The growing weakness

So,, here I am now..
Counting my days I have…
It’s amazing… Yes,, it is…
It’s reaLLy great to have an experience about aLL these things..

Many Lessons I’ve Learnt here… Not just from the academic viewpoint,, but the most important things is about Life.. Living in this sinfuL worLd… Living as King’s kid…
A Lot of new things I’ve found in here.. Never regret that I can Live here,, at Least for this past 1.5 years… Nothing much that I’ve done,, but I tried to do as much as I can do…
Nothing much that I’ve given,, but I tried to give the best from me…
WeLL,, some treat this country as a transit pLace,, but somehow I feeL Like I wiLL stay here for a Long period of time.. But,, He’s the one who knows everything.. Maybe I stiLL dunno where I wiLL be in the future,, but I beLieve His pLan is great for aLL of us…

FirstLy I thought there’s stiLL possibiLity…
PosibiLity to proLonged my Lifetime here,, hehehehe….
But day by day,, those possibiLity is disappear… untiL now I can say it “it’s impossibLe”
Then finaLLy,, the other option came… which is “back for good”…
Hah hah hah… I reaLLy don’t want it to happen… I want to reject that option…
But,, it’s not me who can decide it…

A month Left to go… A month to face a new chapter in my Life…
A month Left to end this journey here…
Though some part of my heart refuse to Leave this pLace,, but the other part teLLs me to surrender to His wiLL…When it says I must move on,, I have to foLLow it..

But now,, when I’ve decided to move on,, when I prepare my heart to Leave,, another thing happened…
Another thing that I have to face it..
Another thing that force me to pray for it…
Another thing that raise my worry…
Another thing that need to be answered…
And now,, I’m here.. on my way of searching for the answer…
The truLy answer from the truLy one..

If I stiLL have a choice,, I choose not to “back for good”,, I’d rather go “there”,, aLthough I think this pLace is the best pLace for me..
Once again,, it’s not onLy me who decide it…
But... I hope He fuLfiLL "my grown up birthday List"...

Yet after aLL,, I need strength…
Need a shouLder…
Need a hand…
I need you…

"Do not be afraid of tomorrow; for God is already there. "
Le gra’