaLo bahasa kerenna segh Love at the first sight bgituh…
UntiL now,, I stiLL wondering how peopLe can determine that a person who stands in front of your eyes for the first time is the right person for her/him ???

In some cases,, bnyk jg yg justru awaLna biasa ajaa..
or in extreme examples maLah dua2na ga bs akur sama skaLi,, sebeL kek,, benci kek…
Tiap hari berantem muLukkkk… Tiap hari ejek2an muLukkkk…
Pokokna tiap ktemu ga ad deh terLewati tanpa saut2 satu sama Laen…
Tp,, yg Lucuna,, gara2 smakin knaL tuh org maLah smakin suka and chemistry ntu muLe tumbuh dah…
Yah mgkn inih yg namana cinta datang karena terbiasaaaa,,, biasa ngejek2in kLo di type yg inih…
Cases kyk ginih waLopun cLise bgt,, cuma Rani udah punya contoh idupnaaaa… Hihihihi…
Hmmm,,, jd inget A***N…. Neneq,, dirimuw pasti tau “itu”,, hihihihi….

Ada yg dr friendship…
Nah,, kLo di kategori inih,, mgkn cinta datang karena terbiasaaaaa…
Biasa bareng2…. Biasa menikmati saat2 bersamaa… Biasa spend time together… Biasa tau habit2na dy…
Starting with a common group,, trus makin hari makin deket…
Ampe cap friendship ntu udah meLekat diantara merekaaa…
Namun,, crossgender friendship inih tentu sajah sgt rentan akan masaLah bgituannn…
So,, ga gtu heran segh kLo end up di situ situ Lagi…
Even Rani pun udah ampe eneg ditanya2in soaL bginih since I was in Junior High SchooL…
Bnykna awaLna she berniat ber-friendship ama makhLuk2 ntu & di tgh jLn tiba2… hayoooo,, ada apa yg tumbuh di hatiiiii ??? hehehehe….
Tp,, yg sedihnaa,, ada bbrp org yg make kedok friendship inih buat memperLancar usahanaaa…
Basiiiiii ahhhhhhhh….. Carana ndak kreatif tuh !!!!!

Bbrp jg ad yg berawaL dr so caLLed kakak adekkkk…
It’s funny that I can spend hours in debating on this matter with my friends….
HonestLy,, we didn’t have to debate right,, coz basicaLLy everyone have their own opinion….
Buat Rani sendiri segh,, reLation kyk ginih jg ad yg bner2 pure kok !!!!!
Knp hampir smuaaa ga ad yg percaya yah ???
Bnerna inih segh mirip2 ama type yg diatas…
Di type yg inih,, cinta datang karena terbiasaaaaa…
Biasa berinteraksi dgnna… Biasa memberi & menerima perLakuan2 Lbh… Biasa tergantung satu sama Laen… Biasa tau sifat2na Luar daLem…
For these Last two cases,, inih mah udah bnykkk bgt contohnaaa…
Yah,, type2 drama sepertinaa… hiihihi….

Hmmm..
Smuana segh ad consequences-na sendiri2 bunggg…
Rani jadi iget Lagu jaduLna Dewa,, RisaLah hati…
Aku bisa membuatmuuu,, jatuh cinta kepadakuuuu meski kau tak cintaaaa kepadaku….
Beri sedikit waktuu,, biar cinta datang karena teLah terbiasaaaaa….
Hihihihihi… ;p

As for myseLf…
If you ask me,, which side do I agree ???
ActuaLLy untiL now,, I’m not sure yet…
Hihiihihi…
But I agree that cinta bisa datang karena terbiasa….
PeopLe do change… and everything can happen… and I’m stiLL Learning ;p
I Leave it up to you ^^
So,, which side do you agree ???????

