Say it isn't soooo....

Saying something is an easy job,, but doing it with your heart is not easy at aLL…
I can easiLy say that I want to stop bLogging too often,, but in fact I can’t stand if I haven’t opened my bLog for onLy a day…
Or,, I can say that I want eat more veggies but most of the time I throw the veggies out from the dishes…
Or,, I can easiLy say that I’m ok whiLst inside I’m not ok at aLL…
Last time I found it very easy just to say a word when I didn’t mean it…
WeLL,, if onLy you aLL know which sentences that I mean it,, hihihihi ;p

As the time fLew,, I tried to eLiminate this bad habit out of my Life..
Yeah,, I knew it’s not good at aLL…
I think that’s the other form of Lying,, hihihihi…

But in certain cases,, I stiLL find it’s hard to say the truth…
Hmm,, in more specific,, it’s hard to teLL how you feeL truthfuLLy,, exactLy…
There are certain circumstances when you can ‘t say the truth…
ActuaLLy you aLways have options whether to say it or to hide it…
And I tend to hide it…
Is it the nature of being a girL???
Yeah,, through a conversation with my friend I reaLize that most of the girLs are tend to deny or hide their feeLings..
Why ???
StiLL not sure,, but probabLy it’s due to the uncertainty…
The girLs don’t want to have such a “ke-ge-er-an” feeLing,, hehehehe…
It makes them try to deny their feeLing untiL everything is obvious...
But,, it’s not 100% a vaLid reason…
There are some other reasons,, Like the situation that must be considerated,, that most of the times force us not to teLL the truth,, or withhoLd the truth…
The opposite party's feeLing have to be considerated... and sometimes it makes me reLuctant to say a word...
Maybe,, the words wiLL hurt their feeLing...

Is it good not to teLL the truth in order to make everything “seems” aLright ???
My heart say it isn't so...
but.........
How if the truth wiLL just make the situation more difficuLt ??
If one day when the truth has been reveaLed,, wiLL everything be changed ??
Is it the feeLing of afraid to Loose someone or something ???
And this time around,, why the intention to deny come across my mind again ??
Why do I have to deny it ???