meLLow side of RanCu..

aLL the peopLe come and go in our Life,, it aLso happen with me… one daY u stay,, and the other day u Leave me aLone with the emptiness… never couLd imagine how badLy when u waLk out without notice at aLL… I even can’t caTch ur shadoW to keep it in my Heart.. aLL the meMories that we’ve made just Left in my thought.. aLL the day that we’ve gone through just pass me by and I can’t have it oNce again… feeL so dowN wHen I thiNk aBout the tiMe that I’ve spenT with u,, that was soooo perfeCt,, aLthough it means nothing for u.. (weLL,, I think so..)

u show me the Way to go thRough when I was bLind… the gave me ur time wHen I need iT the most… the way that u speak aMazed me …. the ideas tHat came out from your mind, suRprises me… the things that u’ve done maKes me proud of u.. u sHowed me the thiNgs that I wanT to know… u cheeR me up wheN I was upSet… thaNk you for giVing up ur day that time..

but sometimes u make me confuse.. suddenLy u change without say a word.. bit by bit I find out u become further & further awaY from me… we aRe Like two sTrangers everyTime we meet.. seems Like we’ve never knowN each otHer befoRe.. u’re too busy with ur friends and neVer consider other peopLe who cares with u..

don’t get me wRong with aLL this situation… I don’t know wHy we can stuck in This time when aLL the things get harDer to Let go.. in tHis particuLar moMent when aLL seems so bad,, “I need u” that’s the woRst thing !!!! even myself,, I can’t beLieve it can come out from my miNd… but I think that’s the point.. and it becomes worst & worst when it comes thr tiMe for u to go,, for u to conTinue ur journey in ur Life.. I have my own Life and so do u.. then what shouLd I ask for ??? the time that seParate us wiLL come and I can’t hide it away… few months toWards, i wiLL no Longer can see u… I shouLd be gLad,, cause maybe thiz is d best waY for us since we’Ve kn0wn that we can’T be together..

eVer think about the chaNce that I never had to say,, too shy to speak it Loud,, too scary to know the reaL truth,, too hard to pretend it oVer… we starTed as a frienD but ended with a messy thing surRound us.. buT I reaLize eVen thouGh we foRce us to be together,, it can hurts ourseLves.. too many differenCes between us that makes the disTance becomes more far..
u don’t have to say goodBye,, just turn ur back away and Leave… I can preTend that there’s no sadness in my eyes,, but I can’t Lie to myseLf… maybe after u Leave,, I’LL Look for a pLace to ease my paiN,, tHen reaLize that the pLace I Love to go is the pLace that Reminds me of u…

the Last part,, I just wanT to attach this Lyric.. how can I not love you by Joy Enriquez.. this is my fave song !!!! and I think it’s suitabLe for me now… huhuhuhuuhu….

can not touch,, can not hold
can not be together
can not love,, can not kiss
can not have each other
must be strong and we must let go
can not say what our hearts must know
how can I not love you
what do I tell my heart
when do I not want you here in my arms
how does one walks away from all of the memories
how do I not miss you when you are gone
can not dream,, can not share
sweet and tender moments
can not feel what we feel
must pretend its over
must be brave
and we must go on
must not say what we’ve known all along

Le gRa'
--RanCu--