Le gra’

Another you

So many times I was aLone and couLdn’t sLeep
You Left me drowning in the tears of memory
And ever since you’ce gone, I found it how to breathe
Cause there was so much that your heart just couLdn’t see
A thousand wasted dreams roLLing off my eyes
But time’s been heaLing me and I say goodbye

Cause I can breathe again, dream again
I’LL be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now I feeL free again, so innocent
Cause someone makes me whoLe again for sure
I’LL find another you

CouLd you imagine someone eLse is by my side
I’ve been afraid he couLdn’t keep myseLf from faLLing
My heart was aLways searching for a pLace to hide
CouLd not await the dawn to bring another day
Your not the onLy one so hear me when I say
The thoughts of you that just fade away

Reff

Sometimes I see you when I cLose my eyes
You’re stiLL apart of my Life

Reff

By: Cascada

Pequeño pájaro

I stiLL can smeLL the scent of your perfume…
I stiLL can feeL the warmth of your hand…
I stiLL can see the deepest meaning at your eyes…

Can’t beLieve that I’m Longing for the day to meet you…
But I have to deny this odd feeLing..
No… it is not suppose to be denied…
It is just the matter of fact that need to be directed…
Back to the right track..
Which is shouLd not be Like this…

How can you be such an adorabLe person ???
How can you be such a LoveabLe person ???
Yeah,, I’m taLking about you… onLy you…
You make me comfortabLe whenever we are together…
mi estimado amigo, mi pequeño pájaro

Le gra’

A Letter from your daughter

Dear mami papi…

Mami,, papi…
3 hari Lg Rani mo exam Lhoooo…
Adowww,, seperti biasaaa…Deg deg-an negh rasanaaaaa….
Stres dikit2 muncuL Lg…
Rani jd kangen ama mami papi yg suka nemenin wkt Rani bLjr di rmh dL..
Kangen jg ama masakan ayam & ikan mas aLa mami tiap Rani mo uLangan umum dL…
WaLopun dsini msh ad yg smangatin Rani Lwt sms2 sbeLom exam,,
Tp dsini,, ga ad yg masakin Rani…
Dsini,, sbeLom exam cuma bermodaLkan minum susu doank,, ntu pun susu instant…

Sbenerna yah mi.. pi...
Dr kmaren maLem Rani sakit Lhooooo :(
Tp,, Rani ndak mo biLang mami papi,, takut ntar makin kepikiran Lg…
Makana td maLem Rani ga teLp ke Jkt… Hehehehe…
PuLang greja Rani Lgsg ketiduran,, kedinginan pdhL ga nyaLain AC Lhooo..
Tgh maLem bgn dunia serasa berputar smuaaaa…
Ampe td siang,, ranjang inih kyk digoyang2in…
WaLopun inih cuma menggigiL & pusing2 doank,, tp udah cukup buat Rani sengsara…
Mo ngapa2in jd ga bs…
NuLis bLog inipun dgn kekuatan seadanaaa…
Rani jd kangen ama mami yg seLaLu nemenin Rani di kmr kL Rani sakit…
Papi yg seLaLu pegang kepaLa Rani kLo panas Rani ga turun2…
Mami yg ingetin & ngocehin Rani buat minum obat tepat waktu…
Papi yg seLaLu marahin Rani kLo Rani maLes makan, apaLagi mkn sayur…
WaLopun dsini msh ad yg care sama Rani,,
Tp dsini,, ga ad yg ngocehin & cerewetin Rani…
Dsini,, ga ad yg nungguin Rani pas tgh mLm kLo Rani suka kebangun..

BeLakangan inih jd kangen sama omeLan2 mami papi…
Hahahahaha…
Emang anak yg aneh…
Rani seneng dL mami papi sering nasehatin Rani…
NgomeL soaL niLai sekoLah Lah…
Rani inget dL wkt SD,, mami pst marah kLo pas ditebak2in ternyata Rani bLom hapaL..
Meja di ruang tamu pst msh bs bersaksi sesering apakah kepaLa Rani nempeL di atas permukaanna..
BLom Lg ditambah buku yg terLempar kesana kemariii..
NgomeL soaL keLakuan Rani Lah…
Yah,, waLopun anakmu inih rada tomboy bgttt tp mami papi sLaLu ngajarin jd cewek yg bae & bner…
Hrs sopan sama org,, sapapun mreka..
Ga boLe sombong & hrs tetep Low profiLe (kata2 favemu pi)…
KaLo keras kepaLana Rani udah muLe kumat,, papi pLg seneng degh ngocehin Rani soaL bginian…
Waktu pun udah ga trasa kLo papi udah ngomeL..
Apapun yg terjadi,, ga ad yg bs nyetop papi ampe smua apa yg mo diomongin kLuar…

On the top of that,, Rani sadar bgt kok smua ntu buat kebaikan Rani jg…
Ntu smua bukti sayang mami papi ke Rani…
Arghhhh,, jd sedihhhh…
Satu yang ga mgkn Rani Lupa adaLah smua doa2 mami papi….
Ketika hanya doa yg terucap…
Dan tetes airmata pun tak terhitung Lagi…
Di kaLa iman menjadi pengharapan tunggaL…
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Br 4 bLn yah pdhL since kt terakhir ktemu yah…
And another 4 bLn pLg cepet Rani puLang…
Rani kangennnnnnnnnn….
Ksini dunk mami,, papi…

Le gra’

I just wanna runnnnnnnnnn….
When the waLLs are hiding me,, my sight is bLocked !!!!
I know it’s not right and I must brave to step out….

You know what I’m asking for…
Can You do that ??
May I pray for it ???

Le gra’

the unreveaLed...

I was groping for a friend
in a net of eyes by the tube

I was Looking for a brother
in a heart of nearness as oLd

I am sharing for a Life
to a friend not yet known

I am trusting a brother
at a distance my dream've shown

I am taLking to a friend
in a net of eyes by the tube

I am Looking at his eyes
seemed Like Moses of oLd

I am sharing for a Life
to a friend now yet caLLed

at a distance shared a promise
for a newfound Life yet assured

for at a distance...
a friend and a brother, now behoLd

He's there, I'm here yet embracing
in this LittLe LoveLy worLd

Le gra’

stiLL here ^^

17.10.05
A LittLe girL who know nothing stepped her feet in this LiL country…
OnLy brought her faith toward her Dad…
She doesn’t have any reLatives,, she onLy has a father,, JC…

17.10.07
The story hasn’t finished yet…
The secrets haven’t been reveaLed yet…
And His purposes haven’t been fuLfiLLed yet…

Day by day… This girL Learns a bit,, a bit,, a bit…
Month by month… This girL is taught…
SLowLy,, He changes her Life…
Happiness,, joyfuLness,, deLight,, sadness,, sorrow,, misery…
Thousand feeLings she’s been through…
puLsate…
Loving & to be Loved..
caring & to be cared…
hurting & been hurt..
anger…
having & Losing friend..

Though she feeLs bored,, she wants to feeL enthusiastic..
Though she feeLs fidgety and anxious,, she wants to feeL caLmer..
Though she feeLs afraid,, she wants to feeL secure..
Though she feeLs sad,, she wants to feeL happier..
Though she feeLs angry,, she wants to feeL more peacefuL..
Though she feeLs nervous,, she wants to feeL more confident or sure to herseLf..

One thing for sure is she’s on the right track now,, knowing that her Dad guides her …
Surrounding by her LoveLy friends and famiLy…
His grace never sufficients…
His protection never ends…
His pLan never faiLs…

Yay.. yay…
It’s aLready 2 years back since I arrived here…
Hehehehehe….
Just Like a baby who Learns to crawL…
Hihihihihihi…
Need your heLp to make possibLe for me to waLk…

Le gra’

Ingin...

Kusadar semua ini
Tak seperti yang kujaLani
Semua hasratku adaLah semu

Reff: Dan seiring akan hancurnya hati
Ku ingin kembaLi padaMu
Yang teLah memberikan nyawaMu
Dan tak ingin kuLepas semua ini
Anugrah yang tLah Kau berikan
KesLamatan yang dariMu

Ya Bapa LihatLah aku
Yang tak berdaya tanpaMu
SLuruh hidupku adaLah semu

Reff

Bukan karena smua budi dan baikku
Tapi hanya oLeh kasih karuniaMu



By: Bobby One Way



Le gra'

when u r here...

WeLL…
I dunno what’s inside your mind and I wiLL not never know it..
I can’t understand your way of thinking but I wish I couLd understand a bit…
It’s too complicated… but it attracts me more to know you better…
Just stay Like this is enough for me…
UnLuckiLy,, things wiLL never be the same…
And as the time goes by,, I shouLd prepare for it…
Get ready for the scars that can be appeared… and how to endure it…
Of course I reLuctant to taLk about it and Let time answer aLL…
My curiousity,, jeaLousy,, affection,, anger,, hatred,, enthuse,,quaLm,, uneasiness…
As for now,, Lemme enjoy aLL the things than worry about it…
WeLcome back Maharani ;p

Long time not post some funny2 picts here….
Hihihihihi….
Went out with sesama makhLuk pengangguran,, hihihihi…
Love to spend time with u guys…

MaLem ketika Luka itu timbuL & membekasssss…
Huhuhuhuhu….

Ibuk executive muda kita & her assistantna (tukang pijitna,, hihihihihi….)

ApeLku & apeLmu…

Dusbin’s birddeiii… Mariiiii,, beramai2 ceburin Dusbinnnn…. Hihihihihi….

IniLah sodara2…
SaLah satu bukti kemesuman diantara sesame jenissss…Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii…..

Yg inih,, contoh pria metrosexuaL zaman sekarang… ato cobisex ???
Hahahahahaha…. ;p

Ko Chan,, kLo dLm a minute kmu ndak bangun,, Rani siram Lhoooo ko….
Hiihiihihi… Peace koooo ^^

HBM (copyright by sista) ^^

Big Girl Don’t Cry -- Fergie
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You’re probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shlter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center clarity
Peace, serenity

Chorus:
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It’s personal, myself and I
We’ve got some straightenin’ out to do
And I’m gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
It’s time to be a big girl now
And big girls don’t cry
Don’t cry
Don’t cry

The path that I’m walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps ‘til I’m full grown, full grown
Fairytales don’t always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

Back to chorus

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We’ll play jacks and uno ards
I’ll be your best friend and you’ll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
‘cause I want to hold yours too
We’ll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it’s time for me to go home
It’s getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, serenity

Back to chorus



Listen to this song and the second verse is so….. (fiLL in the bLank)
Hihihihihi….
Take a baby step… and big girL don’t cry…
Hihihihihi….

Watched Resident EviL: Extinction after dinner…
That is not so my type of movie,, but for the sake “ketidak-antisosiaLan” I joined the group…
Like the previous thriLLer or horror movies I’ve watched,, most of the schocking scenes,, I cLosed my eyes…. Huhuhuhuhuhuhu…..
And one time,, I Look at the others,, just want to know whether they cLose their eyes or not…
But,, I found out onLy me who cLose my eyes everytime they pLays the gory scenes…
Even Mama Fenny pun sanggup meLihatna !!!!! UnbeLieveabLe !!!!!
Nampakna hrs sering ntn movie yg gory2 dah,, buat therapy,, hihihihihi… ;p

Soooo tired this nite…
SteLah mrasa cukup active di siang hari ampe sore menjeLang,, akhirna mrasa capek jg maLemna...
The word "active" means active menggoda org,, mencoLak coLek org,, menyetrum org... Hihihihi...
Senangna,, bnyk maenan baru (kaLian2 the geLi-ers ;p) yg menampakkan expresi yg aneh2 ketika setruman itu menuju bgn tubuh kaLian2... Hihihihihi...
Yah,, inih seh bukan perwujudan dr ke-HBM (Haus BeLaian Manusia)-an Rancu,, tp ga tahan ajee kLo ngeLiat brg bagoes ndak dimaenin... GateL pengen dipegang2,, biar bergoyang... Hahahahaha...

After that,, time to go home....
WaLked from Cathay Cine to Horizon Tower then to Tiara then finaLLy reached TangLin View !!!!!
Huebattttt tenan ndak tuh ???
Yg ada,, abies mandi,, br trasa gemporna nih kaki… hehehehe…
Tp,, tetep smangat yeahhhhhhhh ;p

Oh yaaaaaaaaaa….
For my LopheLy friendz… My Marmut Yaya,, Mbah Ruth,, Itie,, Laura…
Hueppie birddeiiiii yah…
A big kiss and hug sent to you !!!!!!
Hiehiehiehiehie….
God bLess you aLL ^^

Le gra’

Concentrate

I can see it cLearLy... and somehow,, it distracts me….
But I choose to shut my mouth up…
I just chuckLe at myseLf….
Knowing that the stupidity can easiLy drag myseLf faLLing deepLy into its hoLe…
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.
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Once again,, I chuckLe at myseLf…
Just reaLize how easy for me to give in something…
What I mean here is,, I never reaLize that I can reach certain LeveL where I give up that easiLy…
Whooooaaaaa…
I thought I’m quite stubborn for what I beLieve in…
In fact,, I’m too scared….
Afraid to hoLd something… Afraid to fight…. Afraid to speak up….
Or… afraid to Lose something.. Afraid to Lose my time…
Therefore,, severaL times I choose to back off…
HopefuLLy I have a brave heart,, more brave…
Otherwise I’d be Like a fooL…
But,, as for now… I try not to think about it first…
There a Lot of things which be better to think of…
Hiehehehehe…. ;p

One of the example is:
Hmmmm….
Finishing “I Kissed Dating Goodbye” !!!!!
It’s been a week since I received that book and I haven’t finished it tiLL now…
Too much other things to be done,, hehehehe….

Remind myseLf to exercise…
I haven’t done any proper exercise for aLmost two weeks or more…
Huhuhuhu…
Can waLk over the bridge be considered as exercise ???
Hahahahaha….

Wooooooo……
It’s aLmost 3am now….
ShouLd go to bed now and wake up earLy…
It’s aLready Sunday now…
Hihihihihihi…

Le gra’

move move move

I got injureddddddddd…………
Huhuhuhu….
This afternoon,, Dustin,, Jenita,, Ivan,, eLisa,, Andreas and me went to East Coast…
Considered it as an outing pre FA for aLL of us,, hahahahhaha…
Decided to pLay roLLerbLade,, we rented it and started to Learn and pLayed it…
Enjoyed it…
Whoaaa,, it’s just a year and I aLmost forget how to use it…
Ckckckckck…
Monyetttttttttttt,, makana,, kmu ksini Lg…
Ajarkan Rancu Lg nyettttt…. Udah Lupaaa negh…
Payahhhhhh…

Fyi,, it was the first time for me using the guard..
But why when I use it,, I feLL more than when I didn’t use it ???
Huhuhuhuhuhu.. SebeLLLLLLLLL….
And at the end of the day,, I got injured in my eLbow…

I think it’s not a big deaL for me,, since the wound is reLativeLy smaLL….
But the thing is,, the bLood haven’t stop yet tiLL now…
A bit strange….
I’ve covered it aLready…
Maybe I bend my eLbow too much,, so that untiL now it stiLL bLeeding…
Busettttt,, inih darah ampe nembus ke Luar pLesterna mannnnnnnnnnn….
Kok jd ngeri yah ?? hahahahahah…
Udah Rancu darah rendah,,ngeLuarin bnyk darah Lg,, huhuhuhuhu….

Oh yaaaa…
I’ve rearranged my room,, finaLLy !!!!!!
Yeah…yeah…yeah….
One of things that I Like to do…
I’ve change my bed and my dress tabLe’s position
A bit bigger when I see it…
Puassssssssssss rasanaaaaaa…
Though I may just Live here tiLL the end of this year…
So saddd… Huhuhuhu…
Need to find another room….
Who have it ??? pLease inform me…
Hahahahaha….

Okay,, I need to sLeep now !!!!
Cya in another entry…
Hihihihihi….

Le gra’

a midnite prayer

Dear Lord,
I reaLLy want to thank you for providing for aLL of our needs…
I appreciate so much we have food, sheLter and cLothing..
Thank you so much for my parents…
I Love them sooo much,, and I’m gratefuL to be their daughter..

I confess to You my frustration,, my feeLings of anxiety about the future..
I Lift these feeLings up to You…
O God, that You may Lift the burden that is in my heart..
O God ALmighty, I know You have pLans for me…

Today, I started dreaming about tomorrow…
I imagined,, just for a LiL bit, what that wiLL feeL Like..
It was Like breathing fresh air…
I imagined a big smiLe on my face,, imagined dancing and cheering.. aLso Laughter…
I imagined feeLing happier than nowadays…
I beLieve that this can happen to us,, I beLieve it is possibLe..

Lord,, I ask you to move in a way that I’ve not seen before…
HeLp me to be diLigent,, determined and faithfuL…
I want to do aLL that I can and for You to move the mountains…
Hear my prayer Oh God…

In Jesus’s name I pray,, Amennn….

Le gra’

end of Sept

The past week was gone fast,, can’t beLieve it’s aLready Sunday again,, 2 more hours tiLL Monday…
So,, there’s nothing much I can say about this week…
There was BoLen’s wed yesterday…
May God bLess them through the way…
CongratuLation… and ceLebration… Hihihihihi…
Akhirna,, bungana Rancu yg bw Lhooo,, hihihihihi…

There was YRC combine service this morning…
“I’m free”…. An aLtar caLL…
A big thx to my sayang Ce Bombie who prayed for me…
ReaLLy reaLLy reaLLy appreciate it…
For the warm hand and hug….
That’s what I need that time…
Maaph,, jika ad yg menetes netes td…
Kejadian td bukanLah fiktif beLaka,, hihihihihi…
So touched by it…

And not forget Liana’s baptism…
Congratz my dear sister…
FinaLLy,, I beLieve this is the right time for you…
Yesssssssssssssss…. ^^

Here it comes the other part…
Just want to say Heppie birddei for Edwin…
Just hope He wiLL guide your way through aLL the time...
Be more mature in aLL aspect…
And of course, hope to see you when I go back to Indo…

I miss those numbers… 161. xxx.xxx
Can’t see it anymore…
But I stiLL can recognize….
And this time around,, it’s not about my desire…
Just my emotion that shouLd be controLLed…

Le gra’

Hard to change it…
EspeciaLLy for a person Like me,, who is stubborn in some ways…
But again,, I’ve been toLd that He is wonderfuL..
He’s done amazing things in my Life…
And yet,, He wiLL do much more amazing things Later on…
Coz when anybody knows,, He knows everything…

I’m gLad that I foLLowed my heart...
Sometimes,, it’s good to Listen to your heart…
Coz angeLs speak their voice softLy at your heart…
Yesterday,, woke up as usuaL and I decided not to go to church…
And instead, had a pLan to go to another pLace in the evening…
It’s nothing but I’m not ready yet…
Not ready for so much things…

Anyway,, so I turned my tv on and watched dvd…
“CaroLina” it’s 2003 movie I guess…
It’s a simpLe movie… my type…
But the point here is,, right after I watched it,, I reaLLy want to attend yrc…
There’s a voice in my heart that forced me to go,, no more bargaining…
And I simpLy couLdn’t deny that voice…
Took a shower and in 30 mins ready to go,, though I know I wouLd come Late there…

Infact I didn’t go to church Last week but it seemed Like a year… Is it too hyperboLa ???
As I came to yrc,, defiteniteLy I wouLd meet aLL my bros and sis…
Seeing them ushering,, singing,, controLLing the sound,, and their other activities makes me smiLe…
I can hear “Redeemer” was sung… vague…
Then,, when I chose the seat,, one of my fave song in my pLayList was pLayed…
.......... The Power of Your Love ……….
So touched by this song....
ParticuLarLy the Lyric is exactLy suitabLe for me…
I thought God reminds me…
But it’s not the end…
The sermon is reaLLy suitabLe with aLL the condition that I’ve been going through recentLy…
Hehehehe….
Again,, He reminds me..

I’m not recovery fuLL but infact I want to be cured..
ALL the sickness… HopefuLLy it wiLL go,, soon…
And reach my fireworks with smiLe,, reaL smiLe..

Le gra’

i.m.u.L

Now I know…. And reaLize….
Yes… Once again…
You are irrepLaceabLe…
You are my one,, and stiLL the one…

I just want to say sorry…
Sorry to aLL of my bros & sis…
Sorry for the unrepLied caLLs & sms…
Sorry for making you worry…
Sorry for ignoring your concern…
Sorry for withhoLding the truth…
Sorry for any assumptions that crossed our mind…
Sorry if I’m too seLfish…
Sorry if I’m so chiLdish…
Sorry for my mistakes…
Sorry for everything….

But now,, I’m back…
Ready to chat with you tiLL midnite…
Ready to Listen to your story…
Ready to spend time with aLL of you…
Ready to be kaypoh…
Ready to berjayuz2 ria again…
Ready to share with you..
Ready to pray with you…
Hihihihihi…

Thx God for this famz…
Thx God for sending me His angeLs…
I Love y’aLL…
I know where I shouLd run to… (hobby merepotkan mode: ON) ;p
How can I not Love you…. (gombaL muLe kLuar…)
How can I’m angry to you… (ndak mungkin Lah yaaaaaa….)
Knowing that you are too worthy to be abandoned…
Knowing that you are too precious to be forgotten…
Knowing that you are my everything… (bombardier gombaL…)
and with you I’m happy… aLways… it’s true…
You brighten my days with Laughter… (wedeh… segitunaaaa.. hihihihi)
You strengthen me with our hope to Daddy…
Though we’re not seeing each other everyday,, but…
There’s none of my days I want to spend without you… (gombaL ajeee truzzzz…)
Yes…. You are my Love… (busettt,, dah kyk org pacaran…)
Apa segh yg gaaa buat kaLian smuaaa….
Udah agh,, jd geLi ndiri nuLisna,, hihihihihi…

Thx for my bros & sis…
Thx buat sms2na yg mengharukan…
Thx buat comment2na yg menyentuh hati…
And for the LiL note yg menggores jiwa….
Lhooo,, kok jd ngegombaL Lg ini….
Hehehe ;p
WeLL,, it’s better than Lying rite ????
DefiniteLy yeahhhhhhh….
Oh ya,, another resoLution from today onwards,, no more Lying to you guys,, hihihihi....
Congratz,, you wiLL be disturbed by me again,, hihihihihi….
Muach….Muach…
^^

Le gra’

Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

That’s aLL I need…
I know it for sure…
The thing is where does my mind go ???
It seems Like everything goes wrong…
But on the top of that,,,,,,,,,,,
I want to move !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Waitin for the reshaping ;p

Le gra’

Sitting here with the birds
bLow by force of nature
How couLd this be
I’m here with a fLower
You come cLose to perceive
beside the stiLL sea

I am standing on this Line
With my mind in turmoiL
Trying to decide which side to choose
To end this torment

The fear of the night here to stay
With the dark grooming whispers of the owL
I waLk through the concave of the hiLL
I wish for the brightest star in the sky

Confuse in the midst of the ocean
One by one we choose our option
Side by side we waLk the bLue pastures
Even though I’m Left with LittLe
I have aLmost everthing I need by my side

I hide to cry
Because I embarrass the moon
And it is my onLy friend
But it’s too far away to hoLd my hand

I hide to cry
Because I have no where to caLL my own
And happiLy ever after is a Land too far away
Just after once upon a time
Just this side of the rainbow

Le gra’
06.09.07

mutuaLisme

One of our traditions that need to be maintained !!!!
Hihihihihihi….
BginiLah yg dimanamakan "SaLing MeLayani..."
;p

my way

WeLL,, I’m enjoying every second in my Lifetime here…
Eventhough Life is not easy and wiLL never be easy for me…
But,, most of the time I aLways take it easy to be abLe to share my smiLe with you..
Coz aLL I can do is just smiLing…

This sentence is popping out again in my head….
Life is aLL about choices….
Choices….
At Least 2 options are provided…
But it’s not there to be chosen by me…
No matter how hard I try,, but the basic principLe is stiLL there…
And the nature force me to back off…

It’s Like I’m at the crossroad…
And I have the right to choose which way that I shouLd take…
Once,, I go and choose the first way…
It’s smooth and I Like this way…
I’m pretty sure that I want to go on this way…
But…
The more I step into it,, the more I feeL that it has a transparent shieLd… not to protect me…
That makes me unabLe to go further….

The other way…
From the beginning,, I can see the traverse is there…
Moreover,, there’s caution for me that said: Dead end…
I definiteLy cannot choose that way… and I won’t…
But when I peek into that way…
There’s no shieLd I saw in the first way…

After aLL,, I found a huge fence in both that bLock my path…
And I don’t have the heart to against it…
ActuaLLy it’s nothing about the heart but I can’t !!!!!!!!
What I can do is….
Back and standing at the crossroad again…

Back and forth… again….
And again…
And again…

I wish…
No,, I EXPECT the barrier in the first way wiLL disappear…
And I found my way through the first way…
If onLy I can choose….

Le gra’

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yes i do....

Too scenic to Let it go…
Yet too scared to hoLd on it…
I’ve gone too far and too fast
And Left my shadow behind…
Though I know in the end
The giant waLL is there
and no one can Lift that veiL...

Le gra'

the extention of time

Okay….
The next destination after YRC is the makan pLace… hehehehehe…
Yesterday we ate in Indo Bistro… sambiL memecahkan berbagai jenis teka teki yg tersedia… Haizz..haizz..
And Ce Elisa,, Ceph,, Bang Ipan,, Ko Chan and I pLanned to go to Clarke Quay,, to “enjoy” something…
Later on,, some of us don’t want to go home too earLy..
Thus,, aLL of us went to Clarke Quay…
A group of us went to hang around,, hahahaha…

Five of us were preparing our heart menuju tiang peLemparan…
Hmm,, actuaLLy four of us..
Ko Chan hanya sbg saksi keganasan aLat eksekusi inih !!!!
Yupz,, we wanted to experienced Reverse Bungee,, huahahahahaha…..
I can laugh at myseLf if I ever ride on it,, since I’m soooooo afraid of things Like that…
But yesss,, once again I said.. I don’t know where the strength come from…
FinaLLy I agreed to join them !!!!!

Busetttttt,, smakin dket giLiran,, smakin deg2an Lah Rani…
Udah,,, ga mo crita gmn perasaanna….
Biar kaLian yg bLom nyoba merasa tertantang to try it…
Ayoooooooooo…. CobaLah,, pasti kaLian akan mendapatkan kepuasan ituh !!!

Then,, we decided to chiLL out in Singapore River by taking Singapore river boat…
Hahahahahaha…. For this one,, it’s unpLanned !!!!
FinaLLyyyyyyy,, Rani naek jg steLah 2 taon dsini menunda2 untuk naek si boat ntu…
Brasa tourist skaLi kami kmaren,, hihihihihihi…
And of course,, those moment is not compLete without photo session !!!!!
From every spot,, every angLe,, every method,, we took picts…
Hmm,, I aLways Like the feeLing waktu si angin ntu menerpa and menghempas wajah…
So reLaxing…. feeL so free…
It’s so different with the feeLing I get when I ride on Reverse Bungee,, hiihihihii….
I’ve Looked at the nite sky,, as the boat went sLower..
There’s onLy 2 stars up there,, and I wish for more…
It’s around 15 minutes,, but I feLt Like it’s just a bLinking of the eye… So fast….

It’s around 10pm when we finished…
We were chatting again in front of the Turkish Ice Cream,, the unique one in how they make and serve the ice cream…
WaLked to 7 11 to buy drinks….
Remember not to often to drink Big GuLp—Coke Light !!!!!!
Hehehehehe….

So,, everything must come to the end…
This aLso happen to our journey for this past 3 days…
It was so crazy,, wonderfuL,, unforgettabLe and memorabLe…
But,, I beLieve there wiLL be more unexpectedLy things that more beautifuL with you aLL my dearest bros and sis….
And not forget to Thx God for having this time with you aLL….
Hihihihihihi….
Yay…yay…yay….

Le gra